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Jess

A Poetic Day

About Me


Razors pain you, rivers are damp, acid stains you, drugs cause cramps, guns aren't lawful, nooses give, gas smells awful, you might as well live.
*Please do not send me friend requests if you are not going to talk to me. I will delete you after a certain time if I do not hear from you. I am not someone who needs or wants friends nor do I want someone sitting there on my friend list who isn't really a friend.*
For writings please view my blogs and become a subscriber to get the latest. I am planning on getting a book published soon which you can read more about that in my blog. Now about my writings. I write a lot of dark stuff but I write about life. A lot of it is based on my life happenings. All writings are copyrighted so please do not steal.
Now About The Great One. *Sarcastic Laughter With An Eye Roll*
Hei! Minun nimeni on Jessie. Minä olen 20 vuotias! I love to write and sing. I love music and couldn't live without it. I listen mostly to classical, opera and goth/metal music. I want to move to Europe. I am a perfectionist.
I have Irish, Native American and German in my family. I am a Christian. I do not like people. I have negative views on the world.
I am a singer, no not famous as of yet, but I sing so I am a singer. *Sticks tongue out* My voice range is a soprano. I now run a webzine called Metal Queens. Please visit the site at www.metal-queens.com.
* Street Teams I Am Currently Apart Of *
President of Metal Queens
Tarja Turunen Official UK
Vampire Freaks
* My Accounts *
AOL: IrishEnkeli
XxCry4theGravexX
MSN: [email protected]
Tarja's Forum: AngelofMusic
Deviantart: LostNorthernStar
Livejournal: Morbid_Angel16 (My Journal is Friends Only so add me)
Vampire Freaks: Angels_Fell_First
Xfire: Irishgirl
Gaia Online: Angels Fell First
Youtube: NchantedLullaby
Bebo: Angels-They-Fell
* My Websites *
www.metal-queens.com
* Groups I Own *
* Editor Of *

My Interests

Likes:
God
Singing
Femme Metal
Purple
Renaissance Fairs
Medieval Era
Europe
Perfection
Native Americans
Tattoos
Piercings
Gothic Culture
Visual Kei
Fire
Bible
Angels
Faeries
Elves
Anime
Money

Dislikes:
The number 666
Satan
Animal Cruelty
Abuse
Government
Spaz Tards
Filth
Over Eaters
Politics
Sluts
Child Porn/Pedophiles
Labels
Assholes
Girls who whine over a broken nail
People
The World
Most Churches
The Shizzle Talk
Flag Burners
Unorganized/Messy People
Being Ugly and Fat
Bible Bashers
Bible Thumpers
Hypocrites
Science

I'd like to meet:

I would really like to meet Tarja Turunen. She is my role model and I want so much to be like her. Tarja if you ever read this,"Thank you for being an inspiration to me. You have one of the greatest voices out there."

Also, Jesus Christ.

* Tarja - My Winter Storm Lyrics *

~The Seer~

I cut my heart - a gift to you
You leave salt in my wound
You are inside my wall of thoughts
But in yours I’m unknown

My desperation finds a book of hero’s gone
Legends tell about a saviour wise and strong
I’m burning at the stake of love, the flames get tall
And in my anguish it’s the last resort to call

And suddenly my seer is on my side
Bringing love while forgetting his pride
In his eyes I see there’ll be better times along my way

Nothing to fear
Nothing to fear

Why is it called Elysian fields
When love builds only grief
All your agony and pain stays the same
Till you see

That destination shows you legends long extinct
Rumours are told about a hero kind and skilled
I’m burning at love’s stake and that’s the end I feel

But suddenly my seer is on my side
Bringing love while forgetting his pride
In his eyes I see there’ll be better times along my way

As he longs to speak to me
I realise the reflection while listening
His words mend on my wounds cause he’s me
My seer lives inside of me

When suddenly my seer is on my side
Bringing love while forgetting his pride
In his eyes I see there’ll be better times along my way

Nothing to fear
My seer is here
There’s nothing to fear
My seer is here
My seer is here

~I Walk Alone~

Put all your angels on the edge
Keep all the roses, I’m not dead
I left a thorn under your bed,
I’m never gone
Go tell the world I’m still around,
I didn’t fly, I’m coming down.
You are the wind, the only sound
Whisper to my heart when hope is torn apart,
And no one can save you.

I walk alone, every step I take, I walk alone
My winter storm, holding me awake
It’s never gone
When I walk alone.

Go back to sleep forever more
Far from your fools and lock the door.
They’re all around and they’ll make sure
You don’t have to see what I turn out to be
No one can help you

I walk alone
Every step I take, I walk alone
My winter storm
Holding me awake
It’s never gone, when I walk alone.

Waiting up in heaven, I was never far from you
Spinning down I felt your every move.
I walk alone

I walk alone,
Every step I take, I walk alone
My winter storm, holding me awake
It’s never gone
When I walk alone.

~Lost Northern Star~

I’m the one who leaves shadows in your room at night,
I’m the reason you’re listening enlightening your eyes,
When Pan meets Apollo, down with the sin,
They will send tears of angels, though kindness won’t win.

Lost northern star, buried in sorrow,
I’ll guard your mind,
Let demons howl outside.

When the calm fields of snow become one with the sky,
I am there, I am waiting, as time passes by
I set up the weather to suit how you feel
Drop rain down with wishes, build grace out of steel.
Lost northern star, buried in sorrow,
I’ll guard your mind,
Let demons howl outside.

My soul burns.
Sending dream flakes your way
Painting pictures to help you each day
Yet you don’t know I’m there.

Lost northern star, buried in sorrow,
I’ll guard your mind,
Let demons howl outside.
My soul burns.

~The Reign~

I see the waves of sand
Big, free, another land
Dreams within dreams
You are alive
They gave me their wings,
I spread them wide.

I’ll move on to another place,
From my memories unmade,
I’ll hold on and my heart will find you there,
Love will shine free, forever.

Sun flames and moons glow,
Timeless the tides will flow,
What will I face, what will be mine,
Fortune and fate, the other side.

I’ll move on to another place,
From my memories unmade,
I’ll hold on and my heart will find you there,
Love will shine free, forever.

~My Little Phoenix~

Gracefully she’s circling higher
She has the wind beneath her wings
And looks down on us
She said: “robbed of my innocence, had no more time to play.
I sure got my feathers burned, but I’m stronger than the flames.”

Here she comes, here she comes, I’ve been waiting for so long.
Here she comes, rose again from the flames,
My little Phoenix.

Eternity is set in her eyes,
Throwing sparks back at the world, that’ll never die.
And I think: “she was robbed of her innocence, had no more time to play.
She’s only a little girl, but she’s stronger than the flames.”

Here she comes, here she comes, I’ve been waiting for so long.
Here she comes, rose again from the flames,
My little Phoenix.
Here she comes, I’ve been waiting for my little Phoenix.

You’ve got to get close to the flame,
To see what it’s made of,
You’ve got to get close to the flame,
To see what you’re made of.

Here she comes, here she comes, I’ve been waiting for so long.
Here she comes, rose again from the flames,
My little Phoenix.

~Boy and the Ghost~

The streets are empty,
Inside it’s warm,
His hands are shaking, they locked the door.
A voice is calling, asking to get in.

All he wanted was a toy,
All he needed was a gentle heart, to lead him through the dark
When his dreams are running wild.
Boy and the ghost,
Fire’s not burning, the lights went out.
The lights went out.

Big family dinner, the untold pain.
Their eyes are sparkling on his frozen face.
Angel’s calling, asking to get in.

All he wanted was a toy,
All he needed was a gentle heart, to lead him through the dark
When there’s nowhere left to fall
Boy and the ghost
His eyes are burning
The lights went out.

The dream is on.
Wake up, wake up, there’s an angel in the snow,
Look up, look up, it’s a frightened dead boy.
With so much hate, such bad dreams,
He could have seen, the toy’s the key,
But no one saw, no one saw.

All he wanted was a toy, all he needed was a beating heart
To lead him through the dark
Boy and the ghost

Despero, solitas, debilis, desolo,
Despero, solitas, debilis, desolo,
When there’s nowhere left to fall, nowhere to hide,
The silence is hurting, inside it’s cold
Sleep or die.
Nowhere to go, nowhere to hide.
His light went out.

~Sing For Me~

It’s getting hard to breathe, darkness in my head frightens me,
There’s a little devil in my mouth,
Writing ugly words for you to shout.
The virgin soul that lived in me, is raped by insecurity.
I need you to sing, sing for me my love
Sing the right from wrong,
Here inside my mind, truth is hard to find.
It’s getting too crowded here,
All alone and playing with my fear,
I don’t want this anymore,
I’ve tied myself down to the floor,
I need you to sing,
Sing for me my love,
Sing the right from wrong,
Here inside my mind, truth is hard to find.
Sono mihi.
Sing for me
Sono mihi
Sing for me
Sono mihi
Sing for me
Sono mihi
Sing for me
Sono mihi
Sing for me my love
Sing!
Sing for me my love,
Sing the right from wrong
Here inside my mind, truth is hard to find.
Sing for me my love,
Sing the right from wrong
Here inside my mind, truth is hard to find.

~Oasis~

Hyvyyden varjo peittaa kyyneleen
Loytaneen luo vie askeleen.
Rauha saa, kehto uneen tuudittaa.
Toivo jaa, tie rakkauteen.
Tie syvaan vapauteen.

~Poison~

Your cruel device
Your blood, like ice
One look could kill
My pain, your thrill
I want to love you but I better not
Touch (don't touch)
I want to hold you but my senses
Tell me to stop
I want to kiss you but I want it too
Much (too much)
I want to taste you but your lips
Are venomous poison
You're poison running through my
Veins
You're poison, I don't want to
Break these chains
Your mouth, so hot
Your web, I'm caught
Your skin, so wet
Black lace on sweat
I hear you calling and its needles
And pins (and pins)
I want to hurt you just to hear you
Screaming my name
Don't want to touch you but
You're under my skin (deep in)
I want to kiss you but your lips
Are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna
Break these chains
One look could kill
My pain, your thrill
I want to love you but I better not
Touch (don't touch)
I want to hold you but my senses
Tell me to stop
I want to kiss you but I want it too
Much (too much)
I want to taste you but your lips
Are venomous poison
You're poison running through my
Veins
You're poison, I don't wanna
Break these chains
I want to love you but I better not
Touch (don't touch)
I want to hold you but my senses
Tell me to stop
I want to kiss you but I want it too
Much (too much)
I want to taste you but your lips
Are venomous poison
You're poison running through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna
Break these chains

~Our Great Divide~

Dark blue sea,
Calling me,
Songs of waves,
Keep me safe.
Sky so deep, there’s no end,
The moon still asleep, a bed of stars for me.
How can I see through your eyes, my destiny!
I fall apart, you bleed for me.
How can I see through your eyes our worlds collide!
Open your heart, to close our great divide.
Distant prayers, carved in stone,
The silent words, they will still be heard,
How can I see through your eyes, my destiny,
I fall apart, you bleed for me
How can i see through your eyes our worlds collide!
Open your heart to close our great divide.
How can I see through your eyes, my destiny,
I fall apart, you bleed for me
So i just float with a tide through the night, I pass you by,
Open my heart to close our great divide.

~Damned and Divine~

It won’t help if you wait for me
I’m a slave to the dark
I know I’m not a saint, you see
The dawn is when it starts,
Feel the shadow of my oblivion
Hoping mercy would show her face
On the road to your own perdition
In the coal blackened rain.
Frozen in time yearning forbidden wishes,
Damned and divine,
Scars of my broken kisses,
What will follow, if tomorrow’s blind?
My eternal night.
As the wind takes me away from you,
Before the morning light,
My sins are fading into view
I’m so weary deep inside,
Feel the shadow of my oblivion
Hoping mercy would show her face
On the road to your own perdition
I may see you again.
Frozen in time yearning forbidden wishes,
Damned and divine,
Scars of my broken kisses,
What will follow, if tomorrow’s blind?
My eternal night.
Frozen in time yearning forbidden wishes,
Damned and divine,
Scars of my broken kisses,
What will follow, if tomorrow’s blind?
My eternal night.
Every single dawn, I die, again.

~Die Alive~

Open up the night led by just a feeling,
All around is light,
Everything is healing.
No more fate and no more mistery,
Even as time falls away,
I live my days every moment and its memory, not only to survive, to die alive.
Overwhelming love, heaven’s just a feeling,
Singing in my blood, keeping me from kneeling.
No more fate and no more mistery,
Even as time falls away,
I live my days every moment and its memory, not only to survive, to die alive.
Die alive!
No more fate and no more mistery,
Even as time falls away,
I live my days every moment and its memory, not only to survive, to die alive.

~Minor Heaven~

Take my longings and believe them,
Light a candle if you know,
I breath love, don’t wanna be there
These are thing I got to know.
The magic seems so far
Don’t know who they are
Let me go, Minor Heaven,
Cause my blood to run
Leave this place unforgiven,
Heal me with your sun,
How can i come undone?
Let me know Minor Heaven.
Light a way for me to walk on,
From the ashes to the sky
Burn the thorns so I can hold on,
Trust in me, I know I’m right.
You know it’s gone too far,
Leave them where they are.
Let me go Minor Heaven,
Cause my blood to run,
Leave this place unforgiven,
Heal me with your sun,
How can I come undone?
Let me know Minor Heaven!
Even if nothing I’ll become, something I’ve been for all too long,
Let me go Minor Heaven!
Cause my blood to run,
Leave this place unforgiven,
Heal me with your sun,
How can I come undone?
Let me know Minor Heaven!

~Ciaran's Well~

Misty cold nights
You’ll hear her sigh
And sing bitter
sweet lullabies

For years she prayed
The saints would cast
A spell for the
Forest to let her go

She sings…
She dreams…
She prays…

She sings…
she plays…
she stays…

Ahh Ahhhh
Ahh Ahhhh

The black old well
Holds ancient tales
And makes all wishes come true
So throw your dream
Into the dark
And Blue will come for you

~Calling Grace~

In the dark, captured in his frozen heart,
Colors fade intro grey.
She tried so hard, every word was torn apart.
Shot her down with poisoned darts.
Her tears made her swim beneath the sea,
She’s free.
Calling grace, she’ll never fall again,
Love remains in her.
Softly her inner voice has learned to speak,
Following her dreams.
Her tears made her swim beneath the sea,
She’s free.
Calling grace, she’ll never fall again,
Love remains in her.
Calling grace, she will rise again.
Sacrifice the saints,
Still…
Love remains.

* Fanlistings I Am In *

* My Youtube Videos *

Music:

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12021
18 Visions
2 Bullet
3 Inches of Blood

A
Ablaze in Hatred
Apocalyptica
Acid Bath
After Forever
Anaphora
Angelspit
Angtoria
Anorexia Nervosa
Antestor
Arch Enemy
Avantasia

B
Battlelore
Blackmore's Night
Blind Guardian
Blood

C
Carmen
Carpathian Forest
Carpe Diem
Catamenia
Celtic Frost
Charlotte Church
Charon
Children of Bodom
Circle of Dust
Clannad
Cradle of Filth
Crimson Moonlight
Crossbreed
Cruachan
Cruxshadows
Cryptic Wintermoon

D
Dark Moor
Dark Sanctuary
Dark Tranquility
Darkwoods My Betrothed
Dawn of Awakening
DeadstarAssembly
Delain
Demon Hunter
Demons & Wizards
D..espairsRay
Diablo
Dimmu Borgir
Dir en Grey
Dope Stars Inc.
Draconian
Dragon Force
Dream Evil
Dreamtale

E
Edenbridge
Einherjer
Elis
Eluveitie
Elvenking
Ensiferum
Epica
Eternal Tears of Sorrow
Evanescence
Eve of Destiny

F
Finntroll
Flaw
Flogging Molly
Folkearth
For My Pain
Fragile Hollow

G
Gackt
Galadriel
Gazette
Godsmack
Grave Digger
Gullet

H
Haggard
Hammerfall
Helloween
High and Mighty Color
HIM
Holy Blood
HorrorPops
Hyde

I
Iced Earth
Inkubus Sukkubus

J
Josh Groban

K
Kagerou
Kagraa
Kalmah
Kamelot
Karly Soile
Kekal
Kisaki Project
Kittie
KMFDM
Korn
Korpiklaani
Korpimetsä
Kotipelto
Kozi

L
Lacrimosa
Lacuna Coil
L..Arc~en~Ciel
Lareine
Leave's Eyes
Liv Kristine
Loreena McKennitt
Luca Turilli
Lullacry
Luna Sea

M
Malice Mizer
Manowar
Marilyn Manson
Masterplan
Merry
Mirzadeh
Misery Inc.
Miyavi
Moi Dix Mois
Moonsorrow
Mors Principium Est
Mortal
MUCC
Muderdolls
Mushroomhead

N
Narnia
Negative
Nexx
Nightwish
Norther

O
Opera Babes
Operatika
Orgy
Otep
Ozzy Osbourne

P
Penicillin
Pierott
Poisonblack
Power Quest
Psycho le Cemu

Q
Qntal

R
Rammstein
Random Eyes
Raphael
Reba McEntire
Rentrer en Soi
Rob Zombie
Rockbitch

S
Sandi Patty
Sarah Brightman
Satyrian
Savior Machine
Septic Flesh
Sharon Knight
Sonata Arctica
Soulrelic
Stevie Nicks
Stone Sour
Stratovarius

T
Tacere
Tarja Turunen
Tarot
The 69 Eyes
The Birthday Massacre
The Darkness
The Gathering
The Sins of Thy Beloved
Theatre of Tragedy
Trans-Siberian Orchestra
Tristania
Turisas
Twilight Guardians
Twilight Ophera
Twilightning

U
Unburied
Unholy
Unrefined
Unshine
Untimely Death
Unveiled

V
Vidoll

W
Wednesday 13
Wintermoon
Wintersun
With Hate I Burn
Withered Garden
Withered Within
Witheria
Withering
Within Temptation
Woods of Belial

X
Xandria
X Japan

Y
Ydin
Yearning
Yesterday's Torment

Z
Zakk Wylde

Movies:

Phantom of the Opera
Girl, Interrupted
Memoirs of a Geisha
The Passion of the Christ
My Neighbor Totoro
Last Quarter
Pirates of the Caribbean
Lord of the Rings Trilogy
Harry Potter Collection
The Notebook
Edward Scissorhands
What's Eating Gilbert Grape
Final Fantasy Advent Children
Girl Interrupted
Anne of Green Gables
Chucky Collection
Hangman's Curse
The Crow Collection
The Craft
Misery
Dolores Claiborne
Book of Shadows
Ginger Snaps Collection
Hide & Seek
Moon Child
Ju On
Ringu
Dead Friend
Kill Bill Vol. 1 & 2
+More

Television:

Shows:

Reba
Lost
Criss Angel:Mind Freak
Prison Break
Desperate Housewives
Pimp My Ride
Parental Control
Xena Warrior Princess
Charmed
House M.D.
That's So Raven
Super Nanny
Nanny 911
Wife Swap
+More

Anime:

Slayers
Boogiepop Phantom
Naruto
Rozen Maiden
Elfen Lied
Chobits
Bottle Fairy
Samurai X
Love Hina
Tenchi Muyo
Gunslinger Girls
Sailor Moon
Bleach
Serial Experiments Lain
Magic Knight Rayearth
Vampire Princess Miyu
Sugar Sugar Rune
Akage no Anne
Hellsing
Disgaea
Full Moon wo Sagashite
Ragnarok
Tsubasa Chronicle
Full Metal Alchemist
Pita Ten
Fruits Basket
Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha
Trinity Blood
Kiddy Grade
Mai Hime
Nurse Witch Komugi
+More

Books:

Manga
Anne Rice
Edgar Allan Poe
J.K. Rowling
Tolkien
William Shakespeare
Robert Frost
Emily Dickinson
Stephen King
Louisa May Alcott
Laura Ingalls Wilder

Heroes:

Jesus Christ, My Mother

My Blog

Growing

GrowingThe Innocence of a Childthey know more than we ever willUnderstanding. Loving. Caring. Accepting.Why can we not be like a child?They run around in the meadowsImaginations running wild. Laughter...
Posted by Jess on Wed, 28 May 2008 06:12:00 PST

Daddy

DaddyDaddy, I thought I'd write youjust to let you know I'm ok.To show a little love to youthat you often would turn away.Many times you've told meas clear as you could bethat I was the one in the wro...
Posted by Jess on Wed, 28 May 2008 06:11:00 PST

For All People

~News~First off....I have no problem with you being gay, wiccan, atheist and so on but if you are going to knock on my religion and my God than I will no longer have a friendship with you. It is calle...
Posted by Jess on Thu, 10 Apr 2008 12:34:00 PST

Listen

Here is part of my testimony and a lesson for you.ListenThough I walk through the valley of the shadow of deathI shall fear no evil for God is with me.Is He with you?Have you asked God to come into yo...
Posted by Jess on Wed, 26 Mar 2008 08:58:00 PST

The Abused

A new one from meThe AbusedLove was taken from me long ago.Innocence, my childhood stolen.Hatred, pounded into me by angry fistsso hard that my face would become swollen.Laughter that once belonged to...
Posted by Jess on Sun, 23 Mar 2008 06:57:00 PST

Daughters Last Letter

I know I said I was going to stop posting my stuff here but I lied. lol. Here is a new one which is a letter.Daughter’s Last LetterDid you like touching me?Did you think I was having fun?Could y...
Posted by Jess on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 07:41:00 PST

My Interview With Otep

I have posted a new interview with Otep up on my site. Go take a look.www.metal-queens.com ...
Posted by Jess on Fri, 14 Mar 2008 09:48:00 PST

Metal Queens

I am now running a new webzine called Metal Queens.www.metal-queens.comVisit the site and join the groups!The number of fans is growing fast.Bebo - Over 100 fans.Myspace - Over 300 fans.Vampire Freaks...
Posted by Jess on Thu, 14 Feb 2008 09:29:00 PST

My Book and Title

No more poetry by me will be posted up onto my blog. I am hoping to have my book out by the end of 2010. Thank you all who have enjoyed my works and supported me. I hope to soon have a book for you al...
Posted by Jess on Mon, 24 Sep 2007 08:14:00 PST

Death Lurks

Death LurksMust I walk upon these fiery coalsor crawl through broken glass?Must I lie down in this bed of razorsor shall I soak myself with gas?Should I call on God to strike me downor shall I call on...
Posted by Jess on Sat, 08 Sep 2007 03:06:00 PST