About Me
----------Different eyes----------05aug09
I see you in a new light, no matter how much i try to change my view, I still see u, through dark colors when there's troubles or light bright first star I see tonight hues and blues, ranging from the deepest red bled, to holy god white, my eyes have the sight, seen not on video screens, but in malls and clubs and around every corner, up every block that i watch, I see you,
----------Not me----------05aug09
This can't be me, that can't be mine, those blocks of emotions can't be what I was destined to find, my thoughts would rewind back in time, to where nothing has changed but the feelings have grown worse, unrealistic at first, but the more I remember and re-live, the more I start to give, can't hold much more weight, right now it's becoming far to great, i should know because I'm drawing closer to hate, when once there was love, peace, honesty, trust, respect, all it took was a simple touch on the neck and wow, the lights would go out, the world would disappear, problems would parish, fears would fade, disappointment replaced with anointment, this by gods hand happened, high on life, and when the lights came back on, there stood my wife, I've remembered this memory to many times to know, how this story will go, cause it's already gone, I just haven't moved on, But this is not me, that is not mine, those blocks of emotion are all that left behind to find, at one time there use to be love, peace, honesty, trust, respect, oh and how could I forget joy, how could I forget joy.
----------My Vision----------18may09
My vision has become clearer, My stance has become stronger,
I am now noticing my goal, I am now acknowledging my role,
If you could look into my sole, you will see a glow, Just beyond the
frost bitten feeling, I've indured the blistering cold, It took me too long to know what warm feels like, but in saying that don't think for a second I'm going to just give away what love feels like, master of my universe, I should have got to it first, then maybe just maybe I never would have gone thru the hurt, I just stood up like go ahead and do this work, and maybe just maybe if I had you then I'd lose this hurt, well maybees became fantasys, and fantasys become a dreams, and you know what happens to dreams after you have enough of them, you figure out the details to make it become so real, and maybe just maybe my vision will become clearer, my stance will become stronger, I will began to see my goal, I will began to acknowledge my role, If you look into my sole, you will notice a glow, just beyond those feelings that have not yet frooze, am I working backwards or have I already been exposed, you know what happens when limbs freeze, first the pain then the feelings leave, and your left with death, that wish for the opposite twice, that maybe just maybe I held on to what love felts like.
----------Grass -----------01may09
I was under the impression, that the grass seen off in the
distance was soft, green, and full of life, Some may think I'm speaking about leaving an ex-wife or lost lover or maybe I could simply be talking about the lush, layers of green grains, that pack plains, and from planes, send invites for jumpers to leap into the vapors, of cloudless days and star filled nights, but sometimes that grass just looks so right. You can almost feel the blades brush against the bottom of your feet, breeze moving the carpet of green in waves and waves and waves, I've watch that same grass for days, and days, and days, my heartbeat has increased, but the fear in me has ceased, I am nervous as god is good, and all i can think about, is how I would feel if I could, move bare foot about those green pastures, and think about the moments after, green is green from one side of the fench to the next, I think it's a matter of what one feels is best, ya know that personnal p-r-e-f, so what do we have left if nothing else, does it really matter.
---------Clouds race by------12apr09
Sitting on hill tops made of lush green grass,
i watch as the clouds pass, and as they blow by,
i try, with all my might i try, to look for the signs,
the signs that i am not alone, i mean in this world i know i ain't alone,
I got people everywhere, but nowhere do i see the signs,
that i'm not alone, guess faith is all i have to rely on,
plenty of shoulders to cry on,
cause to not know and still believe,
takes the mind to places unconceived,
produce thoughts on something you need,
need to know that is,
Us as humans have the need to know complex,
like we need to know what's next,
or we need to know who's the best,
instead of just,
letting our curiousities rest,
we need to know,
or should it be said I need to know,
My complex has been moving as fast as those clouds,
but my curiousity has been torn to shrouds,
and has been replaced with nothing but doubt
I know that I'm not alone,
I rise every morning lungs full of air,
work in a world of hate and evil and yet i am still here,
happy, humm, happy.
I heard a wise man once say,
that happiness comes and goes away,
you need to find joy,
cause once you find it, it's with you forever,
you know those signs come from where ever,
I know i'm ain't alone,
not cause I got people everywhere,
but because i'm sitting on hill tops made of lush green grass,
just watching the clouds pass.
---------I want-----10apr09------
I want you to live,
no I want you to really live,
my job is to give, yours is to receive,
I want you to believe, in times of trouble look to me,
and we can pray together, look to the lord forever,
the answers are there, but you have to be willing to hear,
acually, listen would be more appropriate,
live life like your high off opiates,
my hope is, closest to the drug, my heart is,
closest to your love, but close is not enough,
simply getting through is not enough,
simply being with you is not enough,
I want you to want me,
to not be afraid to be,
I want you to increase, not to cease,
I want you to see,
fearlessly forcing me,
to improve my game,
sharpen my aim,
if things ever change,
I would probably die,
I want you to fly, on wings of gold
feathers and fabrics not of this earth,
unable to capture a worth,
in the eyes of men, or man,
I want you to stand, just out of reach,
I want us to be beyond speach,
looks and gestures are all we need,
I just want us to be.
----------Sounds like rain---------
09apr09---------
It sounds like rain today,
the sun is shining, I can feel the breeze,
even as I speak on the days, quiet on nights eve,
It sounds like rain today,
I listen as the drops fall soft and eventually quicken,
feel a sharp pain center to my soul,
feel the rain drops intensify,
funny, but why do I wanna cry,
why do I wanna cry, when so much of gods creation
is on display, right in front of my face,
It sounds like rain today,
I can't tell why, but there are no clouds in the sky,
no visible precipitation, no visual descention of heavens tears,
so how do I explain what it is I hear,
more pain, this time shooting, not just light taps of sudden discomfort,
but more along the lines of lightning,
somewhat frightning,
because if my ears don't deceive, I could have swore i heard thunder,
but how can that be, like I said, the sun is shining, I can feel the breeze, even as I speak on days, quiet on nights eve,
I sounds like rain today.
-----Like this before
07apr09--------
I've never known a feeling like this before,
never in a million years would i have seen this clear,
you know, that from right heere, nigga,
i can see, past those trees,
past those leaves,
past the birds, branches, and bee's,
Clear across the ocean and seas,
While you was thinking stateside,
my sight just went double wide, international baby,
the knots in my stomach just got double tied,
Just so you know, I've never known a feeling like this before,
Check my resume,
If you look close enough, the fine print would say,
This nigga is not known for trippin',
the sky has always been the limit,
but i'm up there with the qwasartz,
forgive my misspellin',
but it sounds so much better in person,
let the liquour tell em,
don't mind me, i'm on that old outkast shit,
can i get my 3000 on,
it don't matter, cause in a few more seconds, i'll be gone,
not cause i can see more clearly,
or if you read this a few more times you just might hear me,
it's simple because the feelin' I've never known is almost gone,
----Think
06apr09---
The thought process of a thinker is weird,
u never really know what's going on behind his eyes,
the thinker has seen truth so it should be easy to spot those lies,
and those that tell them can't hide,
well maybe for awhile
and maybe for a few minutes the thinker
thinks it's all smiles,
well if that's what it use to be,
and that's what he was being lead to believe,
then those that lie are only there to deceive,
get as much as they can receive,
and at first light just get up and leave,
thinking how much more can they get if they stay,
or how much can they take when he looks away,
then the thought process of the lier is grey,
they can't quite make out those colors clearly,
can't quite see the rainbows, past the tips of there on nose,
i think the lier only sees stripes of grey in small little rows,
tell me then what happens when the lier is exposed,
i don't really know,
now that i think on it i don't really care,
well i care enough to know,
that if enough of the rainbow is shown,
the eyes of those that lie,
will leak as they lay,
in the bed that was made of nothing but grey,
the thought process of the thinker. weird right
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