all this time looking for love
and you want to find peace
and you find
me.
______________________________________i have been emancipated.
and this is my declaration of independence.i know exactly what i want.
i know exactly who i am.the road there is baby steps,
but they are serious, giant, crucial steps
compared to how things had been,
when i was still learning to be me.i will do everything i have ever wanted to do,
long before death carries me.what else is life,
but to reach for those things
on this world that define you,
and then to touch them...
and to become each other...
and then to go find the next thing.my life is a challenge and a journey,
to find and touch and see and do,
accomplish and prevail...
all the while still dreaming yet
of more ideas to have become me,
and which then are to be conquered.it may seem endless, but it isnt.
there is only so much of you
that can possibly exist in this world.
however, it could be endless,
theoretically,
when referring to the parts of you
that trangress other dimensions.
those we can very rarely comprehend,
as our conciousness exists in this dimension,
and while our bodies are more-or-less confined.but to summarize...
i dont believe my life should be worth nothing,
with all the massive quantities of energy
that have been created, used, transformed, manipulated...
by so many others (the most beautiful people),
all so that my life would go on and on each day.and so i declare...
that while living what may seem
this tragic temporary sad difficult
stressful and drawn-out,
yet actually very very beautiful life...
i am devoting every ounce of
myself and my mind
to those who have, or will show me
that they would like to have their slice of it.and of course... while doing this,
and selflessly giving everything i have to give
to everyone who wants and deserves to get it
(the precious ones... they know who they are...
or even a boy or girl who might like to be one,
maybe, possibly...)
somehow,
i will derive the plans
for great accomplishment
in regards to every ambition
and goal and daydream
i have ever had for myself...and these things will be achieved.as i have already achieved so many,
and it is just barely the beginning...
and i could never stop here.and there is not
a single fraction of doubt that lurks
anywhere inside me,
or anywhere else,
that can say any different,
or that could challenge what i have stated
as truth...
based on nothing more
than a simple decision.this is very exciting.this is my plan for the rest of my life.and it will not fail.
as i am much more confident
than i have ever been.it is beautiful.
and my arms and legs are not bleeding.
and my cheeks have been towelled dry,
for the very last time.
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