You dont know me. dont pretend you do. you have no idea of what im going through! but it's not your fucking problem. you dont know who i'll be..!! i'm a "nerdy son of a bitch", you say! i know it's not a lie..sometimes i wonder, would they care if i died? the same conclusion is reached tho.."NO" and in my heart, i know im half right. some are depressed. it's true. why? is it my fault? i always hurt the one i love. some call me mean. in the back of my mind. i know it's true! im a hurtful person! too much rejection in this lifetime.. i've only wanted to be loved..!!! the feeling i never retourned, tho.. SOMETIMES I HATE MYSELF!
Today always talks about tomorrow. I always say this will change with time. Change with want Change with need Change because all my fuckups drowned me till i can't breath. I try not to think Dont think so much. I love me, I really do. I Learn from all the " Do the right thing" talks. I guess. I want to be the best person I can ..It always seems to take over. Dont pretend to not care. I can't fool myself. I can fool you tho. And I do.
- cradle of filth - children of bodom - tristania - epica - apocalyptica - shape of despair - coal chamber - devildriver - slipknot - stonesour - killswitch engage - lamb of god - still remains - drowning pool - lacuna coil - nightwish - trivium - fallblame - deathstar - agonia - within temptation - walls of jericho - delain - after forever - avalon - as i lay dying - the 69 eyes - threat signal - leave's eyes - black label society - opeth - dry kill logic - rikets - list goes on..
movies lol...
television lol...
books lol...
myself lol...