Ma-E Ta-E

Why hello there. My name is Mae, nice to meet you. I'm trying to sharpen my social skills but I always wind up just making fun of myself instead. I'll do almost anything to get someone to laugh, and I'm not afraid of farting just because I'm a girl. I don't know why I'm not just deleting this thing but I've grown fond of this thing called Myspace. Gah...attachments, man. Sheesh. But umm...I'm really not anyone special, and I'm not particularly good at any one thing in particular. I usually don't have the right words when they would really count, even though I always plan things out in my head before I do them. The times when I haven't though, may have been some of the most worthwhile moments of my life. I'm a thinker, a nerd, and a goofball, through and through. Put me in the trendiest clothes, or strap a crown on my head, and I'll still be the insecure girl with a lisp. I'm okay with that because I've come to learn in life that being the best in things other than your faith doesn't really hold much weight in the long run. I've spent a good portion of my life trying to outdo people in school, grades, sports, etc. but really, the real battle lie in outdoing myself, holding myself out to higher standards than what the world wants you to believe. And it's a battle that's never going to get old, because you're fighting yourself, striving for the one, true thing that I've ever known, amidst a world full of lies, chaos, and destruction, and that's GOD. I may not the most faithful servant, and in my heart of hearts, I realize that. As much as people might put me on a pedestal, the moment I step on it, I'll tumble and fall because when you think you're the strongest is the moment you're most weak. I've met some of the most amazing people in my life and have seen the most evident proofs of God's existence in them."Without heeding the call of Jesus, it is impossible to realize the fullness of our humanity." --Pope John Paul III don't want my last myspace profile to be all about me because if it were, it'd be a pretty big waste of space. I spent far too much time away from God. I praise and thank Him that despite my pride, stubbornness, and weaknesses, He still chose to love me. I sometimes sit in awe wondering how in the world, I got to this point in my life and I can only think that it is because God is my stronghold. My strength when I am weak, which is always. I pray to live every single day of my life, genuinely for Him, because without that sense of direction, I'd be forever lost. I want to live my life all-or-nothing, no in betweens or gray areas because if I am lukewarm, He will vomit me out (Revelation). He has brought me an amazing family, a mom, dad, and brother who love me despite my crazy plans, despite everything I've put them through. He has brought me a wonderful community, who has been there through it all, seen my ups and downs and although, we may fall, I have faith, that we will all pick ourselves up and try again. He has brought me my Mother Mary, my protector, my beautiful example, the one who has brought me through the rain (sorry for getting all Mariah Carey on you). He has given Himself to me, in the Holy Eucharist, through which I could not imagine life without. If you do not yet know Him, intimately, personally, through this wonderful Sacrament of Sacraments, I feel sad for you. In this world of ungenuine people and things, when you are on the brink of believing everything around is secrets and lies (that's so N'Sync), you can go to God Himself, and have Him transform you through this mystery.I'm leaving for the religious life, to discern more on what God's calling me to do with my life. I will be a postulant of the Two Hearts, a part of the Leaven of the Immaculate Heart of Mary. Pray for me because I'm scared out of my wits. Too often, I focus on my human weaknesses and get discouraged. But I ask for you prayers, to be courageous, to be humble, and most especially, docile to God's Holy Will. Pray that my life won't be another lie to add to Satan's list, that despite trials, tribulations, and I will persevere. I don't know what's going to become of my life, but trust me, I'm no hero. I won't be unless I enter Heaven, so don't think of me that way if I'm not here. Don't think of me as a hero or a saint...just as, (in the words of St. Therese), an ordinary girl trying to strive for an extraordinary soul.*Note if you see last login date, it is her older brother reading up on her myspace. Thank you. Her Kuya Brian.*