the show. |
seriously.
as painful and dangerous as tonight was...i enjoyed it...i needed it.
walls of jericho was fucking siiiiickkk.
seeing them was amazing.
they are so down to earth...i love it.
but there was ...
Posted by Anastasia on Sun, 18 Nov 2007 01:14:00 PST |
crazy. |
these past weeks have been crazy.
im not even going to lie....this has been nothing but drama like straight out of a soap opera.
but some people have made the best of these tiring weeks.
first, and fo...
Posted by Anastasia on Sat, 17 Nov 2007 01:45:00 PST |
tonight won’t make a difference. |
i keep writing and writing and writing
in hopes that if i keep writing, then everything will be poured out
all my anger and frustrations will be relieved
and if i keep writing, maybe he'll glance and ...
Posted by Anastasia on Mon, 12 Nov 2007 11:26:00 PST |
on letting go. |
i think i've written deleted all my blogs a million times.
because its everything i want to say, and everything i don't want to admit openly.
im dying for a cig. ugh. i feel kind of like i turned my b...
Posted by Anastasia on Sun, 11 Nov 2007 11:29:00 PST |
what i figured out. |
i've come to the conclusion that im not stupid
it just takes me awhile to get things, i know that they are there, but i like to take the time to evaluate before i jump to things.
i think throughout th...
Posted by Anastasia on Sat, 10 Nov 2007 05:45:00 PST |
but i never thought you would take it this far... |
2 weeks of ignoring
2 weeks of tears, and frustrations.
im so stressed that at times i've been getting so sick to my stomach that i feel the need to puke.
and eating is almost a non activity.
smoking ...
Posted by Anastasia on Thu, 08 Nov 2007 01:52:00 PST |
tangled. |
my stomach is so sick i can't even eat
i feel like hurling up every food i've eaten.
but for some reason i feel like smoking, and i've ran out.
chain smoking.....disgusting, but im there.
work today w...
Posted by Anastasia on Wed, 07 Nov 2007 09:23:00 PST |
shook me like a baby in a tree. |
today was tough
today was hard.
i had an episode, i just couldn't take it, one breaking moment after the other.
and i feel i need to be honest with myself, as well as everyone else.
i almost gave my b...
Posted by Anastasia on Tue, 06 Nov 2007 12:18:00 PST |
... |
why does everything i know, up until now, feel like a lie
like i feel like i don't even know anything. at all.
everything feels unreal.
now im questioning everything
going through past events, trying ...
Posted by Anastasia on Mon, 05 Nov 2007 10:00:00 PST |
enough? |
when is enough...enough
he's kind of like my addiction to smoking
i tell myself no, and that im going to quit, but as i soon as i see one or think about it....i go and smoke.
i tell myself, no more ex...
Posted by Anastasia on Sat, 03 Nov 2007 01:28:00 PST |
