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About Me

A freedreaming gal with a love for coffee. I love the simple things in life and try not to take things for granted. I've been around the block, around the country, and think I'm settling down now....I work as a companion animal specialist for Petco and truely enjoy my job. I have been blessed to work with many fantastic, knowlegable people and have been able to guide a few along the way. As a mother of four of the best kids ever, I'm usually busy and running on empty. I was born an active, quiet kid, who turned rebellious and outspoken....and have landed somewhere in the middle now with a brain that never wants to stop. I've been labeled a dreamer, usually lost in my thoughts. In the sun is where you'll find me now (weather permitting in this state).Most of you who know me, know that I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia...something that has stolen a good portion of my life because of chronic pain and a host of other horrible symptoms. Three years went by, and I finally had Lyme disease show up in my bloodwork. I have been on antibiotics for nearly 6 months. I try to keep my chin up and take each moment as it comes...make the best of it. I have had more energy and a little less pain, still hoping that I will not have to live like this for the rest of my life. Lately, I have also had some knee trouble and going to physical therapy 2 times a week. I have to use a cane and wear a brace...frustration has taken over some days as I just want a pain free life. Is this related to Lyme disease? I think so...left untreated as it was, it has likely destroyed a lot of soft tissue. I still work and cook and clean, but am always in pain, and likely overdo it every single day. I am sick of taking pills for breakfast, lunch and dinner just so I can function. I'm also trying to explore other possible treatments and get back to the person I am in my head....the outdoorsy, traveling, sporty, active, spontaneous, dancing girl.....she's still there, but my body says no... ~For those of you who know someone with this illness, please, please, please, take it very seriously...research when you can and understand the agony. That's all I can say about that. Lyme disease is everywhere and it destroys lives...I consider myself lucky to have a doctor that has researched and given me so much hope. Many do not and will not, and because of this, many people are suffering....including another in my family and one of my dearest friends.I used to write a lot... kinda got back into it after meeting an inspiring person, but have lost it again....mostly because I feel like crap and have the attention span of a flea. Songwriting, poetry, writing about nothing at all....I remember those days and hope they return.Am I married, no...in love, yes...And that's me in a nutshell.I love to sing, write, laugh, and sit in the sun on a cloudy day. .. -(..v)- Design your MySpace with MyLook -(..v)-
Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence
You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well.
An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly.
You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view.
A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary.
You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator. What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?
Your Five Factor Personality Profile
Extroversion:
You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."
Conscientiousness:
You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.
Agreeableness:
You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.
Neuroticism:
You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything. The Five Factor Personality Test
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I always love to meet people who share a love for the life they were given. People who aspire to take each day as it comes and make something happen. People who smile at children and grumpy old couples, people who create, who admire without envy, who really try to see the best in others. These people are always welcome in my life. I have a softspot for artists and musicians, writers, photographers, people who see beauty in all that surrounds them, or can create a song to ease my soul.....Would love to hang out with Brett Favre and Ryan Braun..... :)

My Blog

ALONE

ALONEAlone~I can't cry anymore when I feel like this~A home full of life, with no one to kiss.Alone~After work, I do chores, then I sit down to write~Perhaps I'm detached, I just don't want to fight.A...
Posted by on Fri, 10 Apr 2009 18:28:00 GMT

Love is Like the Sun

                                     Love is Like the Sun ~Walkin' in my garden, waitin' for the flowers...it's rainin' on my head, gettin' sick of all the showers...~Tired of stormy weather, got torn...
Posted by on Wed, 08 Apr 2009 21:45:00 GMT

A little ditty (i was tipsy and singing out loud)

I Can't Resist I remember you hid meA long time agoFrom someone you love...and nobody knows...But what about now~Has anything changed?~It's so different now~Still things are the same...I'll never resi...
Posted by on Sat, 04 Apr 2009 10:23:00 GMT

Stuff I wrote on my lunch today

LOVE BOLTSBabe, you've got it all~Yeah, I've said this all before...It's been years and I can't turn away~High voltage dreams are here to stay...Your eyes, when they meet mine,Shoot love bolts through...
Posted by on Wed, 01 Apr 2009 21:03:00 GMT

Life update.

I've had a few friends want to know what's new...so here's the scoop.  Actually, I think a lot of you already know what's going on with me.  I've been a bit more open with my feelings...I'm going to s...
Posted by on Tue, 31 Mar 2009 18:26:00 GMT

Wish I Was the Lucky One

Why do you take these chances?Why do you honor my advances?~When I can't be the lucky one you love...You seem to crave me like I crave you,You seem to dream the way that I do...~I wish I was the lucky...
Posted by on Mon, 30 Mar 2009 20:13:00 GMT

Dancer Turned Fighter

Dancer Turned FighterSunday morning, 8 amShould be dreaming, body screaming~What is wrong, when will it end?Mask it all and just pretendThat I'm ok, that I'll get by.God, I'm so tiredOf living these l...
Posted by on Sun, 29 Mar 2009 11:34:00 GMT

Impulsive poem...Amanda "unplugged"

The words come to mind, your thoughts can't unwind...Exhausted, confused, you try to escape...A secret that haunts... as your heart palpitates.How do you know what is right, what is wrong?  You wonder...
Posted by on Thu, 26 Mar 2009 17:18:00 GMT

Spoke with my doc today,

I am going back on antibiotics to see if I can tame the painful beast that has been gnawing on my insides.  My doctor thinks there might be some sort of inflammatory arthritis diagnosis in my fut...
Posted by on Tue, 30 Dec 2008 20:49:00 GMT

I won't back down

Dear Blog,We had a huge snowstorm last night...haven't heard the totals, but I'm sure we got about a foot of snow.  I guess it's kinda cool, the kids will always remember these snow days.  Haley spent...
Posted by on Fri, 19 Dec 2008 19:43:00 GMT