gabe

i dont know anyone like me. i have wierd viewpoints. i test people around me. i dont like drama. girls dont take me very seriously, but they think im funny sometimes i want to kill myself. then i just get hella fucked up because i know im gunna die someday.. i have no job im half black, might as well be full. i hesitate to call some of my friends friends sometimes. i get depressed and then i realize that the world sucks and im supposed to feel this way and i listen to punk rock and ska then. i love peace, but because its literally non-existent outside of stoner-hippie groups in mays pond, ive learned to deal with the shit life throws at me. i get a lot of good stuff, but a lot of shit. sometimes im a very pissed off depressed person on the inside, and a very mellow happy person on the outside. i don't get jealous, but it pisses me off when people like stupid ass girls try to make me jealous. i kind of hate girls.but i love them. but i definitely hate them..i can handle their constant bullshit but sometimes it makes me have suicidal thoughts. i cant talk about my life without feeling stressed out. anyways..thats why i smoke chronic and drink whenever possible. but i like to drink at night..on a night i didnt take my adder all, or Prozac. i like to skateboard when im in my punk mode and play guitar when im in my chilling mode. if im in my black mode i bump tunes, sip glasses of wine, look at girls and fantasize till their asses is mine. yes.. im black too. from the belly button down..