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..Some call me Tini... But you, can call me Biggs.

O a'u lenei. Take it or leave it. If mankind minus one were of one opinion, then mankind is no more

About Me

I want to be here again --- but with you and Apollo my love. "Duck down into the ocean, Heavy, smooth, carressing my skin. The water, Heavy, transparent layers of the sweetest silk, Envelop my head, my arms, torso, hips, legs, feet, Push. Capturing my breath, holding my smiles. I love. this. feeling.The ocean is home. Riding along on the bow of the wonderful old blue peeling boat. Constant pressing urge to dive into the waves. Feel the salt on my tongue.(Initial shock, first time diving back into the deep, bright, blue oh so tempting liquid.. Salt in the back of my throat. Was it this salty before? A few days later, it's familiar again. And I can't keep my head out of the sea.)Press my fingers, the palms of my hands and I'm suprised salt water doesn't seep from them. Press them the way the ocean presses, soft, heavy, home.The comfort of the sea enveloping me, swallowing me whole, swallow me forever, I am home here.And I'll never stop writing about this. Too much a part of my fatu, whatever makes up my 'what English calls "soul" ' but it's deeper then that . It permeates my skin. A constant haze about me, part of my breath. The air around me. My eyes wider, my lips softer, my tongue craving that salt. My fingers know all else, just a little less. :)Here is where my heart truly lies.Drown my heart in the enveloping arms of the South Pacific sea. Right off the coasts of Samoa. Here is my home. Here are my smiles. Here is the rhythm with which I'd forgotten how to step.Occasional beating out of rhythms with my feet and hips in a place far away.Nothing. Compared to the rhythm that the ocean beats out in my mind now. :) constant beats. constant melodies. always a tune in my head, on my lips, in my eyes. My smiles have a rhythm here. A rhythm that cares not what others say. Here is my le akua. Here is where I'm told constantly every day, by the breeze, by the warmth in the rocks, by the sweet carress of the ocean, be good, be sweet, treat everything well. This is where I learn. This is what I treasure. This is where the heart of my family lies rooted.my head held higher to level with my heart. swaying in the wind, the breeze blown in from my ocean love.tap tap tapping of sticks on a rocky beach shore. waterfall at my back. family to my right and left. ocean crashing at my toes. tap tap tapping. The ocean beats rhythm back into my heart. back into my life. :) and here I smile. I am home.I can gather my family close to my heart. Kiss their faces every day. And dive into the welcoming arms of home. Le sami. Lo'u aiga. All of lo'u fatu. It's no wonder I smile harder here. :)Fa'afetai for bringing me back. :) yeeeah. what troubles may come will come. my heart lies rooted here. and I smile for it has taught me good again. :) take your english. I have taken it too. :) O a'u lenei." Press Play."I think it would be a good idea."-Mahatma Gandhi (1869-1948), when asked what he thought of Western civilization. Samoan, Scandanavian, Chinese. Queer. Despite a dislike for labels, this one I'll use. It encompasses many. Would read and walk, cook and/or bake, be around my family, haunt museums at random hours of the day, and dance my whole life if I could (key phrase "if I could" this encompasses many things), and perhaps i will. Family is THE most important thing in my life, don't fuck with it. ...ask. Who are you? "There is no cure for birth and death, save to enjoy the interval." -Santayana."Dancing is silent poetry." - Simonides. There....In our spare time, I like to climb trees with the bebe bro fluffy Wa. in the jungles of "The Big Island" Hawaii. It's like being at home. Mmmmhm. :)! Oh. I like to drive fast and I tend to love hard. It's been my downfall and my saving grace. If you ask for my love, don't let it be my downfall again mm? Or I might not be as nice.

My Interests

TWO MINI REPLICAS OF THE GENETICS i got from the lovely 'rents too! Finer tuned. Yeeeah. Love em! =D! 2 BIG REASONS I SMILE THE WAY I DO. mmhm. admire the goofiness of my baby sis and baby bro. Let's call these loves instead of interests: moms laughter, isi and sinas laughter, my papas laughter, my dads laughter, warren and peters laughter, basically the laughter of any of the people that I truly love. and then... smiles and rain, green mangoes, ladies, books, more books, theatre, family (all kinds), skyflakes, mountain streams, rocks, rainforests, waterfalls, tropical shiny plants, ginger, filipino bakeries, french films, polynesian people, polynesian gods and sacredness, water, the ocean, the love of being underwater, sunlight, surfboards, paddling out, getting dragged across the reef under crashing waves with the sunlight streaming through the water and coming up gasping for air feeling the rush of that first breath of air, getting dental work done, spooning, hugs, kisses from friends/family/love, sleep with someone next to you, fried green bananas, fried ripe bananas, grapenuts, the smell of ripe mangoes, the feel of the fibers in the mango catching in your teeth as you suck the the sweet orange stickiness, pickled mangoes, soy sauce with sugar vinegar black pepper and water mixed up and eaten with various fruits, kids, drving around the island with family or friends or all by myself, the ocean (yes again), beautiful things, beautiful things that might not be called beautiful by some other people, creepy beautiful things, hands hands hands, ai hands will get me, the girl stare down, good people, my brothers new friends, spending entire days with old friends, etc. the list goes on and on.... Quotes. eg. "You don't make a soul strong by walking all over it. You make dents." -unknown. And these. I like these too. ;) Diamonds may be YOUR best friend, but I'm pretty good with these too....you like sushi? My bigga bebe bros hookin it up island style. ;) You know you like. :) Or as they say... "luke, da fissies". Smile. Yeeeeah. Inverting photos and not including my/our head/heads. Heads constantly blur things. And wearing temporarily stolen bracelets with cool animals on them and shirts from my mum who cutely buys me things with hearts. Hearts and heads. Ai. "Pretty", doesn't concern me.If you're looking for "pretty", look elsewhere.It's not my thing."- A.V.

I'd like to meet:

Eartha Kitt, Audrey Hepbhurn, my Mama Sina, and my Papa, Billie Holliday, Mae West, Nat King Cole, Louis Armstrong, my little sweetie, mister Taisi Kulberg. the bebe bebe bro, and my daddy for lunch at Sadies..) I really only add people I know and a very few bands that I like. Send me a message or two though and we'll see. Reccomend a good book. It isn't that hard. You can do it. It's fun. Most likely, I'll have to have at least met you at one point, it just works better that way. "The risk it takes to remain tight inside the bud is more painful than the risk it takes to blossom. We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are." ~Anais Nin~ ...And please boys, I'm not interested. I'm sorry, but see the rainbow at the top of my page? It's not just for prettiness. I hope you know what I mean. people who can think about this quote, who it comes from, and take something from it. And then talk to me about it. People who know what the Latin "Lambda" has represented for us. Look it up. Or don't. People like CECE! Also, if you can relate to this "How many universal constants aren't? If only they were all the speed of light." (-me), I might just think you're crazy cool. "Mixers" as Nene says. =) Smiling ones.

Music:

My music changes with how I feel. I can't say I like a specific "type" of music. I like music. Good music. Jazz. Ella, Billie, Eartha, Nat, Louis, Duke Ellington!... you know. De la soul. I like Nas. And John West. Classical, mostly Beethoven, Mozart, Bach, Tchaikovsky and so on, old classics. The music to Carmen. traditional hula, (have to go back to the island music and dancing often),Ekolu, Katchafire(!), 3-plus, Iz (can't go wrong with Iz). love some Gabby Pahinui, Paula Fuga. r&b and hip hop, danceable, moveable, feelable, love-able music. Blues, John Lee Hooker. Aretha. Lauryn Hill. Guilty pleasure for "candy shop". Love Sean Paul, he's vulgar if you actually read the stuff. That beat though, hey and it's honest vulgarity, not the same old stuff. haha dissagree? tell me. let's talk. The fugees. Sarah Brightmans rendition of Beethovens fifth with vocals. Oldies. Dean Martin! The Beatles. Simon and Garfunkel. Marvin Gaye. ..Reggaeton... cumbia, the soundtrack to Monsoon Wedding. cabaret music. the sound of someone playing piano, and guitar, the sight and sound of people who loove playing the violin or bass. anyway. eh, I know what I like to hear, this all is just a tiny sample for the rest of the world. Oh and how can I forget such favorites as The Commodores, and The Plain White Tee's (yes not at all in the same category, just run with it). Also recently, I've become quite smitten with Regina Spektor, Imogen Heap, Tegan and Sara and dare I say it (of course I dare)... Rascal Flatts. They're all lovely current people.width="425" height="350" ....I like Jack Johnson. He's a nice boy. Le Manu Samoa. Yeah baby.

Movies:

"Saving Face". "Together" (chinese film). "Kings and Queen". "Life is Beautiful". "The 5'th Element". "The Pianist". "Fire". Bollywood altogether. "Dilse". "Pride and Prejudice". "Ma vie en Rose". "Fried Green Tomatoes". "Love and Basketball". "Only the Strong". "Hotel Rwanda". "Hook". "The never-ending story". "Bride and Prejudice". "Ms. Congeniality". "My Best friends wedding". also, old black and white films. good for deconstructing. good for just pretending. like books. an escape temporarily. =)

Television:

...I'd rather be swimming. ;)

Books:

The Princess Bride, Chocolat, Shark Dialogues, Daughter of Fortune, Simply Einstein, Trouble with Testosterone, The Oddysey, War and Peace, Pride and Prejudice, Angels in America, Flatland, 100 years of Solitude, Weetzie Bat (and other Francessca's), White Oleandar, Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil, mmm, and much much more...We sat back to back, and tried to think each other's thoughts-pretending clairvoyance, when it only made sense that his whole mind would be full of mine and mine would be full of him".-Jodi Picoult. You'll have to ask me about this one. There are too many that I have trouble listing for myself. I love books. That's what should be under this heading. Actually I just like reading. And that could mean anything. I like reading sometimes, just to be reading and it doesn't much matter what it is. Well yeah it does. I can't read really bad novels (and by this I don't mean little trashy things because sometimes they're fun too, loosen up), or ridiculous writing, but, I have fun reading cereal boxes all the way down to the last ingredient, or finding everything written at all on the box and reading it, or reading every random thing in say... 'The stranger'. I like reading labels, isn't that strange? Maybe I'm not alone? Writing and reading was my way to escape, now... I just like the written word. I like text. These things... make me happy. I like letters, alphabets. Yeah. If you've read and not just watched (the motion picture) "The princess bride" and loved it as much as me, I might adore you a little bit more. There. And now....Press play. You'll like it. Then thank my friend Grace. I found it on her page. width="425" height="350" .... look!

Heroes:

My Papa (moms side), Nana (dads side), Grandma Sili, Mama Violiga, and Mama Sina, for reasons it would take more then even a 4, 5, or 6 hour conversation to just begin to explain. And my grampy, seriously, he was pretty freaking cool too. I hope to be a little bit of what I admire in each of them when I'm "all grown up". I have a feeling Isi and Sina, Warren and Peter are going to be big big heroes in my life too.

My Blog

le bulleteen. suhvay ting. I say my threes with a rolled almost s sounding 'thr". yeah.

psh. reeeeeaaaaad it, I here hyyyypnotize youuuuuuu... :D Body: Q: WHAT MADE YOU SMILE THIS MORNING? A: when begins "this morning?". If midnight, I was in the car with Jess w...
Posted by ..Some call me Tini... But you, can call me Biggs. on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 10:15:00 PST

just a week and some..... :)

Home soon.  Home soon.  The peace in my heart will for once be absolutely true again.  It's been close out here recently.  Thank you wonderful people.  :)We all need good peop...
Posted by ..Some call me Tini... But you, can call me Biggs. on Mon, 11 Dec 2006 04:42:00 PST

Limonata

I want some.  Agenda for the evening?  So far.... softball practice at 5:15.  Hero after probably.  I might pitch to my ex later tonight (baseball, I can't for the life of me figur...
Posted by ..Some call me Tini... But you, can call me Biggs. on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 03:35:00 PST

:)

ew.  I just looked at my age box thing down in the left hand corner and I'm 21.  ew.  I'm an adult.  :) haha.  feels like yesterday I'd introduce myself to a crowd/or panel/te...
Posted by ..Some call me Tini... But you, can call me Biggs. on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 02:59:00 PST

haha, tui! eh heavy kele? :D

mmmmm... nervous.  about things.  but I'm going to keep smiling.  for everyones sake.  mine too.  or try.  :)just because we smile all the time.  never means that we...
Posted by ..Some call me Tini... But you, can call me Biggs. on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 02:03:00 PST

pau lava le mea

really.. I only like to 'blog' after 2 a.m. it's most appropriate I think.  O le ala i le agaga, o le alofa lea.The way to the soul is through love.sound right?  who knows.  some say th...
Posted by ..Some call me Tini... But you, can call me Biggs. on Thu, 07 Dec 2006 03:51:00 PST

...just writing things. and being at peace.

We pass through so many things in life.  Good and bad.  And we can often look back and make new realisations about ourselves and what we've been through.  And so often, those realisatio...
Posted by ..Some call me Tini... But you, can call me Biggs. on Sun, 03 Dec 2006 09:35:00 PST

So gay.

mm.. well, first of all, let's get something correct here.  'So gay', is definitely not talking about anything bad.  If you're looking for that, or think that gay connotates such things, ski...
Posted by ..Some call me Tini... But you, can call me Biggs. on Fri, 01 Dec 2006 01:22:00 PST

just pissed. none of my english is proper here. I warned.

wow. that's all I can say about people right now.  wow.  STILL puting up a front for the public.  STILL doing things to... who the hell knows?  I hate this stupidity.  I'm sic...
Posted by ..Some call me Tini... But you, can call me Biggs. on Sat, 25 Nov 2006 02:34:00 PST

"what did/are you doing this thanksgiving?"

I let it pass me by.  :) Spoke to my baby brother, got a message from a random friend.  Spoke to the Dawnmeister, messaged the Samoan, called my little uso and for the moment, I'm letting i...
Posted by ..Some call me Tini... But you, can call me Biggs. on Fri, 24 Nov 2006 05:19:00 PST