I'm here but I'm not.
I'm alive but not breathing.
I'm watching you when you don't know.
I'm sad but you can't see.
I'm blank but full of emotion.
I'm unkowing though I'm so smart.
I'm waiting when I should be acting.
I'm giving up slowly.
I'm fighting but losing.
I'm missing you all the time.
I'm falling and not being caught.
I'm alone but surrounded.
I'm befriended but his killer.
I'm toturing him all the time.
I'm harmful to this boy like you were to me.
I'm hating myself but loving it.
I'm seeing but not believing.
I'm jealous but not showing it.
I'm secretly wishing that were me instead.
I'm lonely when I'm not your friend.
I'm stumbling but not falling.
I'm speaking but not making sense.
I'm smarter than most but you knew more.
I'm Bethany.