About Me
For those just passing by, my name is Leilani. It is pronounced Laylony. It is a hawaiian name, because I am Hawaiian. My grandmother and all her family was born and raised in Hawaii. Actually my great, great, great, great grandfather was the King of Hawaii. King Kemehemehe. Yes I am ROYALTY..LOL, just kidding. No I don't live in a big castle and everyone bows down to me..I WISH!! On another note, I AM MARRIED, so guys that want to "get with me" sorry, your a little too late. If you read my profile or looked at my pictures, that would be pretty clear to you. I don't mind having you as a friend, but if your looking for more, I can't help. He means everything to me. He is a great husband and he is very good to me. He has been threw a lot in his life, and he has had a high price to pay. He was in the Marine Corp for almost 10 years. Most of those years, in his words, sucked. Not only because of the Marine Corp life, and what he seen and done, but personally as well. He has found out things that sometimes he wish he didn't know. Betrayal regarding family that he never thought would do to him. That has hurt him more then anyone knows. I have seen it. Everyone thinks Chris is a wall and can't be broke. I know differently. He hid his emotions and hurt, very well. He use to be glued to television, video games or computer. I use to never understand why he always wanted to escape reality, so often. We would argue because I could not get him to do anything. After a while, he told me why he did that. It was an escape route. Just what I had figured. Well since he has limited himself, very much, might I add, alot of things have come out, even things maybe I was not prepared to hear. Never the less, they needed to come out. Things he said he has never told another sole. Because he has been so good for so many years as not showing feeling or emotion. Acting as if no one or nothing mattered to him in any way. I was really the only one he showed them to or opened up to. So in other words, he has kept these things in for many years, and all it did was add to the unhappiness in his personal life. He said he was a great pretender. He always pretended to be happy and that nothing bothered him. Then when he found out that a member in his family betrayed him and did not give him the chance to make a decision for himself, instead made it for him, it has devistated him even more. So one night all his emotions came out, because I guess he just could not take anymore. Like a damn, everything was overflowing and the wall just broke. Needless to say, he has been seeing a councilor ever since. It has been a trying time for him, and all of us. But little by little he is getting threw all the hurt in his life. He sees his councilor each and every week, or more. He has been diagnosed with PTSD extreme. He has memory loss and high anxiety. He is learning to work things out within himself to be a better man. I am hoping he can learn to forgive those who hurt him, and move on with his life. Stop allowing things to hold him back. He is a great husband and a strong man. He use to tell me councilors are for the weak. I know it takes a strong man to know they need help, and get it. He is stronger then anyone knows, and a better man that he has ever been given credit for. Not to mention humorous and full of energy. I love him and I am very proud of him for all he has done to serve our country and all he has done to better himself, for himself, and OUR family.♥ ♥ ♥
I have the two best children in the world. They are smart, and very well behaived. Too silly at times, but if that's the worst, then I am blessed. They are my everything! They have been threw a lot in the last few years because we have moved a lot, and there have been a lot of changes in their life. But like their mom, they can deal with anything and be stronger for it. I love them so much. So does everyone else. I get the best compliments from other parents, saying how well mannered they are and well behaived. I can go places with them, and they don't act like they were just relased from the zoo..lol..I am a very proud mama, and I love them with all my heart:) ♥♥I LOVE MY FAMILY♥
