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About Me

We can't always have something to say.
I carry the bottle because it helps me face tomorrow.
There's a snowman in the kangaroo's holder. (A personal favorite)
I wish!
Biddle bop doo, the cow in the zoo
Why would the zoo, choose to put you?
Cows don't belong in a zoo
So, biddle bop doo, why then, are you?
(Brilliance courtesy of Sara Loder)
You should have, then there would have been more story.
It's amazing how you can have all this and still have nothing.
I like it better straight.
No, I have. Just not often I guess.
I can't find I have a dream.
I wish I could be two people...his roommate and a fly on the wall.
Have some apple pie.
Fear is part of the passion of being alive. To live without fear is to walk blindly through life.
--Dark and difficult times lie ahead. Soon we must all face the choice between what is right and what is easy.--
"You can feel the stars and the infinity of the sky since life, in spite of everything, is like a dream." -Vincent Van Gogh
The pressure to be original is overwhelming and where is this pressure stemming from? Myself. I have this overpowering desire to stand out from the rest, and I fear that often times I cannot meet that requirement. So in this case, I'm going to buckle down and throw my hands up in surrender saying "Ok, you win! I'll be like the rest!"
So I can only assume by your being here that you want to know who I am and what I'm about. I'm a girl who is vegetarian and has long hair that has stayed the same since I was a child (other than the brief stint of red recently). That is the base of my personality, pretty much the absolute minimum.
Farther into my perverse facade? My parents were never married and are the absolute most polar opposite people you could ever throw together to create a child (politically speaking, that is). Conservative Republican Father from the USAF; Liberal Democrat Mother who was once a hippy. Now guess whose political ideals their daughter adopted?
To be honest, I'm weird. More than slightly. I will always listen to a friend in need and act with whatever powers I have at my disposal to solve their problems. I will not sit idly by if someone is hurting my loved one. I am a force to be reckoned with, and that was your warning. I have a genuine love for every person I call friend. People underestimate my devotion to the people I love. I'll tell you once, don't do it. You'll miss out on something rare.
So being weird, as we've established, is my niche. I act and I sing and I write but I do not have much confidence in any of it. Or do I? No, I don't. But my friends do, and that's what's important.
PS: TWO PEOPLE I LOVE

My Interests

Life's not a song,
Life isn't bliss,
Life is just this:
It's living.
You'll get along,
The pain that you feel,
Only can heal,
By living.
You have to go on living...

Lots of things, why thank you for asking.........yes I am aware that I am conversing with the computer. Writing, Singing, Acting, Art, Music, Reading, Making other people laugh and feel good and carefree, Shooting Pool, Shooting the breeze, Video Games, The Internet, The Stars (astronomy I mean), The Earth and all the elements that come with it. I should stop rambling now huh? Yeah ok.

I'd like to meet:

Of anyone? I would have liked to have met my uncle. As far as the standard celebrity goes: Tom Hanks, Hank Azaria, Eddie Izzard, The Boys of Good Charlotte, Jason Mraz, The Boys of Sum 41, Jim Carrey, Seth Green, all of the cool and kind people.

Sometimes people leave you
Halfway through the woods.
Others may deceive you,
You decide what's good.

You decide alone
But truly,
No one is alone....

You know that person who you just want to be around all of the time and who you absolutely just never get tired of? The one whose idioms and habits refrain from causing you irritations and ill-feelings? Just that person, who you love without any reservation or fear at all and whose feelings for you are exactly the same. Do you know that person? Yes, neither do I. The fact is, they do not exist. No man or woman is so singularly "perfect" that you may harbor absolutely no feelings of discontent towards them ever. If you don't feel something besides love, then I do not believe there is real chemisty. The essence of drama is conflict and without it, eventually everything becomes dull.

My point is for you to realize that people are merely that--people. If you go around with such ridiculously high standards, you will never find someone. Or if you do, there will always be some part of you that is empty. I realize I have yet to say who I personally am in the market to meet. I'm aware of that, it's just one of those things you pick up on upon knowing me.

Oh, if life were made of moments,
Even now and then a bad one...
But if life were only moments
Then you'd never know you had one.

Music:

I am quite the ecclectic...elephant? I was going for an "e" animal, you know like busy beaver? Yeah, anyway.....I like

Alice in Chains
Good Charlotte
Sum 41
Tenacious D
Linkin Park
Blink 182
Pink
American Hi-Fi
Korn
Jason Mraz
Metallica
Flogging Molly
Bowling for Soup
Maroon 5
Hoobastank
Lola Ray
Zero 1
Simple Plan Oldies, ah too much to name! Weird combination isn't it? I'm always up for new bands.

Movies:

*clears throat, and in as long a breath as she can muster*

The Princess Bride, Donnie Darko, The Crow, Moulin Rouge, Forrest Gump, The Station Agent, The Breakfast Club, Pirates of the Carribean, Both Spider Man's, Labyrinth, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, Crash, The Truman Show, Run Lola Run, All of the Harry Potter's, All of the Lord of the Ring's, Requiem for a Dream, The Mummy and The Mummy Returns, Amelie, RENT, Airplane, The X-Men's, Sixteen Candles, Blazing Saddles, Robin Hood: Men in Tights, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, A League of Their Own, Disney, The Court Jester, and so many more I would go mad just to type them all.

Television:

"Teacher, Mother, Secret Lover"
(The Simpsons)
Wow, now I realize how sad I am that I have so many favorites in Movies, Music and TV, does this mean I have no life? Yes, yes it does.
(In some particular order)
The Simpsons
Friends
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Will & Grace
Family Guy
Two and a Half Men
Medium
Nip/Tuck
Xena
Hercules
Law and Order: SVU and CI
Cold Case
Joan of Arcadia
Monster House
Monk
The Dead Zone
Malcolm in the Middle
Titus
Are You Afraid of the Dark? (Remember those days? The Big Orange Couch?)
Scooby Doo
I Love Lucy
Dick Van Dyke. Man now I'm digging into the classics.

Books:

Lots lots lots, The Da Vinci Code, Singing the Sadness, Harry Potter, The Street Lawyer, Artemis Fowl, Angels and Demons, 'Salem's Lot, The Shining....Those are all marvelous reads, if you're in need of a new book.

Heroes:

The cliche, Mom and Dad. Mom for being a single mom, raising two daughters ten years apart and to still be a loving and an outstanding mom. Dad, for spending 21 years in the Air Force, even though it would mean only seeing his only daughter twice a year for a couple weeks. Aw.

And my friends. The ones who have the strength to breathe through their pain and keep going, even when it feels like their lives are falling apart. The ones who have the strength to talk to me.

My Blog

The Belle of this Balle Does Not Toll For Thee

close your eyes and i'll kiss youtomorrow i'll miss youand remember i'll always be trueand then while i'm awayi'll write home every dayand i'll send all my lovin' to youPHASE ONE: THE COSTUME YOU'LL N...
Posted by Amanda on Mon, 29 Oct 2007 01:59:00 PST

The Saddest Orb Of All

I've been sittin' here. Trying to find myself. I get behind myself. I need to rewind myself.I'm waiting for something to finish that I now wish I'd never even started. My head is pounding and my heart...
Posted by Amanda on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 12:39:00 PST

Why yes, I can validate you.

"Hello, how are you?""I'm alright. How are you?""Good. Can I have a..."What's the point behind questions no one really wants to ask and answers no one really hears? Though we've been trained it's the ...
Posted by Amanda on Sat, 23 Jun 2007 04:01:00 PST

ASK MaODe FAcKeR (UP-date)

I've updated. It's been three and a half months, ever wonder what situations will change in three and a half months? I've updated."We dance round in a ring and suppose, but the secret sits in the midd...
Posted by Amanda on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 03:35:00 PST

It has to be me. Who else is there?

What follows are ten numbers. Beside each one is a statement directed towards one person. As the numbers change, so do the people. These are things that would not normally be spoken in conversation, a...
Posted by Amanda on Mon, 17 Oct 2005 01:16:00 PST

Don't ask me why I'm crying cause when I start to crumble you know how to keep me smiling...

Peace of mind.It may seem stupid, using pictures as a representation of what it is that calms the soul, but really how else are you supposed to communicate that yearning to each other? Sure you could ...
Posted by Amanda on Tue, 10 Oct 2006 04:09:00 PST

No, it don't make sense to me

"You know, I have so little new to say here this evening but there's so many things that have been said over and over again, that need to be said again and again."The fact is, I have more than a littl...
Posted by Amanda on Wed, 14 Jun 2006 08:56:00 PST

You know it's true said the tap dancing turtle in the creepy deep voice

Do you ever look at a piece of trash lying on the ground and wonder how it got there? Just to stop and imagine the exact moment it tumbled from glory to the ground where it now lays? A discarded straw...
Posted by Amanda on Wed, 08 Mar 2006 02:38:00 PST

I try sometimes to imagine what it's like to be somebody else, but it's always me pretending.

I took a good hard look at myself today Today I was compelled to do something I havent done in a long time. I took a good hard look at myself in the mirror. Im not pretty, by any of todays stand...
Posted by Amanda on Fri, 20 Jan 2006 02:16:00 PST

I slept with a man and a woman at the same time, but I'm a gentle person and I collapsed.

Let us endeavor not to live so that the shadows of our past mask the light of our future. See the world in front of you with eyes open in awe, and yet still aged by the wisdom of years. When faced w...
Posted by Amanda on Mon, 09 Jan 2006 04:32:00 PST