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This is how I would look if I still loved Angie.

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About Me

Its really hard to feel loved when your mom is gone and your dad contradicts everything you have to say. The old man has no faith. I'm so fucking full of fucking shit he won't talk to me about moving on he says, anyone who would ever be my wife he couldn't trust, and when I told him Angelina got my journal he was completely dismissive of any notion of her contacting me. She's gonna be Donna in Beowulf. I am like a quasi celeb because I own the Geographical Center of Texas, my uncle went to Yale with the president, and I know famous people, but I don't have an operant social life so it is bittersweet. I pretty much only see my friends at shows or online, so please work me into your routine because I am all by my very lonesome so often.

My Interests

butterfly kisses, studies and leisure, learning and hoping to exist unalone, will power, not being a waste of sexual energy, electroencephalographic optical biofeedback, neutrinos, archaic wisdom, folk memory, deja vu, reincarnation, not pretending to know everything, every seven years from my perspective, how you can't edit my punctuation here, psychiatry (psych), psyche, glass eyed mystique, Queens of Vajra Space, DAKINI (xo), destroying and not getting destroyed by perverse solitude, delayed gratification, sexual liberation, divination, Tathagatas, theophany, PARADOXICAL RELATIONS, DIAMETRIC OPPOSITION, JUXTAPOSITION, MUTUAL EXCLUSION, VARIATION, PARALLELS, CONTRAST, BALANCE, artforms of Alex Grey, Salvador Dali, Herman Hesse, Aldous Huxley, Carl Gustav Jung, J.R.R. Tolkien, Carl Sagan, Isaac Asimov, Montague Summers, zen, moderate carnage, samsara, Traditional Chinese Medicine, Taoism, Bonism, Tibet, antimatter, negative space, the void, delivery from human form into superhuman form, sweet potato fries, etc.

I'd like to meet:

Angelina Jolie, Barbara Bush, Jay Blount, Henry Hagar, elves, werewolves, vampires, makaras, dragons, greys

Music:

Warwolf, Imp Lawyer, Dudman (of Japan), Propagandhi, Head Wound City, Neon Blonde, Violent Ramp, Blood Brothers, Pig Destroyer, Bones Brigade, the Grateful Dead, Breakfast, Exclaim, Disembowelment, Society of Friends, Ground Unicorn Horn, Hot Snakes, Fall into the Sear and Yellow Leaf, New Year, 1066, Anomie, the Rolling Stones, Agoraphobic Nosebleed, Brutal Truth, Drugs of Faith, the Weakerthans, Rory and the Artificial Heart, The Weakerthans, Bright Eyes, any John Coltrane and Elvin Jones collaboration (most notably "Live at Birdland"), Some Girls,Kool Keith, Dr. Dooom, Dr. Octagon, The Reverand Tom, Project Pat, Three Six Mafia, Nine Inch Nails, Crestfallen, Fugazi

Movies:

The Professional, Ghost Dog, Pulp Fiction, Interview With The Vampire, Akira, Blood The Last Vampire, Spirited Away, The Godfather, Miller's Crossing, Blood Simple, La Planete Sauvage, Baraka, Drop Dead Fred, Wizards

Television:

Discovery Channel, CNN, Fraggle Rock, Twin Peaks, Aeon Flux, The Maxx, Beavis and Butthead, Pete and Pete, Trinity Blood, The Unit, NCIS, Heroes, Top Chef, Pokemon

Books:

Flatland, Journey To The East, Psychology and Religion: West and East, Tao Teh Ching, Tibetan Book of the Dead, Three Years In Tibet, Dropping Ashes On The Buddha, Pocahontas * Powhatan * Opechancanough, The Devils of Loudun, The Vampire: His Kith and Kin, The Werewolf in Lore and Legend, Oriental Magic, A Brief History of Time, Cosmos, Billions And Billions, Guide To Earth And Space, The Dragons Of Eden: Speculations On The Evolution Of Human Intelligence, THE COSMIC CONNECTION An Extraterrestrial Perspective, Programming the Human Biocomputer, Transfigurations, Sacred Mirrors, The Silmarillion, The Geography Of Witchcraft, The Tempest, Neuromancer, The Encyclopedia of Tibetan Symbols and Motifs, Masks of the Illuminati, Psychic Wars, Psychology and the Occult

Heroes:

Powhatan, Carl Jung, Lao Tzu, Pax Thien

My Blog

Why I shouldn't be rude to Maddox.

It isn't good to talk about some things Maddox will begin to learn about as a child online. This era of his childhood is before adolescence, and that is when puberty starts. Sexuality is desperat...
Posted by This is how I would look if I still loved Angie. on Sun, 20 May 2007 01:36:00 PST

2012

I am a Unitarian Christian. When God sends the 7 plagues, the answer to transfer to a parallel physical paradigm is the completion of a binary circuit. Solace berry will turn you into a dragon. It has...
Posted by This is how I would look if I still loved Angie. on Fri, 13 Apr 2007 02:23:00 PST

HunnyBunnzz

You know how bimbos always send at least the guys on myspace these "my MSN AIM are," "gonna be in your area soon," and "TRUE allows nudity" messages and invites? I keep getting them from "HunnyBunnzz"...
Posted by This is how I would look if I still loved Angie. on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 05:56:00 PST

pinealocytes and calcification of the pineal gland

Pinealocytes convert naturally occuring dimethyltryptamine within the pineal gland into melatonin. After puberty, melationin doesn't occur within the pineal gland as much. After puberty the pineal gla...
Posted by This is how I would look if I still loved Angie. on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 05:11:00 PST

illusions

Myspace feeds my delusions of adequacy. I see myself growing fatter, but I am most often fatter than I am in the pictures I have taken featured as default images (reality check).
Posted by This is how I would look if I still loved Angie. on Sat, 10 Feb 2007 10:31:00 PST

Diametric Coincidence revisited

Read "Diametric Coincidence" first. "Diametric Coincidence" is a model. Think of it as a coil of time rather than a line. The points in the coil must coincide with those before and those after them pe...
Posted by This is how I would look if I still loved Angie. on Sat, 10 Feb 2007 10:08:00 PST

drugs and meditation

It is a fact that the brain naturally produces a wide variety of drugs that people use recreationally. The process of producing many of these occurs during sleep, or meditation - when people slow down...
Posted by This is how I would look if I still loved Angie. on Sat, 27 Jan 2007 08:03:00 PST

Yeaho

Yeaho is a creature on the East Coast that is furry humanoid. It lives in the wilderness. Other tribes call it a windigo. These creatures are elusive and dine on human flesh.
Posted by This is how I would look if I still loved Angie. on Tue, 23 Jan 2007 04:23:00 PST

Diametric Coincidence

Did you know that you don't have to know you are enlightened to be enlightened. Are confusion and enlightenment mutually exclusive? In zen there is a cycle of attainment of higher understanding. Withi...
Posted by This is how I would look if I still loved Angie. on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 05:18:00 PST

and I'm not into polygamy

fell in love with 4 women in lifetime, 3 of whom haven't ever met, 2 never seen and 1 barely know. is cute. am writing without pronouns. 2 times have had cybersex with pretending to be 2 never seen or...
Posted by This is how I would look if I still loved Angie. on Thu, 21 Dec 2006 06:04:00 PST