i love to live. to more then just exist. i love that i have so much more to live for than just myself, and that i have someone so much more exciting than myself planning my life out for me. i love thrilling things, like speeding down a snow covered hill on my beautiful snowboard.. or movies that aren't hollywood and i spend the entire movie shocked at every next scene cause its not what i expect. i love the music because i can express myself better that when then with words... like just sitting at the piano and just playing and then finding out how i feel from what comes from my fingers. i love to sing, because the dorkiest thing when said in words can sound beautiful when put into song.
I am the only one to blame for this
Some how, it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high
And like Icarus, I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
To give and dieTo turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
More deeply than the oceans
More abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache
Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow
(To love you) Take my world apart
(To need you) I am on my knees
(To love you) Take my world apart
(To need you) Broken, on my knees
All said and done, I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me
Did you really have to die for me
For all I am, for all you are
For what I need and what I believe, are worlds apart
I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
And wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need You now
I owe You more each passing hour
Battles between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
And wash the feet and cleanse my pride
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
My sin-soaked heart, make it Yours
Take my world all apart
Take it now, take it now
And serve the ones that I despise
Speak the words I can't deny
Watch the world I used to love
Fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
Wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
Steal my heart, take the pain
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
Take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
Take my world apart
take, take my world apart.
someone who really lives. who really loves.
music that moves me. music that when i listen to it i say "holy cow, they stole my words". music that comes from the heart. all this can come in many different forms and types... i will forever be in love with the sound of acoustic guitar.
(Music is love in search of a word.)
Moulin Rouge firstly. Pride and Predjudice. Snatch. Momento.Garden State.
The Narnia chronicles. The Great Divorce. All C.S. Lewis stuff, because he shows me how limited my mind is to the things of God and opens my mind in wonder to how wonderfully creative God is. Gone with the Wind, because Scarlett O'hara has guts. Because even when she's wrong she is always genuine. And I love genuine people. I love the Jane Austen books... Because I love the way the characters talk in them. They say more in one sentence then we say in a day of talking.
Jesus. No cliches here, but he is honestly my saving grace. He is the reason I exist, the reason I live. There is nothing in this world that means more to me, and nothing else that I want more then just to be near Him. To get to know him better.
My Dad. The most wonderful man in the world. So patient. Always there. Never complaining. Gave up everything for his family. Is utterly in love with God. I respect him with all my heart.
My Mom.. Because she is the epitome of "mom". Always has my back, always ready to do anything for me. She is a prayer warrior.. I admire that so much.
My darling sister. Even though she's younger then me she has so much wisdom in so many ways... She is the most loyal, sweet, wise 17 year girl you will ever meet. She can always make me laugh, and is not afraid of being looking silly. She would do anything to help somebody, and would do anything for her Jesus. She is the dearest person in the entire world to me.
Cassy. My best friend. She always knows what to say when I can't. She is always for me, she defends me no matter what.. But loves me enough to call my bluffs. She is one of the funniest people you will ever meet. I love her, and we will always be best friends no matter where we are in the world.
Jody. He's just right for me. So patient, so sweet, always there for me. We always have fun, he's not afraid of acting like a kid.. He knows me sometimes better than I know myself. I can't even find words to express how much he means to me. There's no one to compare.