Elliephant™

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Lay beside me, tell me what they've done,
speak the words i want to hear
to make my deamons run...
ABOUT ME:
It claims on my birth certificate that my name is Arielle, but everyone defieys that and calls me ellie instead. I'm tired of always being the nice person who will spare your feelings and leave hers exposed only to be crushed, spit on and thrown back in my face.It amazes me how cruel people really are, sad to see somthing with such opprotunity to bring happyness,completely destroy someone with their little silly words of jealousy. Life is just a big cycle of mistakes and mishaps that we are suppose to make the best of and learn from, so far i think im doing a pretty good job of holding my own.For the most part friends come and go for me, i try not to get to attached cause i know they wont be around for long, I always tend to place 2nd in everyones life. It would be nice to feel like i was someones #1 someday.Im oblivious to everything around me really, im clumsy and a complete mess. I dont talk to alot people at school, ive been there and done that and its only brought problems. Its not that im mean or cynicle its that ive always been the one to put more into a friendship or relationship than the other people so this is me giving up. If you want to be apart of my life you can approach me and i'll meet you half way there.You will always see a smile on my face, and its not in anyway fake. Every smile is beacuse i was happy at that very moment in time. I dont regret anything, everything has reasoning behind it.Im still a child at heart, with a mature mentality. Life is exactly like a rollercoaster it has its high points,low points,twist,turns,loops and most the time only somthing little is holding you back from falling out and many people enjoy it for the rush.Music isnt life but it deffinately gets me through some rough times.Photography is just a hobby for me, cosmetology and singing is my passion.I've been writing more songs lately,the person i was going to record with didnt work out and im okay with it cause im not in a big hurry to grow up. Im a gamer, and its not just a attempt to look cute. I absolutely love video games and could sit and play them with you 24/7. Im a fun,outgoing and accepting person, just dont take advantage of it. I cant make you like me, nor will i ever try and fool you into liking me by telling you all the things you want to hear.
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"I've learned that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." - Marilyn Monroe