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Jackie |Still Laughing|

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About Me


I’m a girl who is a slave to her own past, one who is bonded to those she use to care for, and yet now she would desire nothing more then to blame them for making her fall in love & shame them for their wrong-doings in this child’s eyes.
I’m a girl who is considered fragile, one that has been dropped and broken so many times that her little glass heart has lost some pieces along the way.
I’m a girl who titles herself devoted, one that would die for the people she cares for.
I’m a girl who is deemed to be old-fashion, one that can never get ahead but, is thoroughly stuck within her own world at her own pace.
I’m a girl who is always thought to be happy, one that smiles just so you don’t have to worry about her and the wrecked tangles of her past, present, and possible future.
I’m a girl who is slowly---very gradually----attempting to glue back her glass heart because she has found someone worth her wild that she wants to give it to (and only this person deserves the best-looking heart).
I’m a girl that has a name, and thus, I am not just a girl.
I’m an individual.
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My Interests

Anime, manga, roleplaying, writing, swimming, drawing, biking, graphic design, video games, singing, and music.

I'd like to meet:

Oh, people, of course---who else? I actually like to keep in contact with my internet buddies though, so if you wish to be my friend, at least message me once in awhile, kay?

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You're the caged angel. You're either trapped inside your mind or emotions. You're stuck in a big mess of problems and in a way, you're hiding. You're actually a kind person who wants people to like you and be kind back. You don't know what to do. You want so badly to get out, but you're afraid to leave and afraid to stay. The outside world is scary to you because you have a fragile soul and you break down easily after so many jerks won't get off your case. It's a shame to keep such a beautiful soul locked up.
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Hysterical - Oh, happy little girl full of innocence and naivety. You are a sweet, wonderful person and a lot of times smile even when you feel sorrowful, enraged, or completely desperate. People do this because they truly care about the individuals around them. You might have chosen to do this because you didn't want others to worry about you, didn't want to depend on others, or you felt that you didn't deserve people caring about your problems. You bottled up all those emotions of negativity and covered them up with a false joy, and you wondered why sometimes you cried at night for no reason at all.Well, it so happened that one day those feelings threaten to come out. Believe it or not, you cannot suppress the pain forever, dear. And, when you do snap (not if), you will not be the same person. Some might call you a monster before you scratch out their eyes in a mass furry. Inside you is a demon that can unleash itself if you don't confront it yourself.Dont worry though, you are a person with a lot of friends. People love you because you smile & laugh, and just like they depend on you when they ask you for your wise advice; you can do the same towards them. Sure, not everyone is gonna be there for you; however, some people want to aide you and love you like you love them. So, call your best friend up and have a mild rant session for awhile---it'll do that broken heart of yours good. Keep that hope and cheer!
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"My only wish is to act past the harshness I have endured, and to reach out to humanity. Let me, as a person, grasp your hand to guide you farther away from your own suffering. I pray that I can meet you, that I can believe in you, and lastly, to let you leave me as a new & finer person than I could ever be. I’ll walk within your shadow and smile on the sidelines while I cheer for your happiness. That way, you’ll have support and see that friendship can tangle within the web of your heart and stick within the depths forevermore. If you let me in, I’ll aide you and give you all the hope I can muster; but, I’m sorry---I will only pretend to give you myself.

Just smile for me though, it makes me believe I’m doing something right. Remember to laugh, remember to cry, and remember that people need people... Don’t be cowardly and try to escape from your heart or something important might just escape from you.

Hold onto your faith, and always keep that glimmer of hope, or else you could fall & break, or become an actress like myself."
--- Jackie Lee Payne.

"I have been deemed shadow's Angel, I watch over the darkness even though I engulf the light of the heart."
--- Jackie Lee Payne

"A true friend stabs you in the front.
--- Oscar Wilde.

"Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much."
--- Oscar Wilde.

"We have faith. Even if it's small, a strong light won't fade away."
--- Kira Yamato, Gundam Seed (Anime).

"Possibly, we humans can exist without having to fight. But many of us have chosen to fight. For what reason? To protect something? Protect what?! Ourselves? The future? If we must kill to protect ourselves and that future, then what sort of future is it? And what will we have become? There is no future for those who have died. And what of those who did the killing? Is happiness to be found in a future grasped with bloodstained hands? Is that the truth?"
--- Lacus Clyne, Gundam Seed (Anime).

"You came... Even though you're about to break. That's a good sign."
- Aerith Gainsborough, Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children (CG Moive).

"I guess...I'm getting scared. Sometimes...when I'm with all of you... I...feel like we're on the same wavelength......you know? But when the battles start happening, it's different. Everyone's tempo seems to pick up and... ...I get left behind. I try to catch up, but it's no use... How far is everyone going? I can't hear anyone... Once I catch up, I wonder... Is everyone safe? Will they welcome me with open arms? ......Is everyone ok? Will we all make it back together?"
--- Rinoa Heartily, Final Fantasy VIII (Video Game).

"I don't mind if people leave me, I've become accustomed to it; however, I think I would crumble if you told me good-bye. I am so scared of chasing you away... If you told me you'd stay by my side as long as you could, it'd make my worries fade away like the clouds do on a sunny day. Could you, even if it was a lie, say those words to me?

If you don't, it's okay and I'll still love you with every fiber of my being; but, I'll always be thinking that you might leave me and when I become attached to that sweet smile of yours, you will become my everything (and as they say, 'Never make anyone your everthing because you might end up with nothing.'). Let me devote myself to you, let me cherish you... Let's have forever because I want this happiness forever, my love."
--- Jackie Lee Payne


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Music:

Evanescence, Eyeshine, Jem, Dirty Vegas, Tori Amos, Ryan Cabrera, DJ Encore, DJ Sammy, Linkin Park, P.O.D, Natasha Bedingfield, Anna Nalick, ATB, BT, Jason Mraz, Phil Collins, Suzanna Vega, Alice Deejay, Alanis Morissette, Michael Buble, Keane, Trapt, Frou Frou, Dido, SnOW, Sting, Ian Van Dahl, Coldplay---generally anything besides country and rap/hip-hop...

Movies:

Moulin Rouge, Shawshank Redemption, The, and League Of Extraordinary Gentlemen, The.

Television:

Sailor Moon, Gakuen Heaven, Viva La Bam, South Park, The Avatar, Ah! My Goddess, Loveless, Trigun, S-CRY-ed, Vampire Princess Miyu, X, Revolutionary Girl Utena, Pet Shop Of Horrors, Gundam Wing, Gundam Seed, Gundam Seed Destiny, Princess Nine, Vampire Hunter D, Shamanic Princess, Animatrix, Shadow Skills, The Cat Returns, Gundam G, Elf Princess Rane, Angel Sanctuary, Family Guy, Wolf’s Rain, Futurama, The Weakest Link, Yami no Matsuei/Descendants of Darkness, America's Next Top Model, Project Runway and more...

Books:

The Alex Rider Series (Anthony Horowitz), Anything by Stephen King, Anything by Anna Rice, Anything by Vivian Vande Velde, The Count of Monte Cristo

Heroes:

A few of my real-life idols include Stephen King and his wonderful written works. Gina Biggs, an outstanding writer and artist who knows how to write the perfect love story. My boyfriend, Tim, who happens to be such a strong individual that cares deeply for the people around him and his warm heart. My big sister, Natalie/Onee-chan for her protective mannerism and kind spirit.

And of course, Major Victory because no one can truly beat him. Be a winner, not a weiner!