About Me
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These days - when membership of the rock army can be symbolised by the simple purchase of a Ramones T-shirt - dedication has become a debased currency, subject to the hyper-inflationary dictates of fashion. Raw recruits sign up for the short term, soon surrendering their affections to whichever sexy “scene†might spring up next. Unswerving commitment to rock's righteous cause is rare; it demands a troop of seriously single-minded dudes with their collective heart and soul fixed on one goal - to bring the noise.
For those who believe in God, most of the big questions are answered. But for those of us who can't readily accept the God formula, the big answers don't remain stone-written. We adjust to new conditions and discoveries. We are pliable. Love need not be a command or faith a dictum. I am my own God. We are here to unlearn the teachings of the church, state, and our educational system. We are here to drink beer. We are here to kill war. We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us.
I love. I hate. I am human. I am real. I feel free. I read. I write. I take photos. I'm a Gemini. I've become a weekend alcoholic. I smoke at least a pack a day. I’m not a killer, but don’t push me. I put others before myself. I am everything you love and want. I am everything you hate and wish didn't exist. I'm not perfect, and neither are you. I don’t cry very often. I make people cry, but they deserve it. I make mistakes, and I take blame for those mistakes. I blame others for some of my mistakes. I also take blame for others mistakes. I am no better than anyone else, and you are no better than me. I have flaws, many flaws, but without them I am just as lost as being with them. I’m very spontaneous but not when I need to be serious. Someday I hope to be what I want to be not what others say I should. As a kid I didn’t have much guidance or influence to follow a certain path so I choose my own path which can be uncertain. I don’t like being lied to so I won’t lie to you. I speak my mind which sometimes gets me in trouble. I can be too honest and people’s feelings get hurt unintentionally. I'm a very simple boy, very laid back and comfortable with anyone, but I have a very complex mind and outlook. I'm opinionated but not pushy, although I will stand up for what I believe in no matter what. I'm not ashamed of who I am or what I believe and I'll defend it, if the need arises. I'll have to work my ass off to get where I want to be, and I'm okay with that. I’m here to make myself happy, not you, but I’m not selfish. I’ve been called conceited, cocky, and even egotistical. I’m not, but I am confident in myself as I should be. I love my friends more than life. Don’t fuck with them or I will destroy you. The greatest times in my life have been simple. A cold night, watching a good movie, cuddling on a couch with someone special. Those are the memories I will keep forever.
I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I'm Okay.
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Pure chance, absolutely free, but blind, is at the very root the stupendous edifice of evolution. Chance is the magic wand that makes not only rabbits, but entire universes appear out of nothing. If chance exists in any shape or form, god cannot exist. The two are mutually exclusive. If chance existed, it would destroy god's sovereignty. If god is not sovereign, he is not god. If he is not god, he simply is not. If chance is, god is not. If god is, chance is not. Chance, used in this sense, actually refers to that which happens without cause. Thus, chance implies the absence of a design and a designer.
