VICTORIA

MY HUBBY SEAN
In my spare time you can usually find me at the beach. I'm still searching for cool places to chill at in Hawaii. I kind of miss the local bars from back home...Luby's and Sweetwater. I drink a lot. I'm not proud of it, but sometimes it seems like the only way to have fun. My shrink says I'm an alcoholic, I say I'm just a normal college girl that likes to go to bars and binge drink.I am a recovering meth addict- I've been clean for a little over four years. I got into drugs very early in life and as a result I put myself in a lot of dangerous situations. I have seen things and have had things done to me that no one should have to witness, let alone experience.People's first impression of me is that I'm a spoiled little rich girl that doesn't have a care in the world. People assume that I am a bitch, stupid, conceited, high maintence...but if given the chance to get to know me, they soon see that I am quite the opposite.I am insecure, I am kind, I am extremly smart. Yes, my parents have money and I come from a privledged backround; however, I know that money doesn't = happiness and I am so greatful for all that has been given to me. I love my parents with all of my heart. They are my role models.Some more about me: I am loyal, I am sarcastic, I am outgoing when I feel comfortable and shy when I feel insecure, I love animals, I have a very messy car, I love to dance-but only when I'm drunk (which means I'm proably not any good), I love to love-if that makes sense, I have anxiety/depression and OCD (I'm on medication), I have insomnia.
I am a perfectionist and an overachiever, I am too critical of myself, I don't drink water because I don't like the way it tastes, I am a bulimic, I am attracted to the "bad boys", I love to sleep and watch tv, I put on a smile to hide my pain.I write poetry, I am obsessed with learning everything I can about serial killers, I am usually the center of attention but not always by choice,I love to read, I am scared of growing up, I never yell, I may be an alchoholic-but the jury is still out on that one, Basketball is my favorite sport, I have over 37 pairs of jeans.
I wish I had more friends, My drink of choice is Budlight or Sparks (the orange can), I love rap music and hate country, I like to debate, I am stronger (mentally/emotionally) then I think, I don't vote, I don't like people that don't have an open mind, I think I am addicted to tanning, I am very guarded because once I let you in I am easily hurt, I am extremly complicated, and I am rambling so I am going to stop now.I am me...love me or hate me- I'll never change who I am. Even when I don't love myself, I still wouldn't change anything about myself (except for maybe getting a boob job). I have been through so much and have overcome so many obstacles- so I figure I must be doing something right. Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger...
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