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flowers layout powered by HOT FreeLayouts.com / MyHotComments Hello: It's Marilyn...The "Unofficial" Mrs. Smithers...Or just simply "Derek's Girl." May 19, 2006 was the day that all of my world changed. I never thought I would be here living without Derek. I guess the shock will never go away. I love you Derek...The one thing I have learned is "Death does not Destroy Love." I keep you still very alive in my heart. The heart does not know or accept death. This is what gets me through...Derek would not want us to dwell on his death. He would want us to focus & remember the good times we had with him. & there are many. He would want us to remember his contiagious distintive laugh. If you really listen...You can still hear it. As hard as it is to write he would want us to continue to live..As Derek use to tease around with me & say "Praise God, Live Right, & Be Good!" Seriously though this is what he would want.I'd like to thank all the heroe's in my life...My Sister Barbara, Corie & Jimmy...For being there through my darkest of days...My Girls Leah & Patty. Little Kaleb...Derek's family who took me underneath their wings through their time of grief..You are true angels...Dave Mustaine(I fear no evil for you are at my side.) The Overkill guys. ( My unexpected friends..Thanks for the laughs..) Most of all though, To My Derek... For allowing me to be part of your life. To been able to know you as the Big D or the Big Sexy! LOL! For Loving me just as I am...For simply just Loving Me...For Giving me the title of The "Unofficial" Mrs. Smithers...Rest in Peace my Sweet Derek...I'll meet you oneday in the Afterglow....Bring me Roses...wink....

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Dale Jr...& Shania Twain...D's favs....D'S GIRL!! The "Unofficial" Mrs. Smithers....

My Blog

Derek, I can't breathe without you, but I have too...

March 6, 2008...Dear Derek,Leah is home tonight.  She brought me this Taylor Swift cd and told me to listen to song #7.  Not really knowing what to expect I turned it on.  I guess this song was w...
Posted by on Fri, 06 Mar 2009 08:35:00 GMT

This page is for Derek...

This page is for Derek.  If I don't know you, or care to know you.  Please do not friend request this page.  If Derek didn't know you the same applies.  The people on this page are only ones I trust. ...
Posted by on Sat, 31 Jan 2009 00:57:00 GMT

Dear Derek...My New Years Resolution...No more Promises..

Jan. 5, 2009 Dear Derek, The New Year went by just as I expected it would.  I watched "Detroit Rock City" with Boogie and was in bed by 9:30.  I cried myself to sleep and was woke up&nb...
Posted by on Tue, 06 Jan 2009 05:38:00 GMT

Dear Derek...Another Year...Without You!!!

  Dec.29, 2008   Dear Derek, Can't believe another year is about to roll.   New Year's Eve is so sad.  I usually just sleep through it now.  If I'm awake all I think abo...
Posted by on Tue, 30 Dec 2008 02:49:00 GMT

If I don’t know you....

Please don't friend request me....There's alot of dogs out there & they have been invading my page.....  Yes I may be grieving but I am not stupid...Derek made me a wise lady...I have alot of...
Posted by on Tue, 29 Jul 2008 12:16:00 GMT

May 19, 2008....a letter to D....

Dear Derek,The month of May has fast came upon us.  I can't believe it has almost been 2 years since you have been gone.  I've been thinking about you alot this week.  This is the week ...
Posted by on Tue, 06 May 2008 10:24:00 GMT

Missing My D! Turning 38 without Derek...

I'm really missing Derek tonight.  I can hardly believe he's been gone for 21 months...I am so tired of hearing "Time Heals."  No it doesn't...It just makes you feel more lost & confused...
Posted by on Fri, 22 Feb 2008 22:29:00 GMT

9-9-69...My Derek’s Birthday

It's gonna be a hard day.  Derek would have been 38.  He was four months older than I & we always would tease each other before our dreaded day would come.  I never thought I wouldn...
Posted by on Sat, 08 Sep 2007 19:06:00 GMT

It's been over a year now~Let's try to smile for Derek...

Well it's been over a year now since my Derek left us.  It's been a hard year, & to be honest I still some days wake up thinking "Oh God, I can't do this without my Derek!"  I guess that...
Posted by on Tue, 12 Jun 2007 04:54:00 GMT

Words of Wisdon!!!

Derek's Brother Jon sent this to me in an email..This is so true..I needed to be reminded of this-just thought some of my friends could use it too! Sending Love~ Marilyn   As we grow up, we learn...
Posted by on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 19:49:00 GMT