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I am Stephanie. Thanks for visiting my page =). Set aside some time if you are going to read this little novel of mine =). I do love to talk about this thing we call LIFE.. I am a happy, energetic, gracious person that has lived a very full life. I am blessed in more ways than I could ever express in words. I am married to my best friend. I have known him for over 17 years, we double dated as teenagers, him with his first love and me with mine =). We have been together for nearly 9 years. He is my handsome Jimmy, my rock, my Knight, we try to never take each other for granted.I have had four children in the last 26 years. My first son is Wesley Dean and he will be 21 this year. He is so handsome and kind. People love to be around him, he is so personable. He has a magnetic personality. My second son is Chaunceton Blaine and he just turned 19. He is also so handsome and he is very funny. He is someone that can keep people laughing for hours. His wit and charm grabs people. My sons and I are incredibly close. We share a special bond that alot of parents do not share with their children. I consider myself to be very lucky that the three of us are so close. Since they were toddlers, the time that we spent together was almost always just the three of us. Anything we did, anywhere that we would go, anything that we would see, would be just us three. We would not trade these memories for anything in this world.. Now that they are young men, they live very busy lives. Chaunce is going away for the next couple of years to Michigan and Wes and I will be living far away from eachother for the next year, till we are living again in the same area. We three know though, this does not change anything. In a couple of years we will pick it up from here and continue to create new memories & continue to share the ones we already have =). I feel blessed to have the two of them in my life every day that I live.I had two children that I gave up for adoption. Many people have their opinions about adoption, as do I and mine are very dear to me. At a very young age I watched things in movies and in real life that shaped my beliefs about how I feel about this sensitive subject that is so close to my heart. I am a girl/woman that was blessed with the ability to have a beautiful, healthy child. There are women out there that will never have that in this lifetime.. I believe that every child not only has a right to live, but also has the right to live a loving & healthy life that is being provided for them. Preferably with two parents to help raise them. My very first child was a daughter that is going to be 26 this year. I named her Nichole Marie. She was the prettiest baby that I had ever seen in my entire life. She was perfect. I held her and fed her and thought there was no way I could ever give her away.. I imagined her future with me and a future with two parents that wanted her more than anything else they could have, and I chose to give her what I thought I could not give. I think about her daily and I smile and I hurt.. I will never regret giving her a life that I felt she deserved. My third son is now 17. His name is Marshall. I thought I could never give a baby up for adoption, even knowing that they would have a better life, then what I could offer them. Feeling this way and knowing after Nichole that that was the most pain that I had ever experienced in my life, I knew when I was pregnant that fourth time, there was just no way I could give up a second baby. What changed my heart & mind was my experiences though, and where I was then in my life. Knowing without a doubt it was not what I would ever wish for my child, I gave him away... My opinion is, that we should always do what we think is the best thing to do for our children. Even if it does not seem that way to others, or is not popular, and or even if others will never understand.. Marshall looked the most like I did as a baby when he was born =). Later when he was eleven I received a picture of him and was so happy to see how amazingly beautiful he had become. He appeared to be such a full of life and happy person like me =) . The letter that came with the picture shocked me with facts about his personality that were so close to mine. His parents were so generous to offer me so much more than I would have ever even dreamed possible at that time.. I will never regret giving him and his parents his life. I think of him daily and I smile but I hurt.. I will forever miss them, cry inside for all the moments lost with them but then smile and feel the warmth for the happiness I gave to their parents that thought they may never have those moments in their lives. I and them I believe, will always be blessed for the hardest two decisions I have ever made in this lifetime of mine...Life is fascinating to me. I am a true believer that life is what you make it. We create our destiny, not anyone else. We and only we, are responsible for our actions and our words. How we REACT is the kind of life we are living, think about that for awhile. Life to me is about our families and relationships. How we treat people that we know and do not know is what I believe we are all here for. So, remember that saying growing up, treat others the way you want to be treated?? I know in my heart that wherever we end up after we die, how we treated others in this life is how we will be treated there. That should give so many people in this world reason to PAUSE...I have five amazing siblings. I have a beautiful extended family. I hope someday soon I will be reunited with my two children, but if I am not I believe there is a life after death and I will see them there. My family and friends all support me in my life and I feel truly blessed.I believe pretty strongly that life is actually very short, in relation to what I think will be the length of time in the place we will go to after we die. We should strive to live a very full life. Time can be our friend. We should respect it and use it the best that we can. Life is truly incredible and those of us that realize this, are happiest
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