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My Life for Yours.

Cold silence has a tendency to atrophy any sense of compassion.

About Me


"The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, but wiser people so full of doubts." -Bertrand Russel
DON'T HOLD ME UP NOW, I CAN STAND MY OWN GROUND. I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP NOW. YOU WON'T LET ME DOWN, DOWN, DOWN. We are the angry and the desperate, the hungry and the cold. We are the ones who kept quiet and always did what we were told.
I'm the typical Leo: generous, warmhearted, creative, enthusiastic, broad-minded, expansive, faithful, and loving. I also have my dark side, too, where I'm pompous, patronizing, bossy, interfering, stubborn, dogmatic, and intolerant.
What can I say? I have a penchant for screwing things up, but I like it that way. My life is hectic, but it's worth the struggle until I get to where I want to be. I don't want revenge, I just want peace and love for my daughter. I'm not looking for a replacement father for her, she has one already.
I'm pretty heart-broken right now. If you can make me laugh, you have my love for forever.
I'm always changing, and I recently started a campaign to better myself mentally and physically, so we'll see how that pans out. Words never spoken so true by such a great friend, Ray once said "Let's get Amanda's sexy back."
The people I care about the most in life are on that list down there, and a good majority of my family.
"You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star" - Friedrich Nietzsche

My Interests

Music, drawing, cooking, FRIENDS (my bitchez), photography, boys, girls, funneh people, concerts, lactaid, Lewis Black, Dane Cook, football, TNA, Colts, Cowboys, Cubbies (Three C's of Succcess! unusual accessories, piercings, tattoos, archery, biological mechanisms, neanderthralism

Hidden Talents
[It's a smiley face, ass]

I'd like to meet:



Voil! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished, as the once vital voice of the verisimilitude now venerates what they once vilified. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-a-vis an introduction, and so it is my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V.

I love my Sam-Sam

I already met my amazing, amorous, pious, and perfect daughter. I thank the Lord every day for bringing me such a perfect gift and for bestowing her beauty onto the world. I am lucky and truly blessed to have such a miracle in my life, and no one will ever understand this feeling. My beautiful Jaedin Alexandria, you are the reason I breathe, the reason I walk through every day, the way, the light, and my savior in child's dress. I love you.

Underneath her skin and jewelry-
Hidden in her words and eyes-
Is a wall that's cold and ugly
And she's scared as hell.
Trembling at the thought of feeling,
Wide awake and keeping distance.
Nothing seems to penetrate her.
She's scared as hell.

I am frightened, too.

Wide awake
and keeping distance from my soul.
I am scared like you.

Music:

atreyu
it dies today
motograter
a perfect circle
TOOL
calle 13
a love ends suicide

the offspring
trik turner
Hollywood Undead
hellogoodbye
the crystal method
32 leaves
bullet for my valentine
shareefa
all that remains
The Human Abstract
NODES OF RANVIER
THROWDOWN

the locust (mlah blah mlah!)
missy elliot
Faith Hill
Techno
opeth
Electronica
NOFX
Nine inch nails
flaw
Rascal Flatts
lo-pro

cold
thornley
the receiving end of sirens
Blue October
chokt
Utada Hikaru
mudvayne
aphex twin
mindless self indulgence
absolution project
BT

takota
anuna
endo
killswitch engage
bleeding through
mortuus
setiva
chiodos
as i lay dying
mastodon

murder dolls
A7X
sevendust
kill hannah
Evans Blue
silverstein
chronicle
otep
sworn enemy
trivium
NOTHINGFACE
40 below summer
dope

ben kweller
the bens
element eighty
billy idol
pigface
li'l kim
primus
sublime
Porcelain and the Tramps

papa roach
lamb of god
glassjaw
trent reznor
DJ carl cox
DJ caffeine
death cab for cutie
fear factory
apocalyptica
anything remotely resembling celtic music
three 6 mafia

chevelle
glass casket
twisted method
10 Years
Kenny Chesney
nightwish
spineshank

PM5K
thursday
dredg
the dillinger escape plan
brand new
breaking benjamin
DMX

dimmu borgir
a little bit of manson
shawnna
deftones
static-X
orgy
BASIC NOISE POLLUTION
HEAVY FUCKIN' METAL
(when I'm in the mood)

Movies:

Igby goes down
28 days later
Amelie
Habla Con Ella
American History: X
Saw I and II
Mafia!
Sin City
Boondock Saints
Kung Fu Hustle
Silent Hill
V for Vendetta
Mirrormask:

B movies
any horror, especially asian
Evil Dead (Thanks, Matt!)
All the Evil Deads
OLD BOY!

Television:

Family guy
South Park
The Simpsons
NIP/Tuck
Sadly, Wife Swap (Crazy bitches!)
Orange County Choppers (I love Pauly!)
Dr. Phizzil
Prison Break
House
not much TV

Books:

Sabriel and the trilogy, by Garth Nix
The Golden Compass and series, by Phillip Pullman
The Confetti Man, by Bonnie Jones Reynolds
Winter's Bone, by Daniel Woodrell
The Night Gardener, by George Pelicanos
Special Topics in Calamity Physics, by Marisha Pessl

Those are automatic recommendations.

Heroes:

"To feel remorse, you must have a conscience. To have a conscience, you must have a soul." --Me!

My beautiful brother, Alexander. He is my hope and my inspiration. He is in my daughter's eyes, and forever in my heart. May he rest in peace, forever undaunted by the bludgeons of time. Your grey eyes are eternally burned into my mind, Alex.

My Grampops, USMC, MGYSGT James F. Feeney. Miss you, Pops!
[LtoR Aunt Donna, Gramps, Uncle Tony]

Animal Mother from Full Metal Jacket
Much love.