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Kseniya

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About Me

For I am first, and I - last.
I am envied and looked down upon.
I am lost, yet holy.
I - a wife and a virgin.
I am the hands of my mother.
I am sterile, yet my children are infinite.
I am happily married, yet single.
I -a husband and wife.
And it is I that gave birth to my husband.
I -mother of my father.
I - the sister of my spouse.
I am the truth, but my deception is endless.
I - the light that guides, and the darkness that engulfs you.
I am a traitor, yet my loyalty is unquestionable.
I- the daughter of my son.
I mother a stranger.
Bow down to me,
For I am cruel and compassionate.
*Hymn to Isis, found in Nag-Hammad, 3rd or 4th century BC*
Editted and translated by me, found it in "Eleven Minutes" by Paulo Coelho..
This piece seems personal to me
...." All these people gathered here looked to me for strength and shelter, of one sort or another. And I would provide it, I would provide it... and may they never know how unsheltered their shelter truly felt" ~ p 381, Scroll 4, Memoirs of Cleopatra by Margaret George~
... " The flat stones on the stage, empty as well, invited me to walk upon them. I did so, in slow, measured footsteps, undergoing transformations of character every few paces. I was Medea, my hands red with blood. I was Antigone, guiding her blind father. I was the virgin prophetess Cassandra. In the moments when I pretended, I could feel something change inside me. Had there been rows of faces looking at me, I could have convinced them, too, that I was someone else.
What an odd power and freedom, I though - to pretend to be someone else, someone who may not have ever existed at all, or is long dead. In some godlike way, it makes me - briefly, oh, so briefly - the bestower of life on the lifeless. The infuser of warm breath and blood to the shades. And why limit myself to only other womanly incarnations? Why not be Oedipus himself, or Achilles - or anyone I fancied? The imagination in full force can know no bounds, and the biggest difference between me and these people was not in being a man or a woman, but in existing at all." ~ p 723, scroll 6. Memoirs of Cleopatra by Margaret George~
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Advanced Global Personality Test Results
You Are 28% Sociopath
From time to time, you may be a bit troubled and a bit too charming for your own good.
It's likely that you're not a sociopath... just quite smart and a bit out of the mainstream! Are You A Sociopath?
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||| 53%
Stability |||||||||||||||| 70%
Orderliness |||||| 23%
Accommodation |||||||||||| 50%
Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 63%
Mystical |||||||||||||||| 70%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Religious |||||||||||| 43%
Hedonism || 10%
Materialism |||| 16%
Narcissism |||||||||| 36%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Work ethic |||||||||||||| 56%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||| 70%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||||| 63%
Romantic |||||||||||||| 56%
Avoidant |||||| 23%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 70%
Wealth |||||| 30%
Dependency || 10%
Change averse |||||| 23%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Individuality |||||||||||| 50%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 63%
Peter pan complex |||||| 23%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Paranoia |||||| 23%
Vanity |||||||||||||| 56%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 63%
Indie |||||||||||||||| 65% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
personality tests by similarminds.com Stability results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic..Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.trait snapshot: messy, tough, disorganized, fearless, not rule conscious, likes the unknown, rarely worries, rash, attracted to the counter culture, rarely irritated, positive, resilient, abstract, not a perfectionist, risk taker, strange, weird, self reliant, leisurely, dangerous, anti-authority, trusting, optimistic, positive, thrill seeker, likes bizarre things, sarcastic
You Are From the Moon
You can vibe with the steady rhythms of the Moon.
You're in touch with your emotions and intuition.
You possess a great, unmatched imagination - and an infinite memory.
Ultra-sensitive, you feel at home anywhere (or with anyone).
A total healer, you light the way in the dark for many. What Planet Are You From?
How to make a Kseniya
Ingredients:
3 parts intelligence
3 parts silliness
3 parts empathy
Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Serve with a slice of lustfulness and a pinch of salt. Yum!
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Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com
Your Personality Is Like Acid
A bit wacky, you're very difficult to predict.
One moment you're in your own little happy universe...
And the next, you're on a bad trip to your own personal hell! What Drug Is Your Personality Like?
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My Interests

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That already says something :)
Hmm.. I like this box :) And a lot of things interest me: Psychology- my long lived hunger, I live in it.. I live in our emotions, try to sort them out, link them together...better myself, read different perspectives on things.. it's a very strong passion of mine. Nature - :) this is my sanctuary, my home, my place.. I adore being outside, just observing the wonderful complexity of my surroundings, ... the structure and beauty of trees, the way the light varies at sunrise, Venus that shines to the east, while the sun isn't up, and just the way the wind caresses every being it touches... this probably sounds so strange, but... that is the way I see it. Human suffering- I have strangely become very interested in it... I have accepted it a part of life, yet something causes me to be intrigued by it. The World- I like to get news from other countries, observe the current events.. The unexplained- hehe I feel like a nerd for posting this.. yet I am a sucker for natural phenomenons, UFOs :D, telekinesis,and other sci-fi :), I don't go overboard with it.. yet I still enjoy it, even if I know it is fiction. Music. Guitar- I am forever attached to the sounds of this amazing instrument...I simply enjoy hearing the sound, no matter how simple is the melody.My wonderful friends- the people that made me. Drawing. Painting. Photography.Books. War strategy- this one definitely came from my brother and just serving as an adviser... and learning to understand the complicated maneuvers and tactics.Astronomy.Math. Philosophy. Astrology.Thoughts. Animals. Different Opinions. Logical Arguments. Discovering new things. Being lost in the moment.
Now the simple pleasures of being a human: Soccer. Worms ( Fun game). Racing games. Weird pointless first person games. Sudoku. Tea. Comfortable. Cozy places. My wonderful sheets. Pool/billiard. Battle Field 2. Rainbow 6. A strange combination of things :) Oh, and Violent stickfigure cartoons...

I'd like to meet:


You Are The Sun
You represent the best of life - vitality, success, and and truth.
You tend to have a strong, centered, balanced personality.
Inspiration and discovery are your fortes. You are very mentally strong.
A talented mind, you tend to excel at math, philosophy, and music.

Your fortune:

As well as you have done in the past, the future is going to be filled with more success.
A new creative project is coming your way. Feed it, and it will grow into something huge.
Great riches, recognition, prosperity, or happiness is coming your way.
And it's possible that a fantastic vacation, or a new baby, is coming sooner than you think.

What Tarot Card Are You?
You Are 60% Weird
You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?
But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks! How Weird Are You?
You have been marked on my profile map!

Music:

I like things that are unique, ones that don't sound like everything else out there.. I'm not going to try to make a list.. Too much and I sway from genre to genre through different times... I like some things from every genre... Rap or Country are hard to enjoy... yet there might be someting I don't know about that will catch my attention...Right now I'm listening to a lot of jazz, a lot of instrumental stuff, some Bjork, some spanish guitar, some Enigma... to tell you the truth.. I'm too tired to listen to over-emotional music right now....

Movies:

I like deep movies, movies that pull you in and make you think... Ones that inspire actions, powerful emotions, anything but pointless laughter...
1. God Father ( sucker for mafia movies)
2. Pulp Fiction (agrees with ..1)
3. Kill Bill ( lighter than the rest but, still.. good movie)
4. Fight Club
5. Brave Heart
6. Hotel Rwanda
7. Moulin Rouge
8. Fifth Element
9. Big Fish
10. Star Wars ( Story line)
11.Glatiator ( my brother made me watch it every day with him, when I was little:)
12. Sin City
13. The Wall (no I was not high!)
14. Munich ( AMAZING!!!!MUST SEE)
15. V for Vendetta ( amazing, rebellious movie, that really makes you think, brilliant)
16. Dead Poet's Society

I can't remember any more right now :).. I'll try to add as soon as I realize I forgot something.

Television:

Stewiee!

Books:

Currently reading: Osho
Favorites: Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho, "Zair" by Paulo Coehlo, Memoirs of Cleopatra, Diamond Sutra and White Lotus by Osho, "About a Woman" by Osho

Heroes:

A lot of people truly shaped me in becoming the person I am today...My mom (great woman, I suspect she is the source of my charm, the one I can trust everything, she is the one that gave me the nickname of a fox (no retro sex symbol in mind. She truly affected me when I was little, I could watch her, in complete fascination... she would enter a room... a room of men, being able to capture the attention of all, she charmed them all... graciously walking the line between friendly and flirtatious), My dad ( I haven't seen him face to face in four years, yet we talk a lot... he's the one with all the answers :).. at least it feels like he is... my rescuer when the world is too heavy carry), My brother (there is nothing I can say about him.. we're alike yet different.. he's just my brother... Caesar, Emperor, The Dark lord, :) and I his Apprentice and Monkey), Cameron Perceful ( wow..too much to say... I had become drastically different after befriending him, one that showed me life beyond ignorance, forever my friend), Fishie ( my light, a beautiful person, that taught me a lot.. even though she does not admit it) Alina ( My sister, my mother, my child, my friend), Dennis ( my teacher, someone who provided a complete different way of looking at things), Angel (you have taught me soo much... you awakened love within me). Neil ( also in the process of shaping me :), not fully aware which parts of me, but still)

My Blog

Untitled

Lowering to your tumbling waves,my own reflection burns within your shimmering depth. Although the violent heavens vow to fall,mutilating love,breathless, I skim your surface. Your waters pierce my sm...
Posted by Kseniya on Fri, 01 Jun 2007 03:14:00 PST

Carpe Diem...

So definitely, just reread everything in my info... and something stuck with me... all those beautiful quoted things were still personal to me... I still identify with the voice of Cleopatra in Margar...
Posted by Kseniya on Wed, 15 Nov 2006 08:57:00 PST

Kitty's got claws (flash fiction)

"Rich Espresso, 2 sugars!" an order thunders from across the room.I raise my eyes from my abused and tortured Sudoku book. I've seen him here before; an interested glance once in a while, a cheerful g...
Posted by Kseniya on Wed, 15 Nov 2006 08:11:00 PST

Random... 09/28/06

Hmm... just a random post... don't think there's an exact reason to read it, but I need to write this...I am...Hmm.. I'm here... and feeling kind of down...I finally got time to spend with myself, and...
Posted by Kseniya on Fri, 29 Sep 2006 07:20:00 PST

Comics :)

My favorite :) ...
Posted by Kseniya on Sat, 09 Sep 2006 01:25:00 PST

Che Guevara quotes ( sorry I'm becoming fond of quotes)

Very fond of this man, a brilliant revolutionary, and a smart military man.Cruel leaders are replaced only to have new leaders turn cruel.Che GuevaraI don't care if I fall as long as someone else pick...
Posted by Kseniya on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 10:33:00 PST

Greatest American Criminal Quotes

Really interesting list of criminal quotes... A lot of them are quite brilliant.. they have something about them, other history figures don't... It's a sense of freedom or complete pride for their act...
Posted by Kseniya on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 10:23:00 PST

Encounter ( poem) ... yay something new

Encounterby Kseniya Ivanova Pure, frigid moonlight crashes at my tumbling waves; sleek silver strands bathe in my existence. My graceful waters slither through life's entangled labyrinth, ca...
Posted by Kseniya on Fri, 01 Sep 2006 01:44:00 PST

Happy Hearts and Too Much Love!

Dear Blog and Blog Readers,      Today something amazing happened:  I forgot to sign out of MySpace so Scott wrote this Blog!  But that's okay because Scott is so totall...
Posted by Kseniya on Fri, 07 Jul 2006 09:07:00 PST

Do not know, why I'm posting this, but fill this out.. if you want...

What would you do if:[1] I committed suicide:[2] I said I liked you:[3] I kissed you:[4] I lived next door to you:[5] I started smoking:[6] I stole something:[7] I was hospitalized:[8] I ran away from...
Posted by Kseniya on Sat, 03 Jun 2006 01:47:00 PST