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About Me

I'd like me if I were you. Sheeeit..I'd say I was pretty damned cool....if I were you, that is.

My invisible twin
I have a twin sister
That most don't know about
We grew in the same womb
Played in the same house When I was a baby
I really didn't know about her
We were already toddlers
When first we met each other For some reason,
With us she didn't stay
A lady Mrs. Fetall
Kept her not too far away Why she was with her,
I'm not sure you, see
They never spoke
About that part with me I always heard her name,
My fam they spoke about her
They said we would meet one day,
Maybe sooner, rather than later Sure enough
They were right,
She came once
And spent the night Pretty soon
She was a permant fixture,
In mine and
My family's picture Can't say I was happy
About this change
But soon I realized
She was here to stay At first she was real quiet,
Stayed to herself most the time
Seemd all she did was watch me,
And that suited me just fine As we both grew and got older
She started to come out of her shell
When she saw me, her eyes would smoulder
And I knew she didn't wish me well The more I lived life
And failed to succumb
The faster it seemed
Her own life came undone The only time she smiled
Was when I wasn't. See..
The only time she was happy
Was when I coudln't be Her very existance
Turned out to be my bane
What she viewed as sanity,
I could only see as insane
My gift to her was normality
Her gift , nothing but pain She was the master of trickery
Made me feel we were the best of freinds
Made me fee like all the bickering
Had finally come to an end She told me
We had the same dreams
Ones she'd support me in pursuing
Then when they were within reach,
She'd revel in what she helped ruin Man our battles are never ending
Short breaks...Follwed by session
After session of bloodletting I find my only solace
In brief intermissions
That last long enough,
For me to clear my vision
To take one more breath
And ask myself this question.. Was this the life I chose as punishment
For some past life "transgression? It only lasts long enough to... Pray that this will be the last streatch,
On this life long road of *sickle unrest I know I should love my sister
And blood is thicker than water
But damn, sometimes it seems
Blood drowns you so much faster
And instead of her hand
All she offers is her laughter Cuz she knows we're bonded by blood
And through me she runs..
And sometimes her attacks
Just leave me a shook one..
And I can't live without her,
Cuz without her i'm done So she must stay within me..
..and I must, just have faith..
..and continue to stand by ..
..and watch as she lays waste.. To.... My organs, my bones,
Even the very marrow
I escaped her before
But my escapes were very narrow
She keeps whisperin
Baby no ones promised tomorrow
But I can promise you
Infinite hours of sorrow It takes all that's in me,
Sometimes to just not listen,..
As she reads off the list..
Of all the things im missin..
The life i'll never have..
The baby I won't feel kickin..
The love I won't recive,..
Cuz the man he won't stand witness..
To the sickness that lives in me..
The sickness that is she...and ... Brief Intermission........*takes breath* So I take one more breath
Find the strength to keep on fighting
This bitch may got the the bark,
But my teeth were made for bitting God knows my body's tired
And my minds close to breaking,
But I still can't let my spirit
Or life get overtaken Don't want to get blinded
By the things she shows to me
So I close my eyes and.. Yes, I can see
And everything appears
So much brighter inside of me Now my sister starts to shake,
I can see she's scared now
I'm reaching out for my dreams,
..yea no fear now Life's right in front of me
And im ready to take my slice
Whip cream with all the toppings,
Lick my lips and take a bite
As she stares at me in surprise. She no longer has control,
Im staring in her eyes
The first time in my life,
I've seen my sister cry" My sister will never leave me,
She'll be with me all the time
I am in her blood
And she lives in mine
But now all she can do is watch me
....and that suits me just fine... They say blood is thicker than water,
And yes this is true
But sometimes blood,
Can drown you faster,
Than the ocean's tides will do
So if you havne't figured it out the sister in the poem is my Sickle Cell disease. There is a lil more info in my blog. If anyone has a questions or want to share an experience or story don't be afraid to drop a line.

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My Interests

Everything I can possible know without going insane....aww..then i won't know what it's like to be insane....Everything i can possibly know without going insane.. .for TOO LONG.

I'd like to meet:

All family members who passed .. I was born. My mom and dad as children. The person I was born to be. A spirit who has already passed on...preferably a nice, non soul taking spirit.

Music:

I have Alot Alot of musics that me likes. So to narrow it down I'll just name who's playing on my Mp3 right now.Alternative/ Rock/ Heavy Metal:Metallica, Aerosmith, Nirvana , Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Faith no More,Janes Addiction, Danzig ,The Ramones, Radiohead, Black Sabbath,QueenSuicidal Tendencies, System of A Down, The Beatles, The Dead MilkmenThe Doors, The Who, Gun's N' Roses, Green Day, No Doubt, Pearl JamColdplay, Evanescence, Incubus, Maroon5, Papa Roach,The CranberriesAlien Ant FArm, Alanis Morrisette, Dave Matthews Band, Fall OUt Boy,Gavin Degraw, Harry Chapin(cat's in the cradle),Soul/ R&B/ Hip Hop/ Oldies:Lauren Hill, Frankie Lymon & The Teenagers, Millie Small, Akon, Beyonce,Destiny's Child, Ciara, Brandy, Erykah Badu, India Arie, Jaheim,John Ledgend, Joss Stone, Keyshia Cole, Mario, Missy, Ne_yo, Ray J, Sade,Sam Cooke, Stevie WOnder, The Platters, Usher, Eminem, Rhiana,The Poundas, Big S & T, Trezay, Pink,Reggae: I Wayne, Bascomb XI have alot more reggae but these are just songs on my mp3 right now, I just got it so I dont have everything im into yet.

Movies:

Crash, The Shinning, 28 Days Later, Saw, Lord of the Flies (the b&W version),It, A beautiful Mind, and NUFF NUFF NUFF DOCUMENTARIES!!!

Books:

Yes...yes i do read. Lots of words have I read............YAY!!!1

My Blog

Theory/Thoughts on The Bible's Tree of Knowledge Good and Evil. What REALLY Happend on That Day

Thoughts on the book of Genesis, the Tree of Knowledge Good and evil.Im always thinking about any and everything, but especially things concerning religions and humans in general. The reasons why we d...
Posted by MyZen on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 08:00:00 PST

It's a poem Damnit!

I wrote this in 2002, after I recieved a phone call from one of my closest friends, telling me that his house was on fire as we speak. I remeber it striking me at how calm he was about the whole thing...
Posted by MyZen on Sat, 27 May 2006 01:56:00 PST

READ THIS DAMNIT@!!

Our problem is , we Buy into the wrong things Trying to fill up the empty spaces within   Yet the more we collect, the less we seem to gain Then end up having to get all this shit Ex-changed &nb...
Posted by MyZen on Mon, 06 Mar 2006 12:26:00 PST

My Invisible Twin

OK just to make it clear, I am by no means a poet. It just so happens that every now and then I get an urge to write down my thoughts. Sometimes these thoughts just happen to...ryme. Heh Read thi...
Posted by MyZen on Fri, 03 Mar 2006 02:58:00 PST

Sumthin like Poem..

It's not the best poem ever and the concept might not be fully expressed clearly. But im'a take a cue from a SS peer who paints and writes poetry also, and he post everything even the ones that a...
Posted by MyZen on Thu, 02 Mar 2006 08:49:00 PST