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BELLA DES

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About Me

is it cliche to say; im DESTINY -
its not about chance, it is about choice - decide your determination, because the future is inevitable but a great fate isn't resevered for anyone.
everyone has the same story, in different versions and different languages; but in the end were all the same.
young enough to not give a fuck; old enough to know better. "so much more than you used to" "everything im not makes me everything i am" growing up is about finding yourself, in that case i may never be an adult because i want to live my entire life finding myself - i know exactly who i am but theres just so much i want to be. "my rep is impecable, not to be fucked with" my "attitude is hotter than the earth's core" - some say i need anger management, i say manage to not make me angry & everything will be alright. "i'm a host of imperfections;but there's potential in all my flaws." i've made plenty mistakes in my short life, but wouldn't change any of them, because "perhaps it is our mistakes that shape our fate, make us who we are." if i knew in the begining what was going to happen in the end i would still watch the movie - because see it isn't about either, it is about the journey that gets you there. and yes i believe life is one hell of a journey, one that only i have control of.go where i want, when i choose, with who I decide & every single adventure i have been on or in or surrounded by has made me exactly who i am. people will do anything not to be average; everyone wants to be significant - but the truth is significance is found in your own heart. tommorow isn't promised to anyone, and a second chance isn't guaranteed; so i will LIVE FABULOUS - make every minute count, every moment spectacular & every kiss magical.
LOVE is being accepted FLAWS & ALL. that's why i LOVE you.
"i'm a puzzle, yes indeed, ever complex in every way & all the pieces don't come in the box"
but this is me; love me or hate me but take me as i am !
it is amazing to look at a person and know you share more than the same blood; you have the same heart; you'll live the same lives - the exact reflection of everything i was & everything i wish i could be - a sister the only TRUE LOVE that will FOREVER remain UNCONDITIONAL.
~The InfamousT.Y.M. Squad~

My Interests

my first love- a blank sheet of paper & colorful pens; the definition of my life.in a world so loud your voice isnt always heard but my words are my release.

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"my heart rests firmly on one fact, i AM my mother's daughter"
I often freak out and spend my days apart and distant, my words biting and hurtful, tearing at old wounds and scar tissue. She walks beside me, still, as I cry about the future and question us and our togetherness, because it builds up inside me until I think I’m going nowhere and I shouldn’t drag anyone there with me.And it's always her, still, waiting until I realize that going nowhere might just be the fun of life. It’s her, not knowing where we are going but determined to go together. It’s always her looking at my pieces and gently convincing me that they aren’t pieces, just cracks, and that the most beautiful things are the ones that are worn and loved, cracks and all. In her eyes, even my imperfections are beautiful.In my heart, she’s everything.
family -my reason for living; theres is no greater beauty than to be apart of something so spectacular, so special, so beautiful & so very dysFUNctional. =)

My Blog

unfaithful.

I wish my words were enough to describe the feelings that I get inside when I think of how your last name sounds with mine. Four letters do an awful job at explaining the emotion which takes over my ...
Posted by BELLA DES on Tue, 19 Dec 2006 08:23:00 PST

MuSic Is My BoyFriEnD!*

GoIn through some shit .. Always going through some shit .. MuSic Getz Me ThrU It.. Its Perfect in Every Sense!!! HeaT LyRics a CrazY BeaT = Me [ZoNiN] In a DiFfeReNt MInD StaTe !! RiTe NOW -- Tyre...
Posted by BELLA DES on Sat, 22 Jul 2006 03:06:00 PST

bloggin my surveys cuz im tired of bulletinz!

1. In two words, explain what ended your last relationship?three words - NEVER GONNAWORK!2. What made you smile today?advice on men from my gay coworker!3. What were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.?p...
Posted by BELLA DES on Mon, 10 Jul 2006 03:27:00 PST

im not a peanut ...

i dont wanna be sad no more im tired of still caring i just wanna go back to those days where we laughed all day someone hit rewind .. or fast forward even .. cuz i just dont wanna be here no mor...
Posted by BELLA DES on Fri, 07 Jul 2006 04:46:00 PST

Back on my Survey ShiT!

Body: Y O U...C A N...O N L Y...T Y P E...O N E...W O R D !N O...E X P L A N A T I O N S !1. Yourself: SAD2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend:DONE3. Your hair:Blonde4. Your Mother:BESTFRIEND 5. Your Father:R...
Posted by BELLA DES on Thu, 08 Jun 2006 03:23:00 PST

I <3 my LISA!!

You` ve ever had those days where things just don`t seem to be going right for no reason. And you think maybe its just me. But you hate to believe that your the cause of your own misery! Lately thing...
Posted by BELLA DES on Mon, 29 May 2006 04:40:00 PST

BreNda;s BloG - - I wanna do it too! LoL

My ex is: confusing!Maybe I should: stop speakin to him...I love: MySeLf*I don't understand: who wouldnt!I lose: my mind -- on occasions!Love: is for suckersSomeone, somewhere is: dying of AIDSI'm alw...
Posted by BELLA DES on Thu, 11 May 2006 10:58:00 PST