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Mabey i have been a little rough on some people but i have never told anybody that i have been really hurt by some of my kenpo family. They were supposed to never lie, cheat, steal, belittle, disrespect, or just plain hurt the ones they love. I had never been anything but loyal and when it came time for my peers and elders to return the loyalty there was no reciprication. Loyalty honor, respect, and love go both ways they (like with all relationships) are not a one way street. I am honest to a fault and i am almost loyal to a fault. I would never rat out my friends, even if that means that they would get all the love while i paid the price when we all did the same thing for money. I cant believe some of the things i went through for my family and i never thought twice about it until i started to notice a huge double standered, lets just reflect for a moment. There was a certain test where a select bunch of people were allowed to test; there was only one of us who was healthy enough to even attempt it and i thought to myself "even if i do test and pass i would never put on a black uniform until my peers (who I have bled cried sweated laughed and been ready to die together)had one to put on too". but instead nobody went to bat for us we could not even watch this test when we prepared the one person we all really want to at least watch. like i said loyalty is a two way street, and not so much. i have never told any body about these feelings, and sad to say there are many other incidents that were worse that this. i still love my kenpo family and it is nice to see that some people still care enough to get really angry. but welcome to my world. it pains me to no end to see my family in shambles but I will not get hurt again by the same people that i would die and kill and hide a body for. mabey someday people will be able to understand the pain that i have suffered to help my people grow. and i hope that some how we can figure it all out and start to heal again. ps being the instructor is not about the power. and you absolutly can not pick and chose the students you want to train because "im to busy to be there all the time". i sacrifced so much time and money to prove my love and loytaly, and i hardly ever complained even, when i would go to karte hungry for however many hours it took just to go home and go to sleep without any thing to eat. it is about loveing every single one of your students, and sacrificeing as much or all of your time as it takes to get it done. it is also not about the money. i would teach for free if my students could not afford it. whats worse is you were told to give up a job that some people might not agree with but made you pretty good money and you never ratted out the other two people that tried to play all goodey goodey(but they were just lying by omishin) when i fact i was the one of only two with the balls to tell a certin instructor about how i used to make money. I MISS AND LOVE ALL OF MY FORMER STUDENTS and i would like to say" walk your own road and try not toget to involved with your peers because you never know who is full of shit or not."
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