April [ready to give up] - ProfilesArchive

About Me

~ I believe in God. ~ I have been told by a professional that I was born in 1961. ~ I love my fiance, because... well, because he's so freaking awesome. ~ I have issues. ~ I believe in coffee and the comfort of a long chat with a friend. ~ I'm a psychology major ... bwahaha I'm going to read your mind! [/sarcasm] ~ I believe in yoghurt and its proper spelling. ~ I don't believe in drinking, doing drugs, or tailgating. ~ I don't believe in stereotyping, and in fact think that it's the stupidest thing on the face of the earth. ~ Dark chocolate is a cure-all. Combined with hugs, it is even more amazing. ~ I believe in black and wristbands. ~ I believe in the restorative power in writing poetry ... and revising it ... and revising it ... and revising it ... and then I believe in the joy that you get from that final, perfect draft. ~ Quotes are the coolest things to collect. ~ I don't believe in thorny bushes, regular peanut butter, or unsticky tape. ~ I believe in trees and mountains and the sea and sheep. I also believe in hamsters. ~ I enjoy writing long random things about myself. ~ O joyous anonymity. Try and find me in a crowd and you won't be able to. ~ People disgust me. Be anti-social. It's great fun. ~ I believe in learning from the experiences that life throws at me. ~ I was a member of 4-H for 9 years. ~ I am emotionally unstable. So if you don't push me, I probably won't tip over the edge. ~ Contrary to most of the photos on here, and my pretty layout, I consider myself a punk/Goth. ~ I do yoga and karate. Flexible and strong. Don't get in my way. ~ I have no trouble matching my clothes. Black matches black. Got that? ~ I have a dark and morbid sense of humor. ~ I believe in chai, any kind, any place. ~ I am still waiting for my first kiss. ~ I believe in minimizing stress. However, as that would mean me quitting college, it's a no-can-do at the moment. Or for the next three (THREE??!?) years. ~ I love my family. And I will love my family-in-law, once I know all of them. ~ I rededicated my life to Christ at a Seventh Day Slumber concert. ~ "To love is to be vulnerable." - C.S. Lewis.

My Interests

Psychology :: biology :: philosophy :: literature :: poetry :: eating disorders :: mental disorders :: veterinary science :: religion :: history :: music :: cooking :: journaling :: serving others

I'd like to meet:

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Music:

Nightwish :: Plumb :: Seventh Day Slumber :: Evanescence :: Pink Floyd :: Barlow Girl :: Alanis Morissette :: ZOEgirl :: Bethany Dillon :: Casting Crowns :: Sixpence None the Richer :: Relient K :: Switchfoot :: Fall Out Boy :: Visions of Atlantis :: Superchic[k] :: Skillet :: Thousand Foot Krutch :: Underoath :: Blindside :: Loreena McKennitt :: Enya :: Michael Card :: Kutless

Books:

Charles Dickens :: Jane Austen :: Elizabeth Gaskell :: J.R.R. Tolkien :: C.S. Lewis :: Charles Williams :: Edith Wharton :: Virginia Woolf :: Josh Harris :: Gaston Leroux :: Thomas Hardy :: L.M. Montgomery :: Albert Camus :: Jean-Paul Sartre :: Charlotte Bronte :: Emily Bronte :: Sigmund Freud :: Mark Twain :: Ayn Rand :: Anorexia Diaries :: William Shakespeare :: Nathaniel Hawthorne :: Washington Irving :: Dean Koontz :: John Grisham :: Franz Kafka :: Fyodor Dostoyevsky :: Nikolai Gogol :: Goethe :: John White :: Anthony Trollope :: P.G. Wodehouse :: Max Lucado

Heroes:

God, my parents, Mr. Cheese!

My Blog

I feel so trapped.

Jarrod thinks that I should drop out of college for awhile, because it's not helping me recover at all. I don't have any way of dealing with stress, and stress leads me to do crazy things. ...
Posted by April [sweet suffering] on Sun, 04 Mar 2007 10:05:00 PST

So tell me why you're weeping....

It's really weird to sit here and realise that over half my friends on here are people that I don't talk with anymore, a few are friends in real life, and the others are online friends. ...
Posted by April [sweet suffering] on Fri, 16 Feb 2007 10:41:00 PST

I've got one hand in my pocket...

So I just took my oral comm final. And I could get as low as a D- and still get an A- overall for the course. I added up the points that I felt comfortable about getting and it ended up to...
Posted by April [sweet suffering] on Fri, 09 Feb 2007 07:56:00 PST

Dreaming comes so easily 'cause it's all you've ever known ...

I am scared, and I'm alone ... I really don't feel good. Physically or mentally. You know that feeling you get when something bad is going to happen? Yeah. That's me. Except I ...
Posted by April [sweet suffering] on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 03:58:00 PST

Wait Mister. Which way is home?... ramble

The title is from an Anne Sexton poem - "Music Swims Back to Me." I heart Anne Sexton. Today is a day of frozenness. It was -4'F at my house this morning, and although it's above zero now,...
Posted by April [sweet suffering] on Fri, 26 Jan 2007 10:19:00 PST

...searching for the things I'll never know

Things in this life aren't easy.They all take work. Maybe they're easy for some people.Maybe some people are just destined to struggle.I don't know. Major apathy again tonight. It comes nearly e...
Posted by April [sweet suffering] on Fri, 12 Jan 2007 03:51:00 PST

Soaring through the midnight blue ...

I wonder sometimes. I'm feeling depressed tonight.I don't know why.Perhaps a crash from all the caffeine I had. Argh. I wish I really could soar. Up up and away into the starry night sky ... the...
Posted by April [sweet suffering] on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 05:39:00 PST

"You wanna be real..." - 2006 summarised

...you wanna be someone someday,lay it all down before the King.You wanna be whole, you wanna have purpose inside,you wanna have virtue, and purify your mind,you wanna be set free today,lay it all dow...
Posted by April [sweet suffering] on Fri, 29 Dec 2006 06:20:00 PST

I'm engaged!

Surprise surprise, I know. :) Or is it? I suppose I haven't really talked that much about Jarrod, except to those select few via IM. Or who read my LJ. And even there I don't really ...
Posted by April [sweet suffering] on Mon, 25 Dec 2006 01:34:00 PST

So stand in the rain, stand your ground ...

It's been awhile, hasn't it? Goodness. And what a time it has been. This semester is almost over, which is crazy to believe, because it feels like it's just started. It was enj...
Posted by April [sweet suffering] on Sun, 10 Dec 2006 05:27:00 PST