I wake up, sit down at my computer, eat, and go to work. I come home, I sit at my computer, I eat, I ponder, I procrastinate, and then I sleep. Occasionally laundry or some house-hold maintainance interferes but generally that's the pattern. I have no fascinating hobby, no serious long-term life goals, and the absence of motivation disallows me any sense of direction... Or is that the other way around...
I do pushups, occasional curls and crunches, along with eating somewhat properly to show myself that I can, and improve my physical appearance. I used to do it because I felt that being more physically capable would increase my overall confidence in myself, and while it has, it also allowed me to realize that there are many more factors involved in my self-esteem and personal motivation that cannot be 'ripped' or 'toned' out. I aimlessly wander through life missing deadline after deadline for a every opportunity at improving my life because I'm not sure what to do with it. I sort of feel like Kain from Kung Fu, except that I don't know Kung Fu, and I don't really travel anywhere. Like a metaphorical Kain, where I am Kain, and his travels are just aimlessly wandering through other peoples' lives searching for purpose. Yeah, that's the ticket.
I took one of those question and answer test things, and I don't find it to be particularly accurate, but it's interesting. Here it is:
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||| 63%
Stability |||||||||||||| 56%
Orderliness |||||| 26%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||| 70%
Interdependence |||||| 23%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Mystical |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Artistic |||||||||||||||| 70%
Religious || 10%
Hedonism || 10%
Materialism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Narcissism |||||||||||| 43%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 50%
Self absorbed |||||| 23%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||||| 63%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Avoidant |||||| 23%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 70%
Wealth |||||| 23%
Dependency |||||||||||||||| 70%
Change averse |||||||||||| 50%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||| 56%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Sexuality |||||||||||||| 56%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||| 50%
Histrionic |||||||||||| 50%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Female cliche |||||||||| 36% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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You see what's screwed up in the world, but you also take time to remember what's right.
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