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Ayuru

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About Me

take a chance...because you never know when something could end up absolutely perfect"I found every single successful person I've ever spoken to had a turning point. The turning point was when they made a clear,specific unequivocal decision that they were not going to live like this anymore;they were going to achieve success.Some people make that decision at 15 and some people make it at 50,and most people never make it all. " -Brian Tracy

My Interests

Anime, Manga, Japanese, Metaphysics, alchemy preserving human rights for GLBTQ.

I'd like to meet:

A piece of my heart will always belong to you. "I tend to ruin everything somehow... But then I met this special girl you see.. she quite amazing on all levels. she had me at hello. And she can have me forever if she pleases. God I miss her greatly even typing this... "- my wonderful girlfriend%D%A%9 What is Your Phrase? [for darker people]
"Happiness can subside, but frustration never lets go"
You have been awfully mistreated in your life by your fellow peers and/or family, and feel a growing frustration towards your life and your inability to do anything about it. Since no one has ever really been there for you, you bottle most things inside. And that is quite a lot of pain bottled up too. Deep inside you yearn for many things; feelings for affinity, for the world to improve, for people to stop being judgemental amongst other things. Yet your hope in improvement is very low, and believe you only have the power over yourself. When you are in larger crowds you tend to get irritated by the prescence of others, so you keep to yourself. Those who know you are probably aware of the hate you carry, but you rarely do anything about it.
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Music:

Glay, Malice Mizer, XJapan, Gackt, Janne de arc, Moi dis moi, Rentre en soi, L arc en ceil, Despairs ray, MUCC, Silver ash, The Pillows. T m Revolution, Dir En grey, SMAP, Peirott, Zero, Cains feel, New Sodmy, Rice, Rapheal, and 12012. Also other Japanese rock and pop. Jays of clay, Toby mac, kj52, Tait, Third day, and other Christian rock bands

Television:

I mostly watch anything i find interesting on the History channel, TLC, or the discovery channel but you will catch me watching cartoon network and Nick some times.

Books:

Chicken soup for the teen soul, Chicken soup for the Christian teen soul, Chicken soup for the college soul, The way of the peaceful warrior, Clays way, Battle royal, Keeping you a secret, a separate piece, And other that skip my mind.

Heroes:

Every single one of my friends for i truly don't think i would be here if they weren't there through the bad in my life. And all my church buddies because they are always there when i need them...

My Blog

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I wish you could know what it is like to search a burning bedroom for trapped children at 3 AM, flames rolling above your head, your palms and knees burning as you crawl, the floor sagging under your ...
Posted by Ayuru on Wed, 21 Feb 2007 08:41:00 PST

When things happen

When i have a good night and i come home happy and relaxed i some how do something wrong then hear it from my father. Dont ask me how it always fucking happens. When i;m happy and truely content for o...
Posted by Ayuru on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 09:05:00 PST

Some write to remember, Others write to forget.

Life has been rough for me. Ive been up and then down. Life is having fun wiht me right now. There is no way to explain how i am except that i am alive. No way at all. I saw my ex sarah. I have nothin...
Posted by Ayuru on Mon, 02 Oct 2006 01:43:00 PST

The almost ticket

I almost got a ticket tonight. i was at GSP. We walked around the mall and then we went to my friends sister;s car. Ok time passed she threw me the keys and then i got in. Started the car and drove it...
Posted by Ayuru on Fri, 18 Aug 2006 07:51:00 PST

For the "one"

I know all who read this will know exactly who i am talking about. And i want this person to know. I never intent to talk to sarah again. If she wants to talk she will have to contact me. I've had eno...
Posted by Ayuru on Thu, 29 Jun 2006 07:12:00 PST

Fondest memory

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want- good or bad. When you're f...
Posted by Ayuru on Wed, 31 May 2006 04:14:00 PST

new song and new thoughs

i think its time to change my song. So i shall. the new one is x amount of words. i dont know why its this song i just like this song. its really cool maybe you should listen to it. Anyway back to eve...
Posted by Ayuru on Tue, 23 May 2006 04:30:00 PST

knew it.

i know you will read this. Thanks for calling me back like you said you would.... i know the things i;m gonna be told so dont even telll me. i didnt even exspect you to call back because i knew you wo...
Posted by Ayuru on Sun, 14 May 2006 02:53:00 PST

new day?

Today is soposed to be a day with new exzperiances and new good things happening. It turns out that today is the same old shit happening when i always am home. The same shit that happens every week. y...
Posted by Ayuru on Sun, 07 May 2006 10:44:00 PST

better

Well i just wanted to leave this blog to tell any one who shall see it that i;m doing better. its taking some time as it should and was exspected but things are slowly feeling better. After all every ...
Posted by Ayuru on Thu, 04 May 2006 07:26:00 PST