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Space Cowboy

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About Me

I give too much of myself to people who don't want it.

Infinite freedom can be a debilitating prison. Of this, I am sure. The four walls of my room do not hold me back, and beyond them lay all of the earth. Each life, each spirit if you will, glows against the backdrop of all of creation. We are all hand in hand, yet separated by an abyss that seems to stretch forever. I can feel, from love to hate. I can go left or right, forward and backwards. I can even dig a hole, or create a ladder. I can do everything. I can do nothing. Of all the things I can do, I have done what I have done. Of all the things I can be, I have chosen to be me.

Sometimes I embrace the freedom; sometimes I bang my head against the prison walls.

Black Light Burns - LIE
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My Interests

Destiny, Death, Dream, Destruction, Desire, Despair and Delirium who was once Delight.

I'd like to meet:

Tyler Durden, Richard Bach, an alchemist, Wanderlei Silva, Dr. Rockso - the rock and roll clown, and trustworthy people who aren't shallow.

Music:

Pantera. Down. Faith No More. Mike Patton. Twiztid. Michael Jackson. Killswitch Engage. Strapping Young Lad. The Devin Townsend Band. Bjork. Bloodhound Gang. Stabbing Westward. Shania Twain. Superjoint Ritual. HIM. Not listed: about 999 other bands.

Movies:

Fight Club. American Psycho. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. I guess I'm a fan of every movie that has a cult following. Never Ending Story is terrifying and I hate it.

Television:

Fullmetal Alchemist. Frisky Dingo. Metalocalypse. Entourage. Anime. Cartoons from the 80's. Sitcoms from the 90's. My whole perception of how a working relationship should be probably stems from "Home Improvement".

Books:

The Sandman. The Ultimate Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. The Great Gastby. The One. The Alchemist. Transmetropolitan. Lucifer. Replay. The unbearable lightness of Being. 1984. American Psycho. Anything by Hunter S. Thompson or Chuck Palahniuk. Not listed: about 999 other books.

Heroes:

Heroin junkies. Martyrs. The number nine. Hunter S. Thompson. Anyone who follows their dreams and hearts.

My Blog

You wouldn’t by chance have a desire to risk it all for the sake of love, would you?

    How many chances do we get to do it right?  To make right that which has been wrong?  To follow a righteous path?  How many times can we stray before we are stripped ...
Posted by Space Cowboy on Thu, 17 Jan 2008 12:34:00 PST

I cant hide, put me under lights so ILL CAST A SHADOW

    What you see painted on my face is not a projection of deceit or playwright.  Perhaps in writing, I cater to the theatric side of things, but if you should be so lucky to walk ...
Posted by Space Cowboy on Mon, 14 Jan 2008 11:30:00 PST

"Loverman! Here I stand Forever, Amen, Cause I am what I am what I am what I am"

    I don't feel like specifics.  You will find no reality, only reality based observations.  Ideas and fears birthed today will carry over into dreams and nightmares under my...
Posted by Space Cowboy on Wed, 09 Jan 2008 01:05:00 PST

S-E-L-F D-E-S-T-R-U-C-T-I-O-N :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

     We are playing it safe.  Dull the senses until only primal instincts remain.  Break the hold of social attachment and expectations.   Destroy to achieve th...
Posted by Space Cowboy on Sat, 05 Jan 2008 02:31:00 PST

I always liked decepticons over autobots, cobra over G.I. Joe.....

     I didn't want to post this, considering the nature of it all, but fuck it.  I will anyways. Pum trour axat nidd caxallyick um vo zo ossonco eb ovir eb ovolupp daxaup...
Posted by Space Cowboy on Sat, 29 Dec 2007 02:59:00 PST

Welcome to Hell.

    It all started last night with otherwordly sex in the middle of a road inside a bathtub.  I think she was who I think she was, but for some reason in retrospect, she seemed als...
Posted by Space Cowboy on Fri, 28 Dec 2007 01:05:00 PST

Birthing pains

         Above my head is another floor to this house we live in.  It's an attic.  Incomplete in every way, you can see daylight through the walls where the fl...
Posted by Space Cowboy on Thu, 27 Dec 2007 10:52:00 PST

Dying as fools, or cowards?

    I know where my heart is.  I built my world around it.  It is the foundation of my being.  It gets first dibs on the oxygen when I breathe.  It defines my action...
Posted by Space Cowboy on Sat, 22 Dec 2007 01:50:00 PST

A lot of staring.

    When I'm upset and feel an urgency to write, I usually spend a lot of time staring at my computer re-writing the same sentence over and over until I realize I can't figure out what ...
Posted by Space Cowboy on Wed, 19 Dec 2007 02:31:00 PST

I still want to write strange fiction instead-

    Lately I've slept very deep and dream heavy sleep.  My body craves the rest, though some nights have been restless, tossing and turning to keep pace with the speed of the thoug...
Posted by Space Cowboy on Sat, 15 Dec 2007 12:57:00 PST