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**be**

Shallow are the souls that have forgotten how to shutter

About Me

"THe puRe AnD SimPle TruTh is RarElY Pure aNd NevEr siMpLe"Oscar Wilde
I know what it feels like to be crazy. I know what it feels like to be so sane that the truth hurts.
Ive experienced alot of injustices, and just as many lessons. Ive expereienced even more people, in many amounts of time.
I love to say i live my life to the fullest (even maybe on the edge) but im guilty of having a constant conciousness about the future.
If you havent noticed... i like to weigh things out ...alot. My mind is constantly in motion, never forard or backward .. but always side to side.
Beside the basics.... i am a dreamer, and love to be THE dream.
Im a frequent flier with disappointing habits and "things". Like my obsession with numbers, or my color fetishes but i love all those habits and things, they make me, ME.
I dont hold on to whats close to me, cuz i dont need to. All the important people, places and things stay right by me... if not return always back to me.....
Im not very comfortable as the person i am.
but the uncomfort keeps me going.
I love music.
More than any "thing" in the world.
more than candy.
more than the summer breeze
more than the sunset
more than the highest trees,
more than food (thats alot)
more than light
more than day
more than night
i love music more than anything.
it is the only way my soul can communicte with this earthly place.
it cant be touched
but anyone can be a part of it.
its like the air i breath...
only sweeter...
i fly in it.
i live it.
if i had no flesh...
it would be the only thing left of me..
<3Music.<3hm.
i also laugh frequently..
at somethings and nothings..
I love being happy
and taking the time to appreciate all the little things in life...
it really is all about graitude... and attitude. heh heh
i got it.
i have alot of theories on life ...
and tend to be theoretical disaster... at times. =0
but its cool i live and learn ..
and then give hugs.
Cuz we all need them you know.?
i sure do.
well anyone who knows me knows that there is a lot more to me than this space page on the internet....
good n bad stuff...
but stuff none the less..
so broaden your horizons...
open up your mind...
spend a little time ... getting to knoe me..
or not.
=]
Peace an olives.
=blanca= best of the best

My Interests


*** Climbing to the top..



♥lOvE MuSiC♥ SiNginG♥ pLaYiNg♥ dAnCiNg tO iT♥ cOmPoSiNg iT♥lOvE cArS♥cHoColAtE♥my TRU friends♥TALENT BOOT CAMP ♥ I am who am. and the people around me help me stay tru to that.

=]
first
DaNi CaLifornia

otherwise known as my bebe sister.
The coolest sister i could have ever asked for. =]
shes strange, intellegent and charming..
at times. she always keeps me laughing,
and although shes blunt enough to make me cry
she helps me face reality ...
and i love it. <33
Ralph himself.

who could ask for a better "Best 'Thing'"???
He has slowly but surely become my escape.
In this hectic life i live
he can somehow make it all better.
He reminds me of all the sweet things
i used to cherish as a child.
Everyday is like sliding on rainbows...
turning raindrops into diamonds..
dancing with fairies...
and reading colors...
when i grew up and found out
all those things werent real it broke my heart.
it might just sound gay.
But he repaired it.
Alice had her wonderland...
and Blanca has her Dreamland
now i can go back whenever i want...
and with a friend..
Ralph is my ride there
the only one capable of taking me there..
I wont ever let that go.
I thank him everyday for that.
I couldnt even ask for more.
(no im not insane.. or sprung.. its just the truth)=]<333

Texas Hold ‘em Poker

Lets play nikka!im down to take ur money =]

I'd like to meet:

I already met em...
Bad A$$ Jo$h.. the boy of my dreams
photo shoot. =]haha good times...cool ppl who can show mw cool stuff like thisss.Trip out.

Music:

All Of mE
**of course i gotta mention if u dont already kno i LOVE
RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE
**I like old jazz like Billie holiday,Louis Armstrong,some king Oliver teehee.n miles davis. I like Oldies like Brenton Wood, MAry wells, Tina marie,eLVIS,the temptations, THe BEATLes of course!!james Brown(r.i.p)(wheres his bod by the way?)ray charles..ohh yeahhh.. johnny cash.
** I like old classic rock like AC/DC and Guns n Roses, Queen,Doors, Led Zepplin, Pink Floyd,jimi hendrix Aerosmith, rolling stones.black sabbath. and more.
**I like 80's music,Debbie deb, stacy Q..
** new school hip hop.. akon,chamomille...oldschool hip hop like rappers delight an the sugar hill gang.Bone thugs n harmony Oh !!
** I love Underground punk or any punk... like THe Neglects, Set Aside the whole Area 323 crew...Ramones.. the clash or sex pistols.
** NEWER stuff or like 90s stuff...oasis,3doors pa bajo,nirvana,sheryl crowe,foo fighters, green day, the offspring,the pixies, red hot chilli peppers, soundgarden,tool, weezer...
**some underground hippy hop eyedea,abilities,Wu-tang'o atmosphere.
dude i dun kno i like a lotta stuff


Movies:


* *300

*ANCHOR MAN is one of my current favorites,

*garden state,

*sin city,

*pulp fiction,

*I love Charlies Angels,

*Liar Liar,

*Son in law,

*A HArd Days night

*Forest Gump

*American History X

*oh ya! n HAPPY FEET.=]

Books:

THE BIBLE,
Beloved,

Love signs (duh)
,
Name of the rose

plato's republic,

beyond good and evil...

Are You My Momma?

ill love you forever.

The Giving Tree,

Green Eggs and Ham,
One fish, Two Fish, Red fish Blue Fish,

=] heh
Your Famous Last Words Will Be:
"I dunno, press the button and find out." What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

Heroes:

I dont have a million heroes. just a few.
My Mom- WOman of The year. 07

kids- its hard to keep you innocence in todays world..

but you do a good jo of it.

& anyone who is living their dreams.

it takes courage, strenght and perserverence to do it.

My Blog

oh so simple.

Can it reallt be that simple? Why is it that when everything is so simple.. I chose to complicate it. To analyse its components and destroy its simplicity. If youre happy.. why ask why? Why do I beg...
Posted by **be** on Sun, 10 Aug 2008 10:44:00 PST

black soul box

i feel as though something must be wrong.. its a vicious cycle, this wrong feeling that comes along from time to time. the worst part of it, is that i cant seem to put my finger on the cause. like a...
Posted by **be** on Thu, 29 May 2008 11:30:00 PST

Learning something new... jesus as a metaphor???

Today. was new. i thought that i had considered every possible way to fix my life. But i didnt. i was lost i didnt believe. let me explain; when things happen. and your forced to make a decision. some...
Posted by **be** on Thu, 04 Jan 2007 03:00:00 PST

why i love to sing.

so i thought long and hard .... when i was asked the question.... and i came to realize... that first and foremost.. i love music. more than anything in the world. music is like candy for my soul.......
Posted by **be** on Mon, 06 Nov 2006 12:14:00 PST

its hard.

TRUE patience is hard trust is hard. letting go and letting GOD is hard. not asking "why" is hard. being consistent is hard. thanking GOD for trials is hard. not letting my flesh over come my heart an...
Posted by **be** on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 05:04:00 PST

So if i cant be everything--- how about ill be nothing.

You must not know about me. when you did what you did said what you said. felt what you felt. you didnt think. well maybe you did... bad choice then. it really does hurt to loose you . because ..wel...
Posted by **be** on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 02:03:00 PST

false hope.

is perfection possible?for these past few moments in my life.i thought. yes. but that was easily broken,ruined. there was no fairness in that. Once i held that moment.I promised it forever.because It ...
Posted by **be** on Thu, 22 Jun 2006 04:48:00 PST

another way.

We met in heaven.and you promised to come into my life.twice. Once.to teach me a Lesson. the second time, for ETERNAL LOVE thank you.     for saving me.    &nbs...
Posted by **be** on Wed, 14 Jun 2006 04:58:00 PST

running through my veins......

Fuck you all of you today tomoroe forever and  a day. you took everything from me when you tried to help and now because of this i wanna die n go to hell i hate you for everything you were for ...
Posted by **be** on Mon, 05 Jun 2006 01:24:00 PST

<3 him

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Posted by **be** on Tue, 02 May 2006 04:02:00 PST