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Vicarious

Falling further in this permanence, losing everything, I am merely remnants

About Me

well my name's Dustin, i'm an eclectic Chirstian, I think that the real truth has been twisted and much of what we believe isn't really true. I am a quite a Sagittarius, but may not seem so at first. Generally, I am a pretty shy person, socially quite anxious, which limits my social functioning to a strong degree. I get over things VERY quick and am extremely adaptable, versatile, and am VERY optimistic on a blind level. However, I'm still a mentally weak individual, but i've grown alot within my years. I am usually quiet and mellow, although at home I seem much more myself, in which I act more .."outgoing..", much less anxiety in acting myself... I am very vain, but not mean or criticizing to others, even though i feel a cessation to do so. I can be very intellectual, and am often very observant and am VERY philosophical, it's just of my nature and has been for as long as i can remember. I am extremely thought-provoked, by many many things, always have been, i can't say it any clearer. I feel i see "little things" on a more deeper viewpoint, a whole picture manner than most people(?). I am very open and understanding, but I am very cruel....I'm very hypocritical if i see something wrong with someone, it's usually apart of me too. I am usually very nice, generous and forgiving, because i am very passive. I am very mysterious, there are some things i will not tell anyone, and some things are best left unsaid.I often feel .."unsexed.."(If that's the word) but I generally am very sensitive and in a some ways, extremely feminine, I am not all that masculine, i lack the qualities completely that make a real man, I wouldn't consider myself a guy or a girl, in fact when i'm in a crowd of guys and girls i feel completely sexually separated from both guys and girls. ..
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You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. How Boyish or Girlish Are You?Your results:
You are Poison Ivy Poison Ivy 78% Dark Phoenix 69% Dr. Doom 64% Apocalypse 60% The Joker 57% Magneto 57% Catwoman 55% Mr. Freeze 54% Juggernaut 52% Venom 51% Two-Face 48% Riddler 44% Lex Luthor 42% Mystique 40% Green Goblin 36% Kingpin 28% You would go to almost any length for the protection of the environment including manipulation and elimination.
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My Interests

friends, girls, SINGING(Nirvana, Silverchair, Seether, Bush, Skillet, etc grunge i ..

I'd like to meet:

As far as relationships go, i would want to meet a girl who understands and accepts me, is OPEN and versatile, girly(because i am not that manly), has similar interests and one who i feel myself with. Also I love a girl who has a sense for gothic/emo fashion.

Music:

MUSIC IS A TOOL. I get moved by music more than most people. And also unlike most people I am a vicarious music listener, and I feel it helps me understand me and others more deeply. EMOTION/PASSION is an essential characteristic i have to have for me to love a band(usually). A big reason is becaus e it helps me get in touch with my passion and I love to listen to music vicariously as if i were the person... it's ...beautiful...anyways There are so many songs out there that just sound mind-blowing at first but then the mood changes, and the song's fucked. I nearly worship music, and I think of it as an entity, which is why I have such a huge music section.... I like Heavy Metal, EBM, Synth-Pop, Future-Pop(AKA Transcendential-Pop), Death Metal, Progressive Metal/Rock, Baroque Pop, Classic Rock, Black Metal, New Wave, Pop Rock, Christian Rock, Southern Rock, New Age, Psychedelic Rock, Aggro-Tech, Contemporary Rock, Emo, Shoegaze, Indie Rock, Folk Rock, Symphonic Rock, Trance, Piano Rock, Grindcore, Post-Punk, Mainstream Rock, Post-Rock/Metal, Power Metal, Jazz Rock, Glam Metal, Thrash Metal, Dream Pop, Chinese Folk, Industrial, Metalcore, Grunge, Post-Hardcore, Synth Rock, Reggae, Industrial Metal, Gothic Rock/Metal, Darkwave, Ethereal, Alternative Rock/Metal, Japanese music(J-Pop, J-Rock), Electronica, Soundscapes, and in rare cases, Rockabilly, Rap(although rap is NOT music i like a few songs), and R&B......(In no particular order) SKILLET!(fav band, I love the singer's vocals, very passionate and emotional), VNV Nation(this is what i call hit the fan music, beautiful...and passionate vocals, electronic mixing that brings tears to your eyes, a band that makes you connect with yourself), 3 Doors Down, Puddle of Mudd, TOOL, Peter Murphy(one of my favs), Alice In Chains, The Birthday Massacre, Assemblage 23(In my Top 10), Dir en Grey, Bauhaus, Blue October, Cold, Staind, Skinny Puppy, Ministry, Nirvana, King Crimson, The Cure, Tears For Fears, Seether, Through the Eyes of the Dead, Amon Amarth, Colony 5, Amethystium, Arch Enemy, My Dying Bride, My Bloody Valentine, Sisters of Mercy, Mindless Self Indulgence, Morrisey, The Arcade Fire, Johnny Cash, Puscifer, Gojira, Insomnium, The Postal Service, Ayreon, Paul Oakenfold, The Red Jumpsuit Aparatus, The Goo Goo Dolls, Pantera, REM, U2, Dragonforce, Symphony X, Fall Out Boy, Coldplay, Jeff Buckley, HIM, The Dillinger Escape Plan, Eve 6, Everclear, Diary of Dreams, Whitney Houston, Leona Lewis Three Days Grace, Smashing Pumpkins, Delerium, Bush, Hikaru Utada, The Dresden Dolls, Tristania, Sirenia, Between the Buried and Me, The Smiths, Misery Signals, Bob Marley, The Human Abstract, The Cruxshadows, TATu, Taking Back Sunday, Rammstein, Smile Empty Soul, Imperative Reaction, Cesium 137 Panzer Ag, Rage Against the Machine, Red Hot Chili Peppers, KoRn, DIO, Bright Eyes, Therion, November's Doom, Dead Can Dance, Avenged Sevenfold, ISIS, Nine Inch Nails, Red Sparowes, Pelican, James Blunt, Gojira, The Velvet Underground, Joy Division, Jimi Hendrix, Cream, Doors, Yes, OPETH, Orgy, WASP, UnderOath, AFI, Breaking Benjamin, 10 Years, Silverchair, ATREYU, Dream Theater, The Misfits, Used, From First to Last, Slipknot, John Lennon, Mudvayne, Fugazi, Grendel, Senses Fail, Deftones, Linkin Park, System of a Down, Anathema, Murderdolls, Behemoth, Dimmu Borgir, Virgin Black, Disturbed, Armor for Sleep, Disturbed, Limp Bizkit, My Chemical Romance, Godsmack, Moonspell, Alexisonfire, Queensryche, The Fray, Escape The Fate, Carcass, From Autumn to Ashes, Funeral For a Friend, Orbital, Pearl Jam, As I lay Dying, In Flames, Counting Crows, Bayside, Kottonmouth Kings, Aiden, All That Remains, The Cranberries, Type O Negative, Death Cab For Cutie, I Am Ghost, Boston, The Foreigner, The Acacia Strain, A Life Once Lost, Kandles at Nine, Chimaira, Hawthorne Heights, Cradle of Filth, As Cities Burn, Becoming The Archetype, God Forbid, Rise Against, FATE, Scars of Tomorrow, Mastodon, Darkest Hour, Dead to Fall, Trivium, System Syn, Trust Company, Rock Kills Kid, Front Line Assembly, Marilyn Manson, Kansas, Emery, Haste The Day, KMFDM, OTEP, Killswitch Engage, Zao, Shadow's Fall, Grateful Dead, Living Sacrifice, Porcupine Tree, Norma Jean, Skillet, Evanescence, Velvet Acid Christ, Collide, The Kovenant, DJ Mystik, DJ Tiesto, Pink Floyd, LYCIA, Steve Roach, Ayumi Hamasaki, X-Japan, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Guns N' Roses, Bleeding Through, Lamb Of God, Rob Zombie, Limp Bizkit, Static X, Mushroomhead, Dope, ........and so forth
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Movies:

I like many Animes including:......NARUTO!!!!, Escaflowne, Lain, Evangelion, Bakuretsu Hunters, Akira, Bleach, Pet shop of Horrors, Psycho Diver, Twilight of the Dark Master, Digi Charat, Ghost In the Shell, Tenjou Tenge, Haunted Junction, Inyuyasha, Tenchi Muyo, Cowboy Bebop, Outlaw Star, Dragonball Z, Perfect Blue, Ninja Scroll, etc.Live action movies:...... Lord of the Rings 1,2,and 3(favorite movies), Waking Life, A Scanner Darkly, Brokeback Mountain, Harry Potter 1,2,3,4(probably my second best series of movies), Donnie Darko(second fav),The Number 23, Silent Hill, Transformers, Final Fantasy VII:Advent Children(really awesome), Sicko, An Inconvenient Truth The Departed, Fearless, Ong-Bak, Freedom Writers, One Flew Over the Cucuu's Nest, The Protector, Chronicles of Narnia, Hostage, Hannibal Rising, Crouching tiger Hidden Dragon, House of Flying Daggers, Saw 1,2, and 3, Hostel, Exorcism of Emily Rose, Dazed and Confused, Half-baked, The Ring(freaky when I first saw it), The Shining(the first horror movie I watched all the way through, very freaky and unique), Underworld, Van Hellsing, Dracula 2000, Resident Evil 1 and 2, and much more.......

Television:

I rarely watch TV but when I do I'll watch, HEROES(LOVE!!), MTV Headbanger's Ball,Sifl And Olly(not played on TV but good), Uranium, South Park(alright) maybe an educational program about interesting shiz or something, Friends is alright, Evangelion and other Adult Swim shows

Books:

!!!Harry Potter!!!, all of the books are frickin awesome, favorite one is Azkaban

Heroes:

I'll fill this out later....

My Blog

Untitled Poem

I wrote this "poem" in less than 10 minutes, which is good, and i’m really picky, lol for me, I made it in a way to where only I can understand it.Night may I only seeLike InfinityChange is alwa...
Posted by Vicarious on Mon, 31 Mar 2008 10:15:00 PST

Semi-Anguished "Love" Poem

I just felt like posting this poem, I wrote this up relatively quick, considering my mind-set, though it really isn't a milestone, but I do like a few of the lines, and i don't know if it's just me, b...
Posted by Vicarious on Tue, 20 Feb 2007 03:08:00 PST

(another)Depressing poem

Damn, well a few of the lines I like, if i could actually think straight it'd be a pinacle of a difference, but i still like it, the subject is quite vaguely touched into, people are so secretive nowa...
Posted by Vicarious on Mon, 15 Jan 2007 09:10:00 PST

Introspective Poem???

Well ok so i usually don't write, especially poetry, but i've been mildly interested in it(i would be more, but my mind is "spun"), anywho, This poem is not quite finished. Feel free to tell me what y...
Posted by Vicarious on Fri, 15 Dec 2006 04:03:00 PST