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$Shelly$

I will never understand why these things have to happen. RIP Shawn.3 your brat and your lil punk.

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September 14, 2006
My little boy Jasen's father, Shawn, died last night. I don't know what to do, and i dont understand why this had to happen. This has been the worst day of my life. I feel like I should have done more to help him, but I never did. Jasen has been left without a father, forever. I always held on to a glimmer of hope that things would get better, but now, there will never be that chance. I wish things were so different. I just don't know what else to say.

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Music:

Everything! I love Jimmy Fallon's CD, it is freakin outta control funny!

Movies:

I like everything with Adam Sandler in it!I just really love anything funny. I also love "Blow" and "Catch me if you Can".

Television:

I am a freak and I am totally obsessed with Scrubs. Thats my shit right there. I also love Days of our Lives and Passions. My new favorites are My Name is Earl and the Office.

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R.I.P. Shawn, I wrote these for you:
You left us way too soon, it was not your time to go
So many words unsaid, so many feelings left to show
When you died, you took a piece of me with you
There were still so many things, I hoped for you to do
I wished for you to see once more, your son's big, beautiful smile
If only you could come back, for just a little while
I dont know what to do, knowing you are not close by
If you were here you could wipe away, all the tears I cry
Our hearts are broken, and the world again will never see
The amazing father, son, and friend, we all knew that you could be.
I know you are up there, looking down on us too,
And everytime i see Jasen, I'll see a part of you.
You were were such a good friend, like no one else could,
You put up a fight for me when no one else would.
For the past ten years of my life, i knew you were there,
Even though there were many times, I didnt think you had cared.
I feel lucky to have a piece of you with me forever,
Our handsome boy, so mischevious and cleaver.
If you could see me now, you'd laugh and tell me not to cry,
As these horrible moments come down, crashing by.
You made me who I am, I will never forget,
For everything that has happened, I'll hold no regret.
I know you will watch over your babies, and me as your friend,
I will wait til the day, I see you again.

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Mi big sis is the most amazing mom, and one of the strongest, freakin nicest people on the planet!
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As I Mature..Blog Worthy Poem

As I Mature... I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just asshol...
Posted by $Shelly$ on Tue, 14 Nov 2006 04:33:00 PST

Over a month later...

So its been over a month since we lost shawn. Destractions are my new best friends. I try to keep my mind off of everything that has happened. And then there are days and nights where i cant think of ...
Posted by $Shelly$ on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 01:16:00 PST

You think you know, but you have no idea

so,  you think you know what you want? you think you know what you want the rest of your life to be like?  and then something happens, that shakes you so badly, you have no idea. sudden...
Posted by $Shelly$ on Tue, 26 Sep 2006 08:56:00 PST

Shawn

I have so much to say and so many feelings. Its hard to get them sorted out. This is so unbelieveable. Today I tried to go back to school, and go back to my "normal" life. It was so much harder than I...
Posted by $Shelly$ on Mon, 18 Sep 2006 02:34:00 PST