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About Me

I like sad songs and scary movies and funny people that make me think. I like color on walls and grass under my bare feet. I like shooting stars - I know they’re just bits of dust and rock falling into our atmosphere, but I like them all the same. I think full moons are haunting and lovely, and I like the idea that someone very far away can see it too, exactly as you are. It’s comforting. In general, the more people I’m around the more alone I feel. I’m not good with big crowds or small talk. If you don’t ask the right questions, every answer seems wrong. I drink way too much coffee. I accept this about myself. I’m beginning to understand what they mean when they say, “you can’t go home.” Whoever “they” is. It’s a little bit sad, isn't it? It amazes me (and sort of hurts my head at the same time) when I think of the little decisions we make almost constantly that bring us to where we are right this very second. I like the idea that you can change your mind or change your direction at any point…that we’re never really done. It’s uncertain and unfinished and imperfect. I love it. I read this on a magnet in a coffee shop and it made me smile: “Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.” No pressure.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

This is my imaginary dinner party: I sit next to Hugh Grant (obviously his hand is on my thigh), Charlotte and Emily Bronte sit across from me and we engage in witty conversation (Anne is not specifically invited, but is, of course, welcome). Gene Kelly sits at my left and asks me to dance every 20-30 minutes (I oblige, gladly). Every once in a while Gael Garcia Bernal cuts in (and every once in a while he says something flirty to me in Spanish). Ben Folds, Dave Matthews, and Jason Mraz provide music they have written especially for me. Margaret Sanger sits at one head of the table, Jon Stewart at the other - politically, we're covered. Conan O'Brien and the boy that plays Ron Weasley in Harry Potter serve drinks (because I think they are both awkwardly adorable). Homer Simpson provides comic relief, and Artemis (stunningly beautiful, yet cold, Greek Goddess of the Hunt) stands guard at the door, because, p.s. it's invitation only. (Erica was invited, but decided to go out with Patrick Stewart instead, her loss really). ***I have started my goodbye with Hugh- you know those kind of goodbyes take a while. It's not you, it's me. We had a good run. It will be better for both of us in the end. Yadda, yadda. I would like to extend an open invitation to Shia Labeouf and John Krasinksi. Both run a serious risk of falling for me, but if they're up for the challenge, they know where to find me.***

My Blog

Going Out With a Bang

I'm sitting at the bedside of a patient I've only just met and I'm wondering what weird twist of fate has made it so mine will be the last face she sees. As her heart slows, mine quickens. As she ta...
Posted by on Thu, 10 Jul 2008 22:52:00 GMT

Secret Lairs and Lovers

My horoscope for today reads:Pisces (Feb. 19-Mar. 20)It's one thing to be independent; it's quite another to hide away in your tree house and wonder why nobody's come looking for you yet. Your standof...
Posted by on Fri, 07 Mar 2008 07:05:00 GMT

It Was Good While It Lasted

I was sitting with two fellow nurses and one cute little patient. One of the other nurses was talking about how she was nervous about something. The cute little patient said, "What are you, a scared...
Posted by on Thu, 28 Feb 2008 07:57:00 GMT

Cone Shaped Hats, Cake and Chemo

It's my patient's 13th birthday. She is propped up in a wheelchair, cone shaped hat on her bald little head, mask on her pale face. She seems nauseated and in pain. She looks tired and miserable an...
Posted by on Sun, 24 Feb 2008 22:28:00 GMT

A Birthday Poem from Erica

As it approaches your dayI'm inclined to speak trulyYou're my best friend, my roommate, You are MY Julie!You've got long pretty hair,Your back is not wooly.You give great adviceAnd should have a colum...
Posted by on Thu, 21 Feb 2008 19:16:00 GMT

Heart to Heart

This kid is 15 years old. Doctors told him for two years not to worry about his reoccurring rash. They gave him ointments and creams and sent him on his way. Turns out he has cancer. Oops. You ca...
Posted by on Fri, 15 Feb 2008 10:49:00 GMT

Jury Duty Is The New Dating

I spent all day sitting across from a fella being asked the same questions in different ways: what to you do, where are you from -insert cheesy smile here- what are your hobbies, have you ever had any...
Posted by on Wed, 06 Feb 2008 20:25:00 GMT

In the Night

It's my first time working nights at my old job. All the kids here have HIV. During the hustle and bustle of the day, I almost forget this. Medical stuff aside, these kids have issues. They are l...
Posted by on Tue, 22 Jan 2008 10:42:00 GMT

Comfort in Cotton

I've got an odd assortment of clothing left over from expired relationships t-shirts and sweatpants that were left behind. I still have the extra large Tommy Hilfiger shirt from my high school boyfr...
Posted by on Mon, 07 Jan 2008 14:29:00 GMT

Happy Heart

A wealth of flowers a hint of warmtha deepening of emotionswear it and havea happy heart.A little demanding for a perfume, but I like it. It smells pretty. And now so do I. Deepening of emotions an...
Posted by on Sun, 09 Dec 2007 18:50:00 GMT