*I'm a humanitarian..which means I care too damn much.
*Music is the closest I've come to God.
*I adore my madness, even when it's too much for me.
*I'm a military fiend.
*I will create a real estate and entertainment empire.
*I'm a writer and I feel words are the ultimate definition of beauty.
*I have EDs. They can easily consume me as they have in the past. No, I won't tell you what they are if you don't already know.
*I plan too much.
*I mentally cripple myself constantly.
*I can be dead and alive simultaneously.
*The well being of my family and loved ones is my security.
*I don't care to give a stranger too much of me via an 'About Me' section on my Myspace page.
*I'm starting over...
*I'm complicated.
An Ocean Between Amends
Another piece of hope passed through screens Begging me to wait with quiet compliance Through the bitter years of blinding reality Where only a structured way of life is accepted A contract signed by your hand, but with my sacrificial blood.
When I left, it was for you So when you returned, I prayed it was for me Only to fall into that void where everything stays dark And the light is artificial, emanating from our computer screens
So I waited with the wounds Still fresh in my memory Sucking this poison from the blood To keep my soul from dying Every time you said hello without welcome Or goodbye with wavering hope I buried another piece of who I was Waiting for you to resurrect the dead and replenish the life that was left.
I see the moments dwindle As you float slowly toward me But all the rays of hope Cannot melt the fear that holds me tightly
Your touch will embolden the desire As senses run amuck And the validation I desperately seek Can only come from your lips as they suffer me softly
Again, I’ll be left with that doubt and fear As wave upon wave takes you further from me Reminiscent feelings of your essence wrapped around me Touching the core of who I was, who I am, and everything I will ever be
So I’ll wait with the pain, endlessly Still severe from new wounds Covering the old that itch from healing Looking to you to hold me steady Every time you say hello without love Or goodbye without promise I will die inside all over again, burying those pieces unmarked Waiting for you to complete me…
Myspace Contact Tables - Get this Contact Table
