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Ugly Doll

I'll puke up my heart just for you so that you will have a mess to clean up, my insides fell out as

About Me

"Boys"
Everytime you talk shit just comes out of your mouth, Your heart is moosh, over cooked meat. Dead! Your charm is only a trick-tricks is all you pull. A magician. False magic- false love-false emotions. You only wanna see what I am hiding, then the chase is over. I am no longer a mystry. I'll contimate your soul like you have polluted mine with your little boy hood. You're not a man just a boy in descise. You smash hearts and giggle as I cry myself to sleep and you'll pull your next trick. Little girls, if they only knew better. Good guys even have a bad guy wanting to be released. Guess I have been the lucky one over and over again.
"Princess"
I had a bad day. Liquor will be my friend for the night.More than once-I love you.Make me dizzy-drain me and fill me up.I may sob-I may melt-I may bleed and I may fall.Kill me over and over again.I will crash.I was never worthy.All this anger is on myself. Last year was a bad year.All these tears boiled up leaving blisters on my heartand sores on my flesh.I tried to paint over them and draw a smile on my face.But my face is wax.My hair falls out in gobs-I shed like a dying animal.Becoming weak.Helpless--hopeless.I will shave my emotions away. Wreckless.I am unwrapped candy ready to be devoured and forgotten.One minute lust-one minute guilt, only enjoyingmy moment of time.Loosen me-shake me-scream and suck everthing I got left.I am a little girl locked in this form.A dying princess with posion rushing down my throatuntil it reaches to my brain.Dancing in my head dreams and fantasy. Love and purity.Isolated in my doll house covered in pain.Memories.No daddy and mommy ran away to another world.Razor blades kept in my secret box ready to play.Whisky bottles glued to the cabinets.Alone and left to save myself.But I can’t breathe.The blisters on my heart are too large to heal. The life of a liquor fairy tale.The blood on my legs-the depression that is constant.The fire in my soul-the guilty kisses that feel so good.I want to swing and twirl ending myself and die one last time--with my crown.
"The Garden"
I want to snuggle up to you underneath the stars--on the sunniest day.In the middle of no where-on another planet.I want to smother you with sweet kisses-constantly.Even if it’s just for one day.Even if you say this must stop.You bring the goodness along with the badness.I feel alive when you are near, the numbness goes away.Just you and I even if I am just a lustful thought.I want to pour my heart out onto you. An ocean into yours.You know my secrets.Kiss me even if it’s full of liquor and dirt.I want it more than anything. I crave you like a hungry flower.I desire your every being.I can’t hold back-I want to be free.Escape from reality and from this earth with you.I don’t want to resist, pull me in closer.I wish it were another time so it could be as it is.No hiding-no seeking- no guilt. Just pure lovely bliss.But all good things must come to an end.I’m just not quite ready yet.~~Dolly
I have TWO personalites not exactly split, The first one is the sweet and nice stylist who keeps her mouth shut at work about any serious issues. Then the other side of me is the angry, depressed feminist- the pro-choice anti religion atheist who is all about human rights-big on gay rights. Vegetarian, and loves animals more than people, the poet, very opionated and hates to look like everyone. I hate men the exception of the two Mikes in my life.. Mikey and Mike my two favorite men...
Other things about me are : I am a rat lover for life!!!I love pinups-Marilyn Monroe and Betty Page are my idea of perfection~~I am the girl that you want to meet but will never forget. The insane poet, the insane stylist-the unstable girlfriend and drunk friend. The sensative soul so fragile it's like walking on glass with me. I am excentric and can make your life better but worse too-depends on my mood. I am sweet as pure sugar but dark as chocolate. I only give 2 chances. People wish they really knew what went on in my head...sometimes I can be hard to figure out. Other times you can see right through me-that's if I truly trust you. I tend to say things with out thinking, that's me being too honest sometimes it may sound stupid and other times may hurt people. Either is done intenually unless you have hurt me.I love too much and that gets me in trouble.~~
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My Interests


Atheist, animals Vegetarian for about 3 . Cats. rodents, make-up,HALLOWEEN! Is my favorite day of the year-wish it were Halloween everyday! liquid eyeliner,bleach, hair color, bright and colorful hair- hotpink eyeshadow, pink lipstick. Pale, black hair, glitter. shimmer,TATTOOS--And Piercings-- black and pink, glam ,punk, being a feminist, Emily The Strange. Music-poetic gloomy music, metal, 80s hair bands, pretty people. ♥ Mikey ♥ Love, poetry, eating healthy, organic foods, animal friendly products . Dolls!, Barbie!!, fairytales,HELLO KITTY!! unicorns, pixys, poetry- I write on issues that are important to me or when I am upset about something. The world, religion, body image, love, women's right as well as animal rights.

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I'd like to meet:

Sweet, artsy, different,atheist, poetic people and people who I have a common interest with :)
~~I am the girl that you want to meet but will never forget. The insane poet, the insane stylist-the unstable girlfriend and drunk friend. The sensative soul so fragile it's like walking on glass with me. I am excentric and can make your life better but worse too-depends on my mood. I am sweet as pure sugar but dark as chocolate. I only give 2 chances. People wish they really knew what went on in my head...sometimes I can be hard to figure out. Other times you can see right through me-that's if I truly trust you. I tend to say things with out thinking, that's me being too honest sometimes it may sound stupid and other times may hurt people. Either is done intenually unless you have hurt me.I love too much and that gets me in trouble.~~

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Music:

Hair bands- Twisted Sister and Slaughter are my two favorites, M. Manson, Hole, Mazzy Star, Norah Jones Old Jewel- I love gloomy and Poetic music......., 80s music - The Cure ,Poison, Motley Crue, Billy Idol, Pat Bentar, Cyndi Lauper, Garbage( love them!), Smashing Pumpkins,Joan Jett,Gwar, Blondie,45 Grave, Marilyn Monroe :),Joy Division, Devo, Judas Priest, Cinderella, Posion- I mostly listen to 80s music. I also listen to 90s alternative music-punk, goth etc.. If it's made in the 80s most likely I will love it! I think that time was the best for music and fashion. I have the bright pink and blue tights to prove it ha! I will be adding more music-music plays a big part in my writing it helps me get inspired.

Movies:


horror horror horror!!! These are my favorites-- The Exorcist, Carrie, High Tension, The Devil's Rejects, The Shining, May, House Of 1000 Corpses, Zombie movies-old horror movies as well. Iron Man(Japanese film), Vincent Price movies, Gothica, The Ring, The Grudge,The Decent,The Craft, The Hills Has Eyes, NightMare On Elm Street, the first few though after awhile it became lame. Cugo, I grew up watching those my mom let me watch horror when I was really little so I love it! Halloween- the first 2 are my favorites though, Legend, Gia, Walk The Line, Last Kiss, Candy,Closer,Garden State,Enternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind, Juno,The Good Girl, The Break-Up,Johnny Depp moivies.. Gorillas In The Mist. Rocky Horror Picture Show, The Labyrinth- I just love men in makeup ;)I also love independent film.. And Lolita, Ghost World, Sylvia, Running With Scissors, Normal, Boys Don't Cry, Just about any movie with Christiana Ricci, Ice Storm, Prozac Nation, Pumpkin etc.... Those are just a few.

Television:

Rugrats :) Grim, some japan anime, Chobits, StrawberryEggs, and Ranma 1/2, JEM, Masters Of Horror on ShowTime. A&E, Scrubs, Family Plots-not on tv anymore though :(, Six Feet Under,Buffy- the old Buffy is my favorite though when it first came out-- shows on serial killers. I can't forget Carnivale and Sex And The City, Carrie Is my favorite character ♥, My So-Called Life is a 90s show but I still love it and would watch the reruns like I do Sex In The City a hundred times over!

Books:

Poetry mostly, but I am open to other things as well.

Heroes:

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