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waiting for recompense

put away the coloring book, its time to grow up ..

About Me

I AM A FIGHTER

I'm not sure if there really is someone out there for me. Maybe he's sitting right next to me, I don't know, and maybe I never will. We try, we fight, we win, we lose, life is a roller coaster ride and I'm not getting off, even though I'm getting motion sickness...

Dear Diary, Today I stuffed a doll full of dead rats I put in the blender...I'm wondering if maybe there really is something wrong with me...

I am my own inspiration.
I am an art whore.
I am neither here nor there, I am me and thats all there is to it...

I COULD TRY MY WHOLE LIFE JUST TO BE PERFECT
AND EVEN WHEN I DIE, I WON'T BE WORTH IT

I FOLLOW THE HEART, NOT THE ANATOMY

Paint It Black Lyrics ..

My Interests



I AM ONLY WHAT I SEEM TO BE

I'd like to meet:



NOLA- give me a king cake baby, give me a beignet kiss, give me a french quarter morning that looks like this, give me the endymion krewe, give me the times-picayune, give me a drunk and lazy crawfish boil in muggy sticky june, give me a six pack of dixie, give me some assorted abita beers, give me a city where it only snows once every 10 years, give me a green neutral ground, give me a mardi gras ball, give me a medium rare burger at my grand old Port of Call, give me a glittery drag king show, give me the streetcar line, give me the House of the Rising Sun, give me a Tchoupitoulas sign, give me a shrimp and oyster poboy, give me lovebug season in May. Give me my New Orleans, I will definantly stay...

Express Love Often has 8 Friends Miggs

Truth iz Love

Charles Edward

Here Comes the Sun

LOML

The Mav Man

Shane Cockring

Shelly Doll

Music:



Movies:



"we can't do this 24 hours a day, 7 days a week" "why not"
"have you ever seen a human heart it looks like a fist drenched in blood"
"you have a kind of sick desparation in your laugh"
"to wanda"
"i would love to be upstairs watching tv or gossiping about boys or god even studying, but i have to save the world...again"
"lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off"
"we do only what we are meant to do"

Television:



Heroes:

buddha, albert einstein, gloria steinem, guerilla girls, marilyn frye, socrates
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My Blog

if its meant to be

If you love something enoughAnd you've done all that you canIf there's one thing I have known and learned first handSometimes you have to just let it go awayHope that it comes backHere to you some day...
Posted by waiting for recompense on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 01:59:00 PST

toys r us kid

dust on shelves of the child that never grew up she died in the skin of a confused addict says there is innocence in my eyes the mirror can't capture because they seem dead to me if only he could see ...
Posted by waiting for recompense on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 01:58:00 PST

the sun is coming up

and i want to go to sleep
Posted by waiting for recompense on Sat, 08 Sep 2007 04:23:00 PST

peace, love, and understanding

what's so funnyburn it to cinderswatching it cracklonely beautiful babyit's all coming backeyes capture the heart locked down in those depthstitillating challenge I choose no regretsit seems its all b...
Posted by waiting for recompense on Sat, 08 Sep 2007 03:31:00 PST

puppies thats funny

not gunna laugh when I'm sick of it all throwing my fist into another brick wall anger drives me and compassion holds me back I need that combination not to attack I'm shaking and dirty here stuck in ...
Posted by waiting for recompense on Fri, 07 Sep 2007 01:17:00 PST

cold

with winter comes the hour of my rageseeping blood and ripping pageall within falls apartwe knew this was a shot in the darka chance we choose to takea vow you chose to breakeven the sweetest candy le...
Posted by waiting for recompense on Tue, 04 Sep 2007 01:26:00 PST

looking, waiting

so now i will look into the voidto see what has been destroyedunderstand what i should seethe great illusion of ecstasylie to me, i want the lieswhen the truth comes someone diesso now i go my friendt...
Posted by waiting for recompense on Tue, 04 Sep 2007 01:23:00 PST

and your flowers will bloom

roach twitching in despair poison does the same to us both I cringe, stomp out the life my house isn't where he belongs ashes to ashes we are dust in bindings of pages old books, history what will tim...
Posted by waiting for recompense on Tue, 04 Sep 2007 01:15:00 PST

missing my family

They drive me bonkers, they infuriate me, but goddamnit if I don't love them. And I miss them like crazy. Especially my sweet baby Grayson. Grrrrr...I feel left out...
Posted by waiting for recompense on Sat, 01 Sep 2007 08:19:00 PST

more me being me

Everything is a lie you know. The only thing in this life that is true is yourself. I am the only person that can be completely honest with me. I have compromised too much in this life. I think I may ...
Posted by waiting for recompense on Tue, 21 Aug 2007 02:35:00 PST