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niki is chasing a dream.

I'm tired of being bored... I'm through with the headaches... And hiding my hands that tremble like

About Me


*Juste une fille. (just a girl; french)
*Lived my whole life in the San Francisco Bay Area.
*I have naturally red hair, but I have been bleaching it for years.
*Ambition to be a nurse, would you trust your life in my hands?
*I think I only want what I know I will never be able to have.
*Dreaming of being back under the California Sun.
*Loretta is my soul mate.
soul mate: One of two persons compatible with each other in disposition.
*Tired of dating assholes, tired of wanting the ones I can't have, tired of the ones I don't want... wanting me.
*I love being kissed on my forehead.
*I have a hard time sleeping if I have no one to sleep next to, the kitten helps out from time to time.
*I tend to lead guys on, not meaning to.
*If I don't get enough attention I lose interest.
*I learned it isn't smart to wear high heels in snow.
*I eat peanut butter with a spoon.
*I like to be different.
*I love my bestest friends: Loretta, my only one. Francois, my only two. Kris, the best. ;)
*I love spending hours looking at the stars.
*I loathe mayonaise with a passion.
*I am an undercover gamer (lineage 2 was choice.), was pretty fucking addicted, not so much lately.
*I don't believe in religion. Believe what you want, just don't tell me about it.
*"Keep your laws off my body." Something I believe in strongly.
*I love the water, oceans, waves, beaches, lakes, boats, etc.
*I was born addicted to Mountain Dew... I just can't stop using. Thanks Mom.
*I have 3 tattoos... 5 big stars, 4 little stars across my lower back, alkaline trio branded on my arm, a flower represtenting growth on my ankle.
*I put salt on almost everything, even ice cream. Mmmm.
*I am attracted to guys with ink and piercings... but I tend to end up dating guys without... kinda funny.
*For a short time I lived in Austin, Texas. (Liked) Orlando, Florida (Hated). Muskegon, Michigan. (Dealing)
*And... I am extremely spoiled.
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In General, my loves are...
* Chanel * Character Cliche * Christian Dior * Classic Cars * Coach * Dancing * Four leaf clovers * Girls * Jenna Jameson * Juicy Couture * Lightning * MAC Cosmetics * Mary Jane * Mountain Dew * Music * Pacific Ocean * Peanut Butter * Piercings * Playing Doctor * Punk Rock * Rise Against * Salt * Snow Globes * Sour Patch Kids * Stars * Stealing Hats * Stormy * Tattoos * Tigers * West Coast * Vincent Van Gogh * Volcom *
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Can you hear the desperate cries that are calling out your name?
Twisting your arms, holding out their hands and tugging at your sleeve
Do you feel this underlying sense of urgency or are you as blind as me?
I can't bear the thought of losing,
I dread the attention winning brings
and ever since the day I came here
I can stand without your strings
I'm so sick of all these people
but I'm scared to be alone
and if this life has taught me anything
I forgot it long ago
The heart is something you can't control
We either choose to follow or be left on our own
So we're leaving here on a less-travelled road
As desperate cries grow louder, I know we're getting close, getting close
I hit the ground and I'm still running
but I need a place to stay tonight,
I swear I'll be gone in the morning
I just need somewhere now
Voices Off Camera -Rise Against

My Interests

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-AOL Messenger:
niki is insane.

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Drunken Words...
are Sober Thoughts...

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My kitten, Havok.

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My Song

in the face of change is when she turned to me and said, "i'm not sure anymore..." and there amidst the waves and the cloudless skies that blanket the year before i watch my life wash ashore have you ever been a part of something that you thought would never end? and then of course it did have you ever felt the weight inside you pulling away inside your skin? and then something had to give now the lines are drawn is this feeling gone? the best parts of this have come and gone and now that is all this is with the reasons clear we'll spend another year without direction, full of fear but now things will be different there's nothing simple when it comes to you and i always something in this everchanging life and it probably always will now that time is getting harder to come by the same arguments are always on our mind we've killed this slowly fading light now something has kept me here too long and you can't leave me if i'm already gone make the same mistakes we're always hanging on break the promises we're always leaning on all this time spent waking up (now i) keep this line open to get this call from you (as you) speak the words that keep me coming back to you now this time it's all different now something has kept me here too long and now i'm gone...

EverChanging -Rise Against

I'd like to meet:


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FUCKIN' A... HER NAME IS STORMY, The Love of My Life... with Chloe St. Reagan.

Ajeira...

My cousin is the drummer in this band... They're fucking awesome...

Music:

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* ac/dc * adolecents * afi * ajeira * alice cooper * all-american rejects * alkaline trio * andrew wk *
* ANTHONY EMIN *
* anti-flag * as i lay dying * the atari's * atreyu * at the drive in * bad religion * better than ezra * billy idol * billy talent * black flag * bloodhound gang * bon jovi * boston * bouncing souls * boy kicks girl * breaking benjamin * bullet for my valentine * bush * cauterize * the clash * cky * coldplay * credence clearwater revival * the cure * damone * dark siren * death by stereo * death on wednesday * def lepard * depeche mode *
* DIAMOND LANE *
* diffuser * distillers * early november *
* ELEVENTEEN *
* face to face * the faint * fenix tx * finch * fiona apple * the fray * goo goo dolls * guns and roses * green day * gwar * halifax * hellogoodbye * him * the hippos * hoobastank * it dies today * jack off jill * jackson * jarris * jawbreaker * jimmy eat world * johnny cash *
* JOURNEY *
* JOSHUA COLBURN *
* the killers * kill hannah * kill your idols * kittie * led zeplin * lefty * le tigre * lifehouse * live * the living end * lost prophets * lynard skynard * madcap * matchbook romance * mariyln manson * mest * midtown * millencolin * misfits * motley crue * motion city soundtrack * modern english * mxpx * new found glory * new radicals * no doubt * nofx * no motiv * norma jean * no use for a name * one man army * orgy * ozzy * pantera * paramore * the pattern * pearl jam * pennywise * pink floyd * pink spiders * plain white t's * pocket fox * poison the well * queen * the queers * ramones * rancid * red jumpsuit apparatus *
* RISE AGAINST *
* rival schools * saves the day * screeching weasel * sences fail * sex pistols * silverchair * slunt * smashing pumpkins * sick of t all * simple plan * slick shoes * the smiths * social destortion * sp chase * sublime * sugarcult * starting line * stone temple pilots * story of the year * the strokes * stroke 9 * taking back sunday * third eye blind * tigerarmy * thursday * tom petty * tsunami bomb *
* UNWRITTEN LAW *
* the used * useless i.d. * u2 * vandals *
* VAN HALEN *
* velvet revolver * velvet teen * weezer * white stripes * the who * yellowcard *

Movies:

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* ALMOST FAMOUS * amelie * american psycho * boondock saints * chasing amy * clerks * the crow * cruel intentions * dazed and confused * donnie darko * elizabeth * empire records * eternal sunshine of the spotless mind * equilibrium * face off * feeling minesota * 54 * fight club * finding neverland * from dusk till dawn * from hell * ghost world * girl, interupted * girl with a pearl earring * go * the good girl * good will hunting * the goonies * gossip * grosse point blank * hackers * happy campers * heartbreakers * home alone (yeah, that's right) * igby goes down * kalifornia * a life less ordinary * lost boys * lost in translation * mean girls * mulholand drive * my best friend is a vampire * my girl * my life without me * the notebook * object of my affection * playing god * punch drunk love * quills * royal tenembaums * run lola run * saved * saw * the secretary * serendipity * seven * sixteen candles * sleepless in seattle * spy game * sweetest thing * thirteen * trainspotting * true romance * 21 grams * underworld * the virgin suicides * white oleander * winter passing *

Television:

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Six Feet Under... Dead like me... Beverly Hills,90210... Lost... 4400... ER...
well when i at least remember they are on, which is about once every couple of months :/

Heroes:

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There is something about this fake blonde beauty who's mistery and confidence can stand against a wild cats A union of pale skin and black eye liner A intrigue only taken in pieces to keep from drowning of secret smiles and hidden agendas so obvious it's scary You are my goddess ruling over my world by spining it counterclock wise while laughing in quiet pleasure And I love the ride Find me smelling your hair and living in the blanket of your sympathy I sentence you to a life time of my attention and desire but I am not greedy I take from you, so now take from me...
Written By: Loretta.
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do i miss you, i miss a little bit of everything of you i'm awake and feel the ache. we have the bond with bounderies... but i'll always be there.just for you, you are unique this is the way i love you all.niki. you just great. great and gorgeous.
written by: -F-
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no matter where we go in life, you'll be part of my tree in some way.
-Jordan
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I have had a lot of time to observe you in a different light from a different perspective, and I have learned that there is a lot more to you than meets the eye. I see now how genuinely caring of a person you are. I see now that you aren't as strong a person as you portray yourself to be.
Said by Dusty.
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My Blog

Re-Evaluate Your Life.

I don't know how to express myself. Well, I spent a full weekend in Muskegon, and suprise, nothing has changed. Same people, same bar, different band, different day. I see kids who are 18... I see kid...
Posted by niki is chasing a dream. on Mon, 28 May 2007 05:20:00 PST

Ready to Fall.

I met a boy.He makes me smile. He puts up a fight.He lets me talk shit to him.He does it right back to me.I kind of have a crush.Yeah, it's just the begining. Maybe it wont even turn into anything. I ...
Posted by niki is chasing a dream. on Sat, 12 May 2007 03:35:00 PST