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About Me

I'm making a new life for myself.... if you wanna know just ask. I feel stuck right now but I'm working on it. My myspace page used to be really cool but I had to delete it because I knew my parents would be looking for my page and I'm not allowed to have one. I'm a little bit of a black sheep. Not many people understand me but I deal with it. The only one who needs to understand me is ME!Sometimes I wish I could sit back and watch the world burn beneath feet. I wish I could shoot lightning from my fingertips and destroy everyone who ever hurt me or someone I love. I wish I could bring certain sinners back from the dead so I can punish them personally myself. I wish I could make a difference. I wish I could find myself worthy of love. I wish I knew my friends were really my friends. I wish I could tell everyone the truth about me and be done with this. ABOUT ME..... I hate myself and I always will. The only reason why I'm still here is for the sake of my own family despite the trouble they give me. My parents have already lost 1 child, it would be selfish for me to end myself with no regard to them. They've been through enough. But one day, if I feel my family will be better off and that I am of no use to anyone, I will take my leave.I edited my profile with Thomas' Myspace Editor V4.4

My Interests

Music, art, and satirical literature

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Music:

Sepultura, Metallica, Marilyn Manson, NIN, Disturbed, Rob Zombie, Lamb of God, Alice Cooper, Black Sabath, Nazareth, The Doors, Aerosmith, My Chemical Romance, Kidney Thieves, FlyLeaf, Kitty, Evanescence, KoRn, Slipknot, Ministry, Type O Neg., King Diamond, Blue October, Death Cab for Cutie, Drowning Pool, Mudvayne, Cold, The Riverboat Gamblers, Deadsy, Chevelle, Lacuna Coil, Jimmy Eat World, Rancid, The Ramones, Billy Idol, Sid Vicious, Guns 'N Roses, Velvet Revolver, Danzig, Ramstein, The Rasmus, Flogging Molly, the Blue Season, BLS, Children of Bodam, Vertigo Sun, etc... width="425" height="350" ..

Movies:

Tim Burton, Tarantino, Robert Rodriguez...... THINGS OF THAT NATURE. Scary movies, gory movies, funny movies, just not romantic or cheezy holiday movies. Oh yeah!.... I love the Moulin Rouge!

Television:

Angry Beavers, Invader Zim, King of the Hill, Rocko's Modern Life, Criminal Intent, Fairly Oddparents..... other than that I don't really watch that much television..... BTW...... I HATE DR. PHIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Books:

Brave New World, Rebecca, The Hobbit.... that's it.... I don't read much either.... I prefer poetry to novels.

Heroes:

No one...... there's no one that I can follow after and meet with happiness and success. But... if I could look like anyone it would be Amy Lee..... apparently she is as short as I am.

My Blog

I'm a Fuck-Up... Big Surprise

So.....I've fucked up..... again..... I let myself have feelings. I must be retarded. Why do I always do this to myself. I'm such a BITCH! I don't know if I'll ever make it past this point in my life....
Posted by Sweet Emotion? Dream On! on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 05:56:00 PST

So much more to say than this.... Not much else to mention

I've been at this point for too long. Suffocating under the pressure of everyday life... I just feel like giving up. How much of this is worth it? Why do I work so hard in college when I'm just ...
Posted by Sweet Emotion? Dream On! on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 05:47:00 PST

The Daily Blood Bath

The kiss was nice..... It had been a very very long time since I had been touched that way. It's been months since I've felt pleasure over pain. But that doesn't make it right. Should I be disheartene...
Posted by Sweet Emotion? Dream On! on Tue, 09 Jan 2007 11:25:00 PST

When all this time I've been so hollow inside

Well..... I guess now is a time for me to focus on my career. I should put love on hold and make something of myself. But why? Will I even make it to the next chapter in my life before I destroy mysel...
Posted by Sweet Emotion? Dream On! on Wed, 27 Dec 2006 11:43:00 PST

Unforgiving

Unforgiving --> --> This can't be happening to me.Everything I worked for is lostI could jump through hoops for my loveBut, sincerely, at what cost?My love is broken down somewhereMy heart is worn...
Posted by Sweet Emotion? Dream On! on Sat, 23 Dec 2006 09:45:00 PST

Death Becomes Me

My parents came to me today and confronted me because I've been "moping." They told me that I had to get over him, move on with my life, and start participating in the family OR I had to get out. Don'...
Posted by Sweet Emotion? Dream On! on Tue, 12 Dec 2006 05:34:00 PST

Bittersweet are These Days

Here I am again. I already told my mother I would break up with Carl and things have been considerably less tense between us since. However, the tension I've created within myself has only strengthene...
Posted by Sweet Emotion? Dream On! on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 04:54:00 PST

The End of Things Beautiful Once Again

It's over. I tried.... but it didn't work. My family out right said they would never accept Carl and that I would never be a member of the family unless I gave him up. This is killing me. I miss him s...
Posted by Sweet Emotion? Dream On! on Tue, 05 Dec 2006 03:41:00 PST

Just fade away.

I'm sad today. I've finally lost my grip on what little self confidence I had left and I've fallen into the pit of despair once more. I miss Carl.... it's starting to eat away at my soul. This is almo...
Posted by Sweet Emotion? Dream On! on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 04:53:00 PST

Beauty is Only Sin Deep

I think I've posted these poems before in the past, but they're still as valid today as they were then. I need to refresh my own memory anyway. Beauty Is Only Sin DeepEvery waking moment is tra...
Posted by Sweet Emotion? Dream On! on Fri, 03 Nov 2006 04:37:00 PST