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sk8ing since 12/11/06 and still counting just me now no team
i knew i never understood by nikios wallace 4/19/08
yes i knew we were only temperary i never wanted you too myself i understood you loved him yes i knew we were only friends having fun i never thought you would treat me in such a way i understood your youth i knew i never understood it started with a lust filled empty kiss and on that cold winters day our friendship ended but we didnt care we were warm so we gave in and the look on your face when we were through is now burned into the back of my brain a tattoo that only i can see. i was happy just to feel that u wanted me if only just for that instant but when it all came down u were only using me i was disposable now im paying for wanting you with two friendships we werent the best of friends but i cared for you now i see you in a different light even though i dwell on what you have deemed so meaningless i want too forget i want too be like you and just forget and go back too that day when i nicknamed you ****. yes i knew we were only temporary i never wanted you too myself i understood you loved him yes i knew we were only friends having fun i never thought you would treat me in such a way i understood your youth i knew i never understood
story of my life by nikios wallace
as i walk the snow flutters down i am treading a new path in the white earth i look up and i see her a beauty so stuning none can match iv fallen for her as she slushes by i open my heart and i love you spills out she looks at me in a humorous way and moves on i stand crushed for eons.
barely evolved with thoughts of her still lurking i move on the rain is now poring and life jumps forth an army of young ones pushes back the old i shed my jacket and dawn a bright yellow rain coat as if to steal the eyes of a young woman i continue on my path many pass but none have faces right then a pure face rounds the corner she glances at me and walks by such a beauty iv never seen i cut my stitched heart open and i love you tumbles out she turns looks at me with hatefilled eyes i stand crushed for eons.
unevolved and wounded i move on the sun is beating down with brilliant rays and my heart is bubbling but i continue on my lonesome path i shed my rain coat and shirt like bad memories i toss them too the ground i continue on my path just then she comes from behind and passes me such a devine body i call too her she turn and looks at me with such inviting eyes i inturn peal the scabs from my heart and i love you oozes out but she runs away i call to her but she just runs i stand crushed for eons.
the leafs have turned and the wind is now brisk and i have shed all that protects me and my heart has failed nothing flows within . 3/25/08
god is a funnyman by nikios wallace 2/29/08
i love so therefore i am pure i hate therefore i am evil i am imperfect therefore i am human a walking defective corpse destined to breakdown with every passing moon i sin what kind of god places such vile urges and banishes those who bend under our cripling sicknesses. god is a funnyman such a troublesome existance my soul is filled with love but my past is riddled with rejection i beleived i was to be alone so i stole not for love but to feel that which iv never felt before such a terrible thing to do my heart is hurting more than before my heart is hurting more than before my heart is hurting more than before there for i am pure but i still want more therefor i am evil god has set somthing sickening into motion that will end in heartache but atleast i wont hurt alone i am only human
emotion sickness by nikios wallace
ugh who cares whatever nobody knows what its means to truly love someone when the ones who have found it willfully forsake it they dont deserve it. when im alone all those thoughts come banging at my door a relentless storm every time you leave me alone my doors get weaker i dont know how much longer i can hold on soon ill end it ugh but who cares whatever my life doesn't matter to you or anyone else but thanks for pretending like you cared love is what makes me whole but love is what sends me mad and i cant explain why i feel the way i do its my curse i want to move on but i cant i just keep suffering. ugh but who cares whatever sometimes i lay awake thinking there is somthing wrong with me im so weak i break so easily every pretty face hits my heart like bricks and i fall to pieces wondering why she doesn't love me the way i love her but its not her fault im just pathetic ugh but who cares whatever all this time i have blamed you the world and love but i never looked at my needy ways ill never get you and no one will ever replace you at this point love doesn't matter to me its just an untouchable emotion ugh who cares whatever ill will probably die tomorrow anyway
Newfound glory By Nikios Wallace 12/10/07
Sealed off as I lay lifeless your voice seeps in drooling down the white walls a nasty black fake tales come spewing in filling my serene room with dark thoughts there I lay down in your words from puddle to pool now a sea of regret on that same sea my heart once set sale before the turning of the silver moon when you were my newfound glory as it vacated an evil shape was carved and gouged out now completely docile I wait for its return your words they are relentless and through that shape in my chest they gurgle through and I sink my body blackened my eyes stained my tears burn all alone I am dieing choking on your words at the bottom of this room as I look above nothing but a sea of black but in the darkness I see my heart returning with my newfound glory.
Body and mind By nikios Wallace 11/8/07
You and your Eyes so radiant You and your Lips so sweet A girl so perfect I dream and I want not to wake dreaming an evil dream such a sickly thing to wish, wishing to steal away one lovely kiss. Wanting to be Prometheus to steal from a goddess, the consequences matter not I willing would suffer Me and my Wretched wishes Me and my Selfish need A boy so loving she drains his heart and leaves an empty shell, unable to move on clinging to what he knows will never be. But he loves her so deeply its has become who he is and who he cant help but want to be. You and your Ways Me and my Ways He devotes she ignores those are their ways he says he loves her but it falls on deaf ears those are their ways. Two years gone with no regret his heart tries to pound into reality but I know the truth he wants to change everything. His heart has spit up I love you so many times that it no longer matters.
Always and forever joanna
always and forever you will be the girl that i loved without bounds the girl that struck me down with her angelic beauty. joyous was that day, the day i fell in love with Joanna always and forever these feeling i will suppress. twirling endlessly oh how it hurts wanting you these thoughts that run rampant in my mind fill my eyes but i choke back my feelings, i have lost what i never obtained.
i look to the dark night sky and upon that lone twinkling star i make this wish always and forever i beg let my Juliet be in my life. my red rose just tell me your feelings correct my swaying heart it is unguided it follows the faint smell of affection you left eons ago. that Minuit feeling has grown to what pulses through my veins with every heart beat i feel for you with every breathe i take you flood my thoughts. with Every word you utter to me you save my life.
Oh how sweet your voice flows through my head it puts me on a high that is far from infinite and when i come down it hurts my soul such a harsh pain the poison tips of my real life jabs at my already frail heart and the toxic truth seeps in i will never be with you but my dense hearts will not take never for an answer it wants you and only you anything less is death. I'm just dieing to tell you everything but my mind restrains me.
I only feel for you Joanna let this be a testament of my love read it and see i will bring you Saturn just to see that beautiful smile and those eyes they are flawless gems. these words are my tears i am weeping for you, drenching my face with bitter reminders of my lonesome existence. my love is not tainted it is as pure as your beautiful face.
i can't stand the way you tease i love you thought you hurt me so. i have to tell you just how i feel i can't share you with another boy so with this i declare my love for you, and my one true love will be always and forever more Joanna.
by nikios wallace 2/22/07
Show me the blood
Cut me for all that is good Cut me deep so I scar For me and you cut me and Make me bleed until I pass out
Just do it for what we could Make but you my dear you Must bleed out and die, until You lose life then and only Then will you truly live.
Life is and infant that Only takes and never stops Until that dark day when You befriend the entity that Wields the jagged scythe and His stony hand makes you Relinquish your soul.
So baby cut your self for Me for what I could feel For you cut your self for Each time I daydream of That face. The face that Belongs To the woman that Could Complete My search and Be still my agitated Heart. Cut your Self let the Blood Run free from your Wrist it is what you are giving To be with me.
I won’t wait on the shelf Idling by while you respect Me less each time I wish For your voice to sooth my Eager heart. I won’t be had Once again I wont love you And be commanded. You will not Strum my wired heart until you Show me the blood
By nikios Wallace 2/1/07
Eternal slumber
A dreaming mind awakes to a harsh reality so put me to sleep I dream of perfection of me and you the family that we make the life we share when I wake I cry why can’t I sleep forever shut my eyes and just die let me dream if you wont love me in reality then love me in limbo between sleep and conscious I’ll be happy and you’ll be happy let me wither away drug me put me to sleep just to be with you I will sleep forever
By Nikios Wallace 1/16/07
Crying soul
These tears form a river These tears come from within These tears hold my love for you Bit by bit leaking away like an open Slash festering.
Are you blind can’t you See I cry for you for what we could be for what we could make slow down do you love him or do you love me seems as if I am obsessed but its your fault you strung me up so high and I can’t get down so I must fall and hit that unforgiving earth then I will learn you don’t care for me.
These tears bring no relief These tears gain me no sympathy These tears contain my soul gradually Seeping out no bucket beneath my face My unsaved tears waste on you because You don’t care about my crying soul.
By Nikios Wallace 1/16/06
J_uliet forgive me for I have sinned
Trust me I will be there when your world is shattered to adjust the pieces back together then smash it yes my LXXX I am vindictive how about you can you enjoy pain can you not adore the cries of the damned LXXX it worship it be my evil bride shall we imprison all yes lock them all up KILL KILL KILL!!! Their souls will belongs to us just brake your dove like wings and sprout these demonic wings how beautiful that union would be if only you’d leave him the one that is nothing but a minuet mortal. Down with the world Down with LXXX Down with him I am gone no longer me but forever the devil the god of broken hearts I am not evil just vengeful a man who is blackened who’s soul reeks of sewage free me from this pain this confusion kill me in my heart that blade goes deliver it swiftly I have endured unmatched pain by the hands of a goddess now I am surrounded by flames the flames she created and then deemed me the king of hell looking down on me a puppet a pawn if you please who’s whips and chains are his heart. The road to hell is lover’s lane and it is paved by the many hearts of my fallen siblings we love to the extreme and perish with the whiplashes of humiliation love me forever more.
By nikios Wallace 1/8/07
Give me a chance (all I can do is love you)
Cry me blood cry me the ocean and I will give you a god but fear my wrath for my LXXX demands purity forgive my immature heart it is young and it wants perfection and give nothing but a defective passion I LXXX you to death now will you LXXX me to life for my souls sake smolder your contemporary LXXXr he cant he wont cry for you he cant he wont die for you be mine and ill be yours give me the opportunity if I fail then toss my frail heart to the wicked but I beg one chance I slumber patiently I LXXX you do you hate me but why I have only given never taken so give me a chance don’t hinder my LXXX let it flourish give me a chance
By Nikios Wallace 12/21/06
GOD FALL (See What You Do)
Lay me to rest let the maggots eat my flesh see my crest yes the crest that rests upon my mangled chest a god has fallen deep beneath my hallowed chest still is my heart blood flows no more through the four chambers like a rive tormented by the sun death caresses my casketed body like a forgotten LXXXr who has been reunited with her superman no more shall my mind bleed out these thoughts of LXXXing you death has embraced my thoughts of you I shed no tears but pity yes pity for your heart is ignorant to my LXXX so Lay me to rest let the maggots eat my flesh see my crest yes the crest that rests upon my mangled chest a god has fallen slipped away into the endless pit of failure blanket me from these jagged edges as I freefall I choke choking crying falling thoughts of you suffocate my mind see… do you see the pain you cause free me let me die in peace welcome welcome to my dwelling pay no mind to these bleeding walls I ask please grow grotesque so I can put this affliction to rest Lay me to rest let the maggots eat my flesh see my crest yes the crest that rests upon my mangled chest a god has fallen
By Nikios Wallace written on a Tuesday
(♥LOVE IN COMPARISON♥)
To my baby
If you and I were ever one mortal then we would be as potent as the sun
If there was a love so strong that death could not sever it would be ours
If ever anyone was blissful in a relationship it would be me
I dare anyone to contrast there love to my love for you and they will come up short
I cherish your love like it was the rain to my thirsting crops
Not even the vast riches of a ship grave yard can make me disregard your love
I cant get an adequate amount of your love its like a drug I can’t help but o.d every time im with you
Your love is like a debt I will by no means be able to repay but I hope the love I provide you can partially pay
But if I fall short I hope god grants u magnificent gifts when our lives are extinguished
While we are still young and vibrant lets strive to strengthen our love
So that after our last breath we may breath in unison in the heavens.
(♥perfect woman♥)
Your eyes are like two rare dark gems I stare into them and I get overwhelmed sucked into a deep dark abyss I think to myself can your beauty be matched your hair flows down your back like a river of black oil like silk my fingers slips thru it like I swiped at the air it glistens in the sun like a child’s eyes upon the sight of a brand new toy.
They say beauty is in the eyes of the beholder I know when men look at you they become entranced like they were under some type of mystic power you entrap their souls for ever yours.
Your petite face seems to have been perfectly hand crafted by god himself you are priceless from your stunning seductive Asian eyes to your perfect nose and supple lips no one can take you away from me because in my mind you are my perfect woman and I linger here waiting pondering contemplating when and where I shall meet you.
Monday 8/1/05
By Nikios wallace
(♥juliet be mine♥)
Juliet Juliet where for art thou, for my heart lingers here burning lusting for a significant other that brings me love makes me a complete entity and keeps me together, solid and strong like a rock.
Juliet Juliet where for art thou, why oh why do you strum my heart like an immense harp with these ruses. These women whose soul purpose is to run games and bring my naive heart to its knees.
Juliet Juliet where for art thou, has fate given up on us have they deemed our search for togetherness a trivial pursuit. Will we ever meet or have we met, are you among the many flowers I see where is my single red rose.
Juliet Juliet oh Juliet I know I am jus a infant in this world, but my soul has been sparked and set ablaze by my first Juliet, she left my soul scorching with passion and love don’t let my flame extinguish and leave my soul in ashes so please Juliet I beg you move with haste I will be here my Juliet I shall be your Romeo waiting with my heart boxed and wrapped to be given to you.
2/19/06 by Nikios Wallace
(♥thoughts of you♥)
Time moves by and by while I sit here and try to understand why my mind races with the thoughts of you you and only u can penetrate the deep unconscious slumber so I wait and like thunder you strike the hearts of many men and even the hearts of vivacious vixens become entangles in your swagger like daggers your green eyes pierce the body’s of men they bleed lust and passion but you pay no mind to these nomadic lovers in your search for the soul that completes yours for the intellect that rivals yours but to find love is to lose parts of you gone like a feather tossed to the wind never to return.
by.nikios wallace 4/18/06
(♥the grimy touch of love♥)
You cause me unbearable pain like ripping my heart from my chest and setting it ablaze as I watch horrified but infatuated with your aggression I yearn for togetherness but I get a temporary embrace horrid love you betray me once more but I fall for your grimy touch agian toxic bitch of the devil you poison my mind with happiness then rip my body parts away leaving me in a pool of blood my only companion pain but I seek love but I stumble on you… nothing but Lucifer’s whore and others like you who willingly donate your virtue never pure never my angle lowly cretin for every time I submit to you pitiful beauty a mask a ruse if I could id pull the skin from your face and expose the demon the retched soul that lurks who’s name is love but love does not exist for me in this point in time or have not met love but pure evil jus maybe love evil and pain are packaged
As I grow will solve this dilemma excruciatingly searching for the perfect love is perfect love naive to believe in or is it just foolish to follow never the less I am a lover and the pain only makes me strong in the corner I sit crying cold lonely shivers demolish my spine is this what I want only time can tell I am destined to love one will that one be pure of heart
By nikios Wallace 8/27/06
(Dark angel dedicated to the beautiful ronni)
my chemical romance intoxicate me be my meth fly me high dark angle you see not my secret wishes because they are hidden beneath a exterior that shows no interest i keep a close watch on this heart of mine oh but how sublime your face shines with angelic beauty take me away from my primary obsession a change is what my heart bleeds for be my savior from the one who embroils my l**ing soul brake the cage that holds me a lonesome prisoner will you be the one that brings me joy or crush me under treacherous beauty
(Im in L*** with you)
in the eyes of the world i am forsaken i am crushed by these four walls i call home my dreams dreams are trapped in my inverted mind never to be realized the pain of a lonesome heart is amplified by the thirst for emotional togetherness in the realm where those who are weak of heart yeild to the fiends of demise how does it feel to be cherished does it bring you happieness to you my L***? then let me sacrifice my soul onto you let it bring you elation but i ask of you comfort my broken body take my L*** for granted but recognize my friendship you were all that i desired now i only exist to make you smile baby dont keep me held up so high on such a frail twine you look into my eyes you see my ruse if you look deeper you shall see im lost inside without you i tell you you......'re my one and only and in your head my words are mangled inverted and manipulated into an entirely new being you seem seincere but also vindictive do you adore my hurting i am coming undone but not forever soon ill be depleted i am waiting for you to find yourself untill then remember this im in L*** with you
by nikios wallace 11/7/06

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