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sonia

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About Me

i never know what to say to shit like this...let's see... i guess i'd like to think of myself as creative, open-minded and a dreamer, one who wishes the world were way different than it is. i have been told i can be somewhat "standoffish" and "too quiet" apparently...but that is mostly because i am usually lost in my own crazy thoughts, or i'm just feeling shy. i try to be as oblivious to this hellish world as possibe, but sometimes i find myself overwhelmed and inspired by those places in which beauty exists. i am annoyed by people who judge me and assume things about me without taking the time to know me. i hate close-mindedness, and i hate it when people try to place me in some predetermined, pointless category. on the other hand, i think people are fascinating and if you're cool i am easy to get along with. i am open to most anything and love learning about new subjects, so just try me. i want to have as much wisdom and knowledge as possible before i die. i am definitely not an open book, i don't even know if i could explain much about myself....in all my years of searching to understand myself, the only conclusion i have come to is that i am one confusing contradiction.
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My Interests

art. any art that is chaotic, moody, passionate or raw is beautiful to me. i love drawing, painting, photography, design (clothing, jewelry, and interior)....basically anything creative in all mediums. i believe all art forms hold an important place in this world, especially music. i am open to almost anything and can appreciate many styles. i love dance. i love yoga. i love anything or anyone poetic. i am drawn to things that are mysterious and intriguing, i believe in the beauty of wondering. anything that explores the nature of the human condition or the nature of the universe... philosophy, literature, travel, culture, anthropology, the occult, mythology, theology. i love nature and natural medicine, cooking, there's lots of other shit i can't think of so if you read this far you probably already know enough about me...

I'd like to meet:

i have no interest in fake fucked up ass people. if this describes you then i would not like to meet you.

Music:

the cure, radiohead, codeseven, deftones, portishead, the bronx, minor threat, he is legend, vision of disorder, interpol, sonic youth, depeche mode, jethro tull, pink floyd, the doors, at the drive in, snapcase, tool, ministry, beastie boys, the mars volta, cave in, dillinger escape plan, clutch, tomahawk, bob dylan, nine inch nails, afi, denali, mogwai, led zepplin, son of sam, dog fashion disco, alkaline trio, incubus, stone temple pilots, isis, a perfect circle, cradle of filth, blood simple, crowbar, jack off jill, switchblade symphony, static x, murder by death, pretenders, circa survive, death cab for cutie, nofx, ramones, billy idol, alice in chains, nirvana, orgy, mewithoutyou, postal service, cursive, red sparowes, brand new, mrs. fletcher, the first wave, the adversary, evil army, lots more shit i can't think of...also some good trance/progressive house and break beat...i can appreciate most styles and i love it when people share music with me so please feel free...

Movies:

sin city, vanilla sky, the lost boys, beetlejuice, v for vendetta, labyrinth, fear and loathing in las vegas, a clockwork orange, underworld, breakfast at tiffany's, chinatown, roman holiday, edward scissorhands, super troopers, how high, great expectations (the new version), mulholland dr, dune, lost highway (basically anything david lynch), pirates of the caribbean, ninja scroll, vampire hunter d, metropolis, bram stoker's dracula, brotherhood of the wolf, interview with a vampire, the godfather, scarface, the goonies, dark city, cabin fever, six string samurai, requiem for a dream, the doors, donnie darko, hellraiser (all of em), crybaby, lots more...

Television:

hell froze over and now cable is available for viewing at my house! still these are some of my favorites: that 70's show, futurama, family guy, the simpsons, thundercats, the smurfs...hehe lots of cartoons. i dig good anime...some of my favorite series are escaflowne, elfen lied, berserk

Books:

if i had to pick one it'd be mary shelly's frankenstein. i just finished reading clive barker's cabal, it's definitely a favorite now. currently reading a classic - milton's paradise lost. for the most part i read books to learn about subjects that intrigue me... about artists, philosophy, culture, religious beliefs and practices, natural medicine, etc., also been reading some graphic novels lately mostly for the brilliant artwork: hack/slash, the sandman series, witchblade/the darkness, kabuki, criminal macabre, etc.

Heroes:

my sorrellina is my hero...

My Blog

reality does not exist

real life is in no way real. by that i mean that nothing is ever as it seems..and if it is then how would you really know? how can a person trust their own perception of reality when reality is determ...
Posted by sonia on Mon, 08 Jan 2007 02:13:00 PST

i've been denied paradise, now i welcome hell

how much bullshit can one person fucking take? my limits have been tested over and over and i have fucking had enough. i spend so much time trying to be kind and understanding, trying to make sure i s...
Posted by sonia on Wed, 20 Sep 2006 01:46:00 PST

accepting change

there must be some changing ocean tides or lunar occurrences... something strange is happening...there's a force encouraging things to gravitate and repel, it's creating a profound shift in many lives...
Posted by sonia on Sat, 12 Aug 2006 11:52:00 PST

we all know fear is the mind killer...

but it also suffocates the soul....so how do you let go of fear? if you have any wisdom on this subject, please share...
Posted by sonia on Fri, 04 Aug 2006 10:05:00 PST

just a friendly little fyi...

so in case anyone is wondering or actually cares... i wanted to formally apologize for any neglecting that i've been doing here lately. there are quite a few people (i hope they'll read this) that i h...
Posted by sonia on Tue, 01 Aug 2006 01:15:00 PST

tribute to marylin

so last week over a bottle of wine i sat alone and watched a pbs special on the beautiful marylin monroe...an intriguing lost soul who probably never really understood her own importance... anyway the...
Posted by sonia on Thu, 27 Jul 2006 09:30:00 PST

tell me what you think...

so i've noticed that i get a hell of a lot more views on my blogs than i do actual responses, comments, etc...i bring this up only because this one time i'd really like whoever is looking at this to g...
Posted by sonia on Sat, 13 May 2006 11:43:00 PST

i deteriorate i live in dirt...

"hopelessly fighting the devil futility feeling the monster climb deeper inside of me feeling him gnawing my heart away hungrily i'll never lose this pain...." robert smith is a lyrical genius ...
Posted by sonia on Sat, 06 May 2006 12:55:00 PST

if the word fuck offends you don't read this....

so...i just want to take this opportunity to give a big FUCK YOU! to the man. i am really tired of you raping me in the ass. if i could find a way out of this constricting ass society i wouldn't hesit...
Posted by sonia on Mon, 01 May 2006 01:21:00 PST

insomnia

i'm having waking dreams inspired by lust and codeine... god if only i could sleep, i want to fucking dream for real
Posted by sonia on Mon, 24 Apr 2006 09:01:00 PST