Jess

I'm a pretty complicated person. I have lots of likes and dislikes and sometimes I get confused on which is which. My favorite color is usually blue but sometimes I really like green or even red, but not together because who wants to always be associated with Santa Clause? Not me. I love to laugh but I cry ridiculously easily and I love to laugh with people but I get nervous to meet new people. I like to be taken seriously unless I'm joking in which case being taken seriously stinks because it ruins the joke. It's hard to be sarcastic around people who don't get it. And I'm not so sure that sarcasm is such a great thing anyway... I want to be holy but the more I try the more I find that I am not holy and that there's nothing good in me so I sure am thankful that God loves me anyway and I really want to know Him better. Sometimes I feel like I really know Him and that I'm growing in my relationship with Him and sometimes I feel like I'm with a stranger again but I know that the stranger is me. Cause He knows everything about me, I'm the one who falls back....I want to know what it means to "cease striving and know that He is God"... I really love sports and I love to play basketball but my body is pretty much falling apart...I love to joke around and talk trash but I also want to be humble- see what I mean? Complex individual... ;) I'm smart but I'm just not that smart and I'm funny, but I am the one who laughs at most of my jokes...I don't see this as a problem.