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“What I really need, what I'm really looking for, is not something I can articulate. It's nonverbal: I need love. I need the thing that happens when your brain shuts off and your heart turns on."
-Elizabeth Wurtzel,

"Do you really think it is weakness that yields to temptation? I tell you that there are terrible temptations which it requires strength and courage to yield to."
-Oscar Wilde

"I believe very strongly that when it comes to desire, when it comes to attraction, that things are never black and white, things are very much shades of grey."
-Brian Molko

"If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life."
-Oscar Wilde

Amanda

Turner

Zoe

Misha

Kayla.

Bailey

Derek

Ainsley.

Garrett

"Deceiving others. That is what the world calls a romance."

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•A Perfect Circle •AC/DC •Aerosmith •Afi •Alice Cooper •Alice In Chains •Alkaline Trio •All American Rejects •American Heartbreak •Anthrax •Anti-Flag •Arcade Fire •Arctic Monkeys •Avenged Sevenfold •Axis •Bad Company •Beatles •Beck •Bee Gees •Billy Idol •Black Sabbath •Blink 182 •Bloodhound Gang •BloodRock •Blood, Sweat, and Tears •Blue Oyster Cult •Bon Jovi •Boston •Brides Of Destruction •Cheap Trick •Chris Robinson •Cinderella •City Boy •Coheed and Cambria •Cradle of Filth •Cranberries •Creed •Cult •Cursive •Danzig • David Bowie •Dead or Alive •Death Cab For Cutie •Deep Purple •Def Leppard •Depeche Mode •Devo •Diamond Rexx •Dig •Distillers •Divinyls •Draft Queen •Dragon • Dresden Dolls •Duran Duran •EarthQuake •Elvis Costello •Elvis Presley •Eurythmics •Evanescence •Everclear •Faith No More •Finch •Fiona Apple •Flick • Flight Of The Conchords •Foo Fighters •Fournier •Franz Ferdinand •Freezepop •From First To Last •Fuel •Funeral For A Friend • Garbage •Godsmack •Goo Goo Dolls •Group X •Gun Club •Guns and Roses •Hard Place •Heart •Head Automatica •Hellogoodbye •Hidden In Plain View •HIM •Hole •Hot Hot Heat •Husker Du •Icon •Iggy Pop •Imperial Drag •Incubus •Iron Maiden •Jaded •James •Jane's Addiction •Jefferson Airplane •Jefferson Starship •Jet •Jet Boy •Jet Red •Jhonny Cash •Jimi Hendrix •Jimmy Eat World •Joan Jett •Johnny Thunders •Judas Priest •Kill Hannah •Killswith Engage •King Crimson •Kings X •KISS •Korn •L.A. Guns •Lamb of God •Led Zeppelin •Legendary Pink Dots •Lenny Kravitz •Lita Ford •Lost Prophets •Lou Reed •Loud Sugar •Love and Rockets •Love On Ice •Matchbook Romance •Megadeth •Mentors •Metallica •Metric •Mick Ronson •Mindless Self Indulgence •Modest Mouse •Motion City Soundtrack • Motley Crue •Mott The Hoople •Muse •My Bloody Valentine •Nazz •New England •NIN •Nirvana •Ozzy •P-Funk •Pat Benatar •Pantera •Pearl Jam •Pink Floyd • Placebo •Poison •Pretenders •Prick •Queen •Quiet Riot •Rainbow •Rage Against The Machine •Ratt •Red Hot Chili Peppers •Rob Zombie •Runaways •Rush •Say Anything •Say Hi To Your Mom •Scissor Sisters •Scorpions •Screamin' Jay Hawkins •Sex pistols •SilverJet • Sixx AM •Slade •Slash •Slayer •Smashing Pumpkins •Sonic Youth •Soundgarden •Spinal Tap •Spoon •Static Lullaby •Steppenwolf •Stone Temple Pilots •Stooges •SUEDE •Sugarcult •Suzi Quatro •Sweet •Syd Barrett •T. Rex •Taking Back Sunday •Talking Heads •Tattoo •Tears For Fears •Teaze •Ted Nugent •The Blood Brothers •The Bravery •The Clash •The Cult •The Dandy Warhols •The Darkness •The Doors •The Eagles •The F-Ups •The Flaming Lips •The Fray •The Killers •The Kinks •The New York Dolls •The Pixies •The Ramones •The Rolling Stones •The Shins •The Smiths •The Strokes •The Unicorns •The White Stripes •The Who •The Yardbirds •Thin Lizard Dawn •Thin Lizzy •Tom Petty and the HeartBreakers •Tool •Train •Twisted Sister •UFO •Vain •Van Halen •Weezer •White Tiger •Whitesnake •Wrathchild •ZZ Top
"Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation."
-Oscar Wilde

I'm Lauren.

I am one big contradiction of myself.

I like living fast.

I always want what I can’t have. No matter what it is, or whatever the situation is like.

I don't think of other people when I do things.

I screw up every good thing I have and replace it with something shitty. But I love it.

You'll never understand me.

I fuck up. If you don’t like it, you don’t have to talk to me. Learn to deal.

I let people influence me to much.

Judge me, I dare you. It’ll be funny to see what you come up with, because it’s probably nothing like the truth.

I honestly don’t care what you think about me. People’s opinions about me have gone from the lowest of low, to the highest of high. And I’m use to it. It will always be somewhat of a roller coaster. You won’t like me for the whole time you know me. I will fuck up, and you will get mad. If you are my friend then I can grantee that I will piss you off at least once.

I’m a vindictive, cold bitch. There isn’t a simpler way to put it. If I don’t like you, you’ll be able to tell. You fuck with me and I’ll make your life hell. If you start something, I can guarantee you’ll regret it.

Yes, I’m jaded, and yes I’m bitter. But that wont change so get use to it. It's not like I'm saying my life sucks, so don’t twist my words around and try to turn it to that. Surprisingly, I’m happy with the way shit is.

I don’t put my guard down for hardly anyone anymore. Just a few select friends, but that’s it. I don’t trust people, I never really have. But now it’s worse then ever.

Sometimes I’m the reserved and quiet one, and other times I end up going fucking wild. I don’t act the same around everyone. There are people who I just feel comfortable being quite around and some where they make me act crazy. There are a lot of different sides to me

My emotions are unstable. There never just in the middle. I either love it or hate it, and that’s just how it’s always been. I go from one extreme to the other, there’s no middle ground.

I’m one of the few people who can honestly say that my friends are my life. Without them I really would not be here. The few that have stuck by me through all these years have really helped me in more ways then I can name. They help me, they listen to me, and they’re always there for me. They slow me down when I’m out of control. They’re the only people who can keep me calm when I’m about to freak out. And they stop me from fucking myself up to much. You have no idea how much they mean to me. I wouldn’t trade them for the world.

I don’t always like change. Half of me loves it, I need it, I can’t stand it if things are the same for to long. I have to have something new, something different. Or else I’m not happy. But the other half hates it with a passion

I probably don’t care about you. There are very few people I actually give a shit about. Think that you are one of them? Well you’re probably wrong. Sure I’ll act like you mean something to me, but dear, that’s just acting.

If you don’t like something I do, then tell me. Most of the time I’ll listen to you and stop, after all, I’m not a total heartless bitch. But if I don’t see any way that my actions could be affecting you, and your just talking shit for your own selfish reasons, then I won’t. If you come to be with a problem you better have a reason behind it. Or it will do nothing.