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You don't know how it feels to be me...
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Sex: Female
Height: 5' 5"
Body type: Average
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Brown Black
Hair Style: Messy and Overgrown.
Ethnicity: White / Caucasian
Relationship Status: Single, Confused
Here for: Friends
Hometown: Monroe
Religion: Agnostic
Orientation: Pansexual
Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
Chinese Zodiac: Monkey
Children: Undecided
Occupation: Student

Current thought: "Life is a symphony of off-tune musicians and that sweet sickly sound they make... well that's the human race."

Phobias

Large scale.
Phallophobia - The fear of penises, especially when erect.
Maieusiophobia - The fear of getting pregnant.
Philophobia - The fear of falling love or being in love
Acutely
Catagelophobia - The fear of being ridiculed.
Ophthalmophobia - The fear of being stared at.

(Funny that I fear some of the things I want most; how dreadfully ironic.)

Definition.
OptimisticPessimist - One who always hopes to the best and canlook to the bright side, but realizes that the worst canand most likely will happen and takes it all instride.
Hey, I haven't seen you around in a while. I didn't go to work for a month. I didn't leave my bed for eight days straight. I haven't hung out with anyone, 'Cause if I did, I'd have nothing to say. I didn't feel angry or depressed; I didn't feel anything at all. I didn't want to go to bed and I didn't want to stay up late. When you're living your life, well, that's the price you pay. Whenever I breath out, you're breathing it in.
BOOM! Crash-landing... it's '92 and I have just been pulled screaming covered in blood from my mothership. I grow, heal, and learn. It's been 16 years since, 17 come this December 22nd.
In all my time existing here I've found out many things about the world and more so myself. I've gone on personal journeys of self-discovery, dreamed of a better life, and tried to follow the path I've made for myself.
I'm honest and straight forward, but I write in riddles. I'm semi-conservative hippie. I dream big, but take baby steps instead of leaps and bounds. I love the outdoors, but I'm confined in a tiny room. I have flaws and strengths. I am Alyson - C3PO, Squee, Lathriel, Et Cetra - and I am a complex contradiction and vaster than the expanse of the seas.
I will live. I will breathe. I will eat, drink, shit, and eventually die. What else I will do is a mystery no matter what plans I've made for the future. What I shall try to do is a different story.
In a perfect world, I will gather knowledge endlessly, I will cut open the dead, and I will shoot people. I will love, I will create, I will relax, I will mediate, I will perform yoga, travel, meet new people, and make new friends. I will smoke; drink; fuck; and I will get beat, bitten, bound, and broken. I will be loved; I will belong; I will give my all; I will cherish all I hold dear; and I will always grow, improve myself, learn about myself and many another thing, and strive to be the ultimate philanthropist. I will believe in various bits of religions as an agnostic, reincarnate, and live again. I will be my perfect me.
I despise blacklisting, anti-smoking legislature, synthetic drugs, my sperm donor, ignorance, people who DUI (I worry for them... it scares me), and how people drift apart. I miss many people and have still to meet more. I hate feeling trapped, overwhelmed, and guilty. As such I try to live to be as honest I can be and avoid the judgmental crowd. I fear so much and I hate my fear. It's a handicap. Most of all though I hate being left behind. I feel abandoned... so please don't ever leave me.
I could never write my entire self into existence on a webpage.

I have a to-do list in my life, at the moment this consistsw of: finding myself my ideal dominate who will love me and claim me for the world to see, have sex with Kyle (Just kidding... or am I... or I am kidding then too. OOOH!), get a D&D group started up, hang out with Slouch more, get a tattoo, get a job, visit Kay if she doesn't move back here, learn, create, read, finish my English summerwork, start roleplaying more, get my basement in order to be my room, start two large and different aquarium biodomes, start a garden, get more ear piercings, lose weight, eat healthier, buy more nerd gear, buy more geek gear, exercise more, get another dumbo-eared rat, get a better hookah, get a projector, start going to dagorhir every once in a while again, get a gym (or Y) membership, get more old school games, rebuild my metaphysical fortress, take more photos, go the graveyard more often, see Alice Cooper in concert, go to more concerts, get guitar strings and learn how to play Blu, go to a cheap college (probably MCCC)or a more expensive on a full-ride for my prerequisites, get into UMMS for my M.D. and my Ph.D in Pathology so I can become the medical examiner I desire to be, write, get tarot cards, get books on tarot cards, start reading tarot cards, start going to Denny's regularly again, and worship David Bowie (check on Bowie).
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CONCERTS EXPERIENCED: 20 Santana @ The Pine Knob 7/1/03 My Chemical Romance, Akaline Trio, Reggie and the Full Effect@ EMU 9/17/05 Taste Of Chaos Tour 2006 Vans' Warped Tour 2006 Amity, Fireworks, Daniel, ect. @ St.Mary's Park 6/16/06 Amity, the Weakend, Momentum Momentum, Search The City, and Fireworks @ Farmington Hills American Legion Hall 9/18/06 Purple Crayon, Attacked by Wolves, Ect. @ Club Bijou 1/26/07 Purple Crayon, Ect. @ Club Bijou 2/24/07 Dash the Assassin, SOP, Rosella, Against the Fire, ECT. @ Headliners 3/23/07 Taste of Chaos Tour 2007 7STL, Rotation, Fortune Favors, Ashes of Soma, The Separation Tree @ Headliners Dan Brunner @ Club Neutron Trumpets & Sirens, Owlwood, I Am The Alarm, Whiskey Red @ Cafe' Classics Purple Crayon @ Headliners 8/11/07 The Sapphire Social, I AM THE ALARM @ Cafe' Classics The Protomen @ The Painted Lady Lounge 2/10/08 St. Mary's Rotation concert 7/20/08 Rochester Michgan's School of Rock's Punk Explosion 1/24/09 Rochester Michigan's School of Rock's Black Sabbath Tribute Dismantled, Aesthetic Perfection, Julien K, Combichrist @ Headliners 6/25/09
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My Blog

Truth or Dare: Brad, Lauren,Tiffani, Kam, Sam, Et Cetra, so I don't have to explain it again.

Once upon time there were three bored beings. A Squee, a Brad, and a Lauren. They played truth or dare to fix that. Things were silly at times and intense at others. Sometimes B was there and sometime...
Posted by on Tue, 07 Jul 2009 09:02:00 GMT

I can't do this anymore....

I don't care about every little speck of dust or the one shoe out of place. I don't care that MY room's dirty. I don't care about all this superficial bullshit. It's clean enough. I'm doing what I can...
Posted by on Mon, 06 Jul 2009 13:33:00 GMT

Ignored.

This feeling in my stomach has sparked to life once more, the feeling that I'm hated, disgusting, and/or unwanted. Sitting here and thinking I have to wonder why this happens when I've been told how a...
Posted by on Sun, 05 Jul 2009 22:21:00 GMT

Why?

Since when did I get along with someone else's family better than my own? Why is it I can feel at place and ease with Tonya's family at Carol's, but not at my own Grandmother's house surrounded by my ...
Posted by on Sun, 05 Jul 2009 16:33:00 GMT

In the night...

I am the crown of thorns...I am the dreading ache in your chest...and I am the one who makes you cry.My blood is on your hands,and you're screaming.My blood is on your face,and you're sobbing.The grie...
Posted by on Thu, 02 Jul 2009 09:34:00 GMT

Funeral Love

Her eyes remain cold, and beneath you she lies still.Her heart's beating, her lungs... they're breathing.No passion passes through her calm face, and no sound escapes her lips.You're damned to this......
Posted by on Tue, 30 Jun 2009 19:40:00 GMT

Life is... well... umm...

You don't know how it feels.. No, you don't know how it feels to be me.Crash-landing. Bam! Creation. I am born in '92 on the 22nd of December. For the many years after I grew a year older with each pa...
Posted by on Sat, 27 Jun 2009 20:22:00 GMT

Grateful

I am grateful for the smell on my sheets and pillow case that lingers like ghost, and the warmth that stayed for only but a moment. I am grateful for the fact that I was able to swallow a fear of mine...
Posted by on Fri, 12 Jun 2009 10:02:00 GMT

Politically Incorrect Truths About Human Nature (I knew it!)

Ten Politically Incorrect Truths About Human Nature Why most suicide bombers are Muslim, beautiful people have more daughters, humans are naturally polygamous, sexual harassment isn't sexist, and blo...
Posted by on Thu, 04 Jun 2009 03:30:00 GMT

The plan stan....

The Ohio Theatre | 3114 Lagrange St. | Toledo, OH 43608Repo! The Genetic Opera will be shown April 25th at 9:00 PM. First showing of this movie in NW Ohio. Setting: Year is 2056 and human parts are ...
Posted by on Wed, 22 Apr 2009 19:19:00 GMT