ambiguous.miss

&hearts &hearts &hearts
So, Im 21 going on 75, Im quiet and shy, Loud and outgoing, wise beyond my years and immature, definitely and Old Soul. I listen to and love "Alternative" ""Emo"" music, but also have a not so secret love of pop and indie. I dress goth, girly, preppy, grunge, punk, and also "normal" pretty much whatever I like.
Im sick of being labelled a poser. I'm not a poser, I am me, I wear, dress, act and do whatever the heck I like, when I like to. I like what I like, and I don't like what I don't.
Im not your average person!
I'm the kinda girl who will sit staring of into space and everyone will think I'm sad and ask what's wrong. But in all reality I have hilarious comedic feats playing in my head. I'll often be on the bus/tram listening to music or just walking down the street and laugh or smile at nothing, Just some random thought that crossed my mind or feeling I felt when thinking of people.
I laugh too much, I'm too serious, I run through fallen leaves and play with my food. I have days when I see the beauty and innocence of the smallest, and largest things, days when I'm carefree and happy. Innocent as an inquisitive child. Then days when I'm dark and brooding. The latter not happening often.
I can be overtly silly and hyperactive one instant then more serious than your year 12 teachers two weeks before final exams the next. I sing too loudly and dance terribly but its what makes me happy. I get sad when I squish ants or snails, I hate the wet squishing crunchy noise they make when you step on them. I feel so guilty!
Some people say I'm honest to a fault, others say I'm a liar and a bitch. I guess they just don't like to hear the truth, however tactful I say it. I believe in integrity . Saying what you'll do and doing what you say.
I strongly believe that I am an individual. I cannot think of which mould I fit, I have tried many many many times to put myself into some kind of stereotype. For quite some time I worried that I did not belong. I discussed this with many people who all reassured me that it doesn't matter if you fit in a group or not. I'm proud of who I am.
One of the most important things in life are being true to yourself and to your friends, Before that, true to your enemies. If you're honest about yourself and your fuck ups then they can't bite you in the arse.!
It really makes me mad when people tell me I'm WRONG.! When I know damn well I'm not. Even more, I hate it when people realise that I'm write and still argue that I'm wrong. One of the biggest challenges in life is realising and admitting when you are at fault.
Make no judgements, Tell no lies.
&hearts &hearts &hearts