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TessTosterone

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About Me

What is left of our life, but fragments of fragments of a tattered memory? This shiny happy smile has been tainted with insecurities and incriminating evidence, but we fight, and we hope, and we learn along the way. ++ &you leaned upon your elbow, &began to speak to ME.but you stopped yourself&kissed me.and I grabbed your wrist and told you I KNOW,I KNOW,I KNOW.I FEEL THE SAME AS YOU. And everyday, it's changed since then. In every way, I've changed since then. ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ ++++++++++++++++++++++ One day I will be in a place where I can be me and be happy. I just don't belong here with these people. I'm nothing too special, you wouldn't pick me out of a crowd, probably, but that's fine because I'm not usually in crowds. Jori says "It's funny you're such a farm girl." Jessica says "You're an asshole." Luke says "No pinching!" Daniel would say what Jessica said...only better. And I can't think of what Keegan would say. But she'd laugh afterwards. I'm not going to sit here and preach to you how cool I am, because it would be a lie and a cry for attention. I'm nothing special. I'm a high school girl that really wants to be anything but that. I don't know myself and I don't know what I want. I have absolutely no idea who I am. And I don't expect anything different. ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ ++++++++++
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I love honest open smiles, kisses from a child, tomatoes on the vine, and onions. I love winners when they cry, losers when they try, music when it's good, and Life. And I love you, too.
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I'd like to meet:

The Ghost of Corporate Future.

Music:

At the Drive-in, Belle and Sebastian, The Black Keys, The Blood Brothers, Brand New, Bright Eyes, Broken Social Scene, Built to Spill, Cake, Clap your Hands Say Yeah, Cream, Casey Dienel, Cat Power, Cat Stevens, Circa Survive, The Clash,Coheed and Cambria, Coldplay, Cursive, Damien Rice, The Darkness, Dashboard Confessional, Death Cab for Cutie, The Decemberists, Deftones, Dressy Bessy, Electric Light Orchestra, Eels, Emiliana Tomini, Feist, Frou Frou, The FLaming Lips, Forget Cassettes,The Good Life, Gorillaz, Grandaddy, Guillemots, Harvey Danger, Hot Hot Heat, Iron and Wine, Jack's Mannequin, Jet, Jeff Buckley, The Killers, The Kinks, The Kooks, Land of Talk, Led Zeppelin, MODEST MOUSE, The Modern Lovers, Murder by Death, Muse, Nada Surf, Neutral Milk Hotel, Oxide, Primus, The New Pornographers, Pavement, Pixies, The Postal Service, Pretty Girls Make Graves, Quasi, RADIOHEAD, Regina Spektor, Sean Na Na, The Shins, Simon and Garfunkel, Sleater-Kinney, Smashing Pumpkins, Shwayze, Soul Coughing, Spoon, STARS, Sufjan Stevens, Tool, Taking Back Sunday, Tenacious D, Ugly Casanova, Wilco, Wolfmother, The Veils, The Kinks, My Morning Jacket, Beck, The White Stripes, Tegan and Sara, Aimee Mann, Rilo Kiley, old classic country... [the Garden State soundtrack is amazing]

Movies:

princess bride, never been kissed, school of rock, moulin rouge, shawshank redemption, a clockwork orange, love actually, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, chicago, the life aquatic, the royal tanenbaums, rushmore, donnie darko, crybaby, the motorcycle diaries, empire records, that thing you do, rent, the blues brothers, brick, kiss kiss bang band, robin hood, lucky number slevin, beauty and the beast, little children, pan's labyrinth, the darjeeling limited, juno, into the wild, rocket science, bottle rocket, across the universe...SO MANY MOVIES

Books:

KURT VONNEGUT.+Milkweed, I Am the Messenger, To Kill a Mockingbird, On The Road, All Quiet on the Western Front (Words, words, but they held the horror of the world.)His Dark Materials, Harry Potter

Heroes:

My family. Kurt Vonnegut. Andy F. Hope Jones.

My Blog

Wait.. they don’t love you like I love you.

    The more you write the more you write. It makes sense.. don't worry. Is there an X in any stateof mind, of body,my soul and an artform.Tomorrow, wake up and get a job for them to co...
Posted by TessTosterone on Thu, 05 Jun 2008 11:53:00 PST

Summer lovin, had me a blast...

Today, guess what? It was in the 80's. I was outside. I laid in the grass and let my skin turn red. We were at the farm until after 9:00 and the sun was still showing us the way. The wind was quiet,&n...
Posted by TessTosterone on Mon, 19 May 2008 10:03:00 PST

I get by with a little help from my friends.

    The Vietnamese girl is a lesbian. So...watch out, I guess. A girl with broken teethshe stares at the happinessthrough a frosty windowpanestark blue eyes through waves of blondethey ...
Posted by TessTosterone on Mon, 12 May 2008 11:24:00 PST

Back at the hospital, you got no visitors at all.

    Blood Brothers party, anyone? [1-900-USA-N-A-I-L-S oh, baby.]     andyou’re so fucked up...yourafucking mess.  Come on, come on.    &nb...
Posted by TessTosterone on Fri, 21 Mar 2008 11:52:00 PST

Buzzah!

What is this?An untouched solemn ingratitudeFor days long pastAnd they were long passing,For they lasted years and monthsAnd caused a turmoil in the livesOf all it collided with,Throwing dust and rock...
Posted by TessTosterone on Wed, 12 Mar 2008 09:29:00 PST

Ode to education.

I wrote this like ... 2 years ago? But I just read it and decided it needed to be posted again, even if some of the facts are a little outdated. School sucks and I would love to just kick it right in ...
Posted by TessTosterone on Wed, 05 Mar 2008 10:27:00 PST

Pantalaimon, the soul.

The yellow lights, their name is amber.They blink themselves to deathbut nothing registers I've a hole for a head. I'll dial 411 for a bible verseconsumed, chewed, and spat outfor your enlightened ple...
Posted by TessTosterone on Mon, 18 Feb 2008 12:22:00 PST

I wasnt at school today.

This is a new beginning. This is the start of something new. Or did I just say that? This is no more repetition. Learn something, do something. Be something. Or what? Here's something soft to crash la...
Posted by TessTosterone on Tue, 05 Feb 2008 10:20:00 PST

So let go.

Here is something. BUT FIRST!Please don't get offended by anything I say. And just read the words. And take them for what they say. I'm not trying to be bitchy. Or mean. Or full of teen angst. I just ...
Posted by TessTosterone on Sat, 05 Jan 2008 02:41:00 PST

incapabilities

        up til midnightto watch the ball droplike an adolescent that just hit pubertyoh man such distastethis is heavy and fruityand tastes like daterapeforce me to see y...
Posted by TessTosterone on Mon, 31 Dec 2007 03:04:00 PST