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About Me

Uhh hi. I don't really like people, I don't like talking to people or looking at people. Well, sometimes I do. Uhh, maybe sometimes. FUCK IT! Erase what I just said. Uhh, yea I'm EJ, a lot of people just call me SK8aBONG or NEEDLES though. I used to live kind of everywhere. I am a nomad [which everyone calls me now] and I live where I want and when I want. Atleast I never had to pay for rent or utilities. I just recently moved my lazy ass out of my own place once again, over in Depew. I live with my gnome I stole from "Good Times", and we play video games togeather all day long. I WOULD FUCK HIM IF HE WOULD TELL ME TOO! If he told me to kill myself I would, shit I would bow down to him.
Recently I just got out of jail, I've been in & out for the last three years, but recently got a bunch of felenys and shit. So I made it my home for a few months. I only got out on 10/29/06 once again my girl bailed my ass out. Although it was only two days before I got arrested and sent back to jail. I don't really give a fuck, I ended up getting out again on 11/22/06 only cause of my laywer.
I live my life like it's my last day. Partying, joyriding, and just getting fucked up. I don't give a fuck what anyone thinks, and don't care to be told what to do. As for these women who step in and outta my life, I'm not looking for a fuckin' mother or a fuckin' leach. So let me breathe if you want to get to know me.
I'm 5'10, Fuck it, about what I look like. If you want to honestly know, then fuckin' ask or look at my pictures. Isn't that the reason they are up there.. fuckin' idiots.
I used to be in a garage band called SOH, although life changes your future and plans. My once lived for the music I made, but I will be honest, things change..
I mostly party, love doing the drugs. The love of my life is the drugs and the booze. I go out and partying or stripping in public, getting arrested. Just having a good old time, thats who I am and that's all I care about, so don't think I'm falling for you, I'm in love with the drugs..
I do love to party and get fucked up, but sometimes in life you have to be serous. I do know when to be, and where to be. The drugs help me see clearer and I will argue my side untill you will see it my way. I don't see life a serous situation, although some situations throughout life can be serous. They can also, make you have to fall to get back up to understand something.
So fuck all that serous shit man, we're all going to die. And what do you have behind your name? Some boring ass schooling. FUCK EDUCATION!
Guns. Knifes. Herion. Suicide. Homicide. Nine tails. Hand cuffs. Pills. Chains. Blood. Acid. Memories.
I've done things most people would regret, and I've done things that have hurt others. Although you can never regret anything you've done. It's the best way to learn from your choices. Never beleive you made a mistake or then you did.
When I speak no one understands, their to busy saying I'm just fucked up.
When I cry no one understands, their to busy saying I forgot to take all my meds.
When I cut no one understands, their to busy saying I want attention.
When I stab people no one understands, their to busy saying I'm going through withdrawl
When I die no one will understand, their be to busy for a junkie like me.
Fuckin' just shoot it up.. you only live once...I hate myspace never cared for it. The only reason I am on this shit is cause I am a low life just like the rest of you.

My Interests

I am morbid and don't like being around that many people. But at the same time, I hate being alone.
Uhh, I like to write most of the time, just sit back and write either poetry, lyrics, or some kind of shit. I write about what I see in life, and where the hurt is in people. I always love to party, trust me if i had enough money i would party every day. [with or without the money, somehow baby I still do it.]Fuckin drugs are my life. I live for the drugs, and will die by the drugs. I used to be a big skater, the key word used to. I am into gutairs, and drums. I own a few, like getting jacked up and fuck with music. Music man, music is a big thing. I haven't heard that much of music but once I like something I like it. Video games are sweet, I love video games.Fuck life, and just do what makes you feel good.

I like big doggies that bite.. i want to own one. BIG.. uhh yea HUGE fuckin doggie. one that will eat people up... damn now i gotta go steal someones doggie.

Sharp shiny objects are amazing. If you find something, hide it from the world. The government might find out and kill you with it.

Cell phones are annoying, that is one thing that pisses me off, when you go on a date or something and they are always pulling that shit out. WHY THE FUCK AM I HERE IF YOUR TALKING OR TEXTING SOMEONE BITCH? So I will like to blow up cell phones, and make you lick the battery acid.

I'd like to meet:

I would like to meet the man who made priscription drugs. p I would also like to find a cure to MS ... Uhh I think. If not, you will hear about it.
WHO THE FUCK STOLE MY LAST BAG? Fuckin shit. If you find the culprit instante message me at [USEDnDESTROYED][CrimsonTheWicked].
I think I wanna meet the white light just one last time, so I can say I don't need this pain anymore.
Uhh, damn i think i wanna meat.. HAHA I spelled it wrong, would you like some meat with that sir.

The memories of SOH [Scab of Hatred]

Damn, it's been a while since Jey(Jasp) has been spoken through my life. Back when Jey was actually here alive, when the crew was always togeather. When loving a man wasn't cause of sexual orientation or anything. When love was the reason we lived for eachothers. SOH, Scab of Hatred.
We never needed anyone else, we always had eachothers. Not our teachers, not our parents, not the church, not even any other friends. All we ever wanted was the drugs and the skating.
God, back then we were such losers, but we sure as hell ran the streets. Skating for atleast 10 hours a day, then decide to go to what we called band practice. Even though we never really did anything but drugs and fucked around. Jey was the bass gutair, and sometimes would be the back up gutairiest. Shawn Was all drums, He was amazing, and always could learn the song by ear, and then play in 5 minutes. Then there was me, the lead guitarest. I got taught by Jey. He really got me to stick to it, and not just quite when it got hard. We would pick up Traci once in a while, so we had a keyboardiest. Although, with Jey and I playing the guitar and Shawn killing the drums, sometimes we didn't need her. The good old crew.

It was hard to live without the dreams I had with SOH, but I learned to live for the memories.

I still remember the day Jey got sponsered. Getting payed to skate was always our dream next to the music industrie. He was better then anyone around me. The SOH crew once again. Making music, and skating. We had everything we ever wanted. We had the money, the drugs, and our fuckin' lyrics with our skates. Then Shawn ended up getting sponsered, and I reliazed we have succeded with our lives. I ended up becoming a great amature skater, which was alright. Then during Valantine's day I ended up getting an interview by Solomon, but I couldn't skate without Jey.
I never went back to skating without my boy Jey. Those were the days of our lives. Back when we we're kids, and we ran the streets.
JEY [Jasper Even Yoilioski] You will always be the only man I loved. RIP: Febuary 15, 2002. You were the closest friend I had. Shawn has always been there for me, through the rough times after Jey Killed himself. Then there is always crazy me, back when we we're kids. It was always us three, never alone. We we're/ are the losers and the rejects. No one around us liked us untill we became big. Bigger then anyone could imagine. Jey you will always be in my heart, Shawn you will always be my brother. Shawn I know it is hard for you still, although their is always us. It will never be the same, the closest person still gone. SOH [Scab of Hatred] will never be without him. I leave the crew name with him.

Music:

Music = life.Music means everything to me, everything I'm doing needs some rock in. I like all types of rock, it just matters what kinda day I'm having. It could range from death metal, to rock, to punk, to even older rock. I like all types of rock. Techno is also fuckin my favorite. Just whatever the drugs tell me to put on. I live for the music, the feeling, the pain, the drugs. I always listening to somethin, either on my IPOD or in my head... I know you hear it too. Everyone lives for something, and I live for the music, for my escape.

This is what I mean, you gotta feel the words. Love the pain. Just let it all go for the music.

Dismember my myself
Severe my viens
Poisen myself
A heartless joke
Slash at my neck
Gouge out my eyes
Screaming in agony
You pacify me.

Movies:

Movies are movies. Why if you honestly want to know anything the fuck about movies, why don't you just go to fuckin' Blockbuster ass hole?

I watch some shit, actually I watch movies a lot. I prabably watched the same movie about twenty times and don't remember that I saw it that many times. Damn, defintly saw Finding Nemo 24 and still don't remember what the fuck happens in the end.

Sometimes I stop to think
Or maybe my thinking just stops
Doesn't matter anyway
No one hears what I say, I'm on the brink of insanity

Why now?

You used my only clean hoody to wipe your ass with. Now I got to o steal another one. Fuckn' losers...

When you hear me crying through the heater vents, do you care that I'm slitting my wrists?

Television:

Fuck man, I hate Television first off anyways. Damn, there ain't nothing good on. The only time i really watch television is to watch some dumb ass chermicals... Uhh there are a few things I wacth here and there. Other than that fuck the tv, turn up the radio.
I didn't raise myself to sit on my ass and watch tv all day. I raised myself to sit on my ass all day and play some video games.

FUCKIN' CUNT ASS BITCH, STAY THE FUCK OUTTA MY LIFE..

Listen to the glass shatter on your cold wet body.

Need you, Dream you, Find you, Taste you
Fuck you, Use you, Scar you, Break you
Lose me, Hate me, Smash me, Erase me, Kill me

uhh where did my television go? FUCKIN' SHIT! I lost the Television again.. no now I remember hehe.. I pawned it off for this last bag..

Books:

Uhhh, my nerdy side comes out. I read a lot actually. I'll read anything once, if It don't interest me then I will burn it. When I need some papers to roll a smoke, books always come in handy.

Look deep in my eyes
NOW LETS FUCKIN PARTY

FUCK LOVE... It just ain't real.

sometimes i choke on all the false lies that infects me
sometimes everything is not enough to cure

I'm not wishing anymore
I sleep better in the dark
the sickness inside of me

The smack kills off my sickness, and I can live. I got the power going through my veins, what do you got?

Heroes:

Jasper Even Yoilioski [JEYJasp]
The truth behind the mask. RIP
He will always be my brother, my soulmate, my friend, and my life. He is what you call a true friend, a true love. I love Jey, and will always have him part of my life, no matter what his solution was to life.
Uhhh, Johnny The Homicidal Maniac...uhh, defintly
uhh also my imaginary friend Bob George JR III. He's the one who killed his cat and ate it. SO STOP LOOKIN AT ME!!
Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
Then bang your head
Gotta get your quick fix
Or then drown in sorrow
I am..
Alone in this bed, house, and head
And she can never fix this
But at least she...
(Makes me forget)
Why do you even pretend? I don't need you or your lies, I got my drugs and my knife. Why do I care for you?
Kurt Cobain, the king of GRUDGE! The drugs, sex, rock n' roll baby.
hEROS Can mean a lot of different things in someones eyes. Although I just don't give a fuck at this moment. I'm way to fucked up to give a fuck. Oh fuck, I have drug court today..
For those in the crew.. Damn you've always been there and always will be the closest people I have. I would die for you all, your all I have had my entire life. You helped me raise myself in a world were I wouldn't have made it without you. I am even talkin' about those who have been killed by their choices in the world, RIP your still my heros and always will be.
Chelsea.. "WILL YOU BE MY HERO"
uh.. ya.. FUCK

My Blog

Your the problem.. Not the drugs

I read your lies on the answer machine.. ..Leave me here to die in my drugs...
Posted by slip [this] in my drink on Wed, 03 Jan 2007 07:59:00 PST

Gone Forever

I feel so much betterNow that you're gone foreverI tell myself that I don't miss you at allI'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better nowThat you're gone foreverNow things are coming clearAnd I...
Posted by slip [this] in my drink on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 07:00:00 PST

Amy & Lizzy: Endless Cycle

We had fire in our eyesIn the beginning INever felt so aliveIn the beginning youYou blame me butIt's not fair when you say that I didn't tryI just don't want to hear it anymore I swear I never meant t...
Posted by slip [this] in my drink on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 06:47:00 PST

From my Infected Viens

... I always knew things would be like this, me writing this letter to you from my infected viens. The truthful pain that has grown through me since the days...
Posted by slip [this] in my drink on Sun, 24 Dec 2006 09:16:00 PST

Sick of you..

I'm sick of all this drama, stay the fuck away from me.. ..uhh, FUCK YEA. GIVE ME MY FUCKIN' PILLS BACK.....
Posted by slip [this] in my drink on Thu, 21 Dec 2006 06:19:00 PST

Remember the Truth

Do you even remember why we're like this? ...
Posted by slip [this] in my drink on Thu, 07 Dec 2006 10:10:00 PST

Nothing more then what I hated..

Life takes a huge turn since I've gotten out of jail this last time. I have sat and watched all these woman and my drugs be my life. This is all I ever wanted I once believed. All th...
Posted by slip [this] in my drink on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 10:53:00 PST

Let's play my game..

Watch me crawl across the kitchen floor begging for another chance.. I won't ever lie or cheat again, baby. Or at least not get caught. ...
Posted by slip [this] in my drink on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 11:29:00 PST

Unfinished symphony

I feel your thoughts Falling over me &nbs...
Posted by slip [this] in my drink on Sat, 02 Dec 2006 06:19:00 PST

August 25, 2004

I'm depressed enough to be a poet again, the grenade's to my head, but will I pull the pin?The person that I loved, is the enemy in the end. I won't sit around the second time, betrayed again by your ...
Posted by slip [this] in my drink on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 05:09:00 PST