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Not amazing. Just brutally honest...

This time I want to find a hope for me as big as the stars in my eyes...

About Me

I'm Ellen. Call me Elle. Or Neon or Yoli or Bean or whatever. I answer to quite a few things. Pleasure to make your aquaintence. I'm eighteen and am now a senior at HHS. I will be attending Tompkins-Cortland Community College in the fall, majoring in Childhood Education. I live with my mommy, daddy, and two younger brothers. They're rad. So are my friends. I don't drink. I don't smoke. I think drugs are really stupid. It's cool if you do it, just don't bring me into that. I love my kitties. I miss my puppy. I'm single. Not sure how I feel about it. I write, draw, sing, dance, paint, play guitar, and just goof the hell off. I'm a sweetheart. I'm friendly. I'm a bit shy, though. Go ahead and talk to me. I don't bite. Okay, well, I don't bite hard. Have a nice day.

My Interests

movies, rock music, boys in eyeliner, alan rickman, manga, anime, nightcrawler, professor snape, harry potter, writing, boys in bell bottoms, drag queens, paranormal, plastic surgery, cartoons, tattoos, fashion design, paintings, gods girls, piano, team rocket, guitar, creative writing, slash, jewelry, becoming a pokemon master

I'd like to meet:

Someone to keep my head above the water and out of bed. The one who will keep my feet on the ground and walking under me. The one who's heart, when combined with mine, read like dirty fiction...

Music:

the distillers, no doubt, linkin park, the cure, the ataris, placebo, rancid, gorillaz, mest, nine inch nails, coheed and cambria, h.i.m., silverchair, the darkness, the dresden dolls, barenaked ladies, cky, queen, chris rice, bright eyes, hollywood undead, incubus, something corporate, new found glory, michael jackson, spice girls, the who, billy joel, gogol bordello, flogging molly, gym class heroes, the academy is..., esker*, motion city soundtrack, marilyn manson

Movies:

junior, powder, donnie darko, the grudge, nightmare before christmas, rocky horror picture show, galaxy quest, muppet movie, muppet treasure island, the muppet christmas carol, the boondock saints, dogma, pokemon the 1st movie, pokemon 2000, cruel intentions, ghostbusters, ghostbusters II, willy wonka and the chocolate factory, teenage mutant ninja turles II: the secret of the ooze, mrs. doubtfire, everything is illuminated, se7en, bend it like beckham, over the hedge, accepted, the big lebowski, resevoir dogs, o brother where art thou?, garden state, shuan of the dead

Television:

rocko's modern life, south park, simpsons, family guy, hey arnold, sunday night sex show, miami ink, american dad, drake and josh, whose line is it anyway, csi, the war at home, fairly odd parents, as told by ginger, america's funniest home videos, parental control, celebrity fit club, surreal life, ghost hunters, america's next top model, flavor of love 2, will & grace, the riches, charm school

Books:

lamb, the harry potter series, cut, define normal, the rainbow boys series, the gospel according to larry, baby name books, paranormal books, CSI novels, the truth about diamonds, the crucible, weird u.s., the davinci code, the house on mango street, midwives, i know this much is true, odd thomas, forever odd, brother odd, the long hard road from hell, the zombie survival guide

Heroes:

Everybody is dying for the chance to be heard, not ignored...

My Blog

Disney Dreams

OMG.   DISNEY WAS AMAZING! I don't even know where to begin. Oh jeez...   MGM: Owns my ass. Amazing. The very first ride we went on was the Tower or Terror. I thought it was going to lift us...
Posted by Not amazing. Just brutally honest... on Fri, 29 Dec 2006 04:07:00 PST

Changes

     Today has got to be the most stressful day of my life. Parents were fighting, I don't feel good, and I had my senior pictures taken today. And while I had a blast getting them...
Posted by Not amazing. Just brutally honest... on Fri, 14 Jul 2006 09:22:00 PST

I Solemly Swear

I solemnly swear to be a better friend. To say as I feel out front. And never behind one's back. To treat each one with the same respect I wish to recieve myself. I swear to be honest in everythi...
Posted by Not amazing. Just brutally honest... on Sun, 18 Jun 2006 08:45:00 PST

: )

all betterrrrrrr   ♥
Posted by Not amazing. Just brutally honest... on Sun, 28 May 2006 09:25:00 PST

why

So. I knew this day would come. I've been anticipating it. Waiting for the timebomb to explode.                 Then why does it hurt so much?...
Posted by Not amazing. Just brutally honest... on Sat, 27 May 2006 08:57:00 PST

a healthy little addiction

You scored as Emo Kid. You listen to emo. 'Nuff said. You know how to dress. You usually feel as if nobody understands you. Emo Kid67%Punk53%Goth40%Hot33%"Ghetto"27%Jock2 7%Loner27%...
Posted by Not amazing. Just brutally honest... on Sat, 06 May 2006 09:41:00 PST

BOSTON!!!!!

Boston in like...... I dunno. A few hours. I wanna pee myself from the excitement. GAH!
Posted by Not amazing. Just brutally honest... on Tue, 18 Apr 2006 12:21:00 PST

Shit, son, it's a girl!

feeling girly, anyone?   You Are Funky Panties You're stylish, trendy, but not over the top. You know how to look good - without looking like you're trying too hard. Men think that you're cute, f...
Posted by Not amazing. Just brutally honest... on Mon, 27 Mar 2006 04:10:00 PST

Maybe I'm just paranoid...

Okay, so I've always believed in ghosts. Always. Nevere seen one or had any real contact, but I've always believed. But, I think I heard one yesterday. I've been taking care of the boyfriend's pets wh...
Posted by Not amazing. Just brutally honest... on Wed, 28 Dec 2005 02:28:00 PST

fuck them

I'm not an athlete and money doesn't phase me. All I've got is writing and singing and I've learned to accept that nothing I could do in any of those fields will ever be good enough for my grandparent...
Posted by Not amazing. Just brutally honest... on Sat, 12 Nov 2005 07:47:00 PST