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&lt;Astrèa&gt;

Because of YOU i am Nothing

About Me

ONE: NOTHING'S WRONG WITH ME! The name is Astrèa, although only a few call me that, most just settle with Star. I dont believe in a higher power, although i do not condemn the idea. i believe in people. it is their choices that cause the good and the harm in the world, and it is in them you should base your trust, your faith. I am currently a sophmore in highschool, and my life is quite simple. although i do hope to graduate early so i can get out of montana sooner, even if the freedom wont last too long. i really would rather be in some warmer climate in a considerably bigger city. i am a quiet person, especially around those i dont know, i like to observe more than interact. i am constantly thinking, even when i really dont want to be. but thats about it. and through it all i have learned that life really is beautiful, no matter what happens. on another note, i am in love with the most amazing guy ever. he is indiscribable, which is in some ways a good thing cuz if i were able to discribe him, you'd be in love with him too. and im a little too selfish and jealous for that lol...THIS WORLD CAN TURN ME DOWN, BUT I WONT TURN AWAY, AND I WONT DUCK AND RUN, CUZ IM NOT BUILT THAT WAY.

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What is your name?: Astrea
Are you named after anyone?: no
What's your screename?:
Would you name a child of yours after you?: nope
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: hell if i know
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: Sydney...
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: all the time
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: i would change it back to Light
Basics
Your gender:: female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: nope
If not, do you want to be?: nope not for the world
Birthdate:: 5/21/91
Your age:: 15
Age you act:: 20-ish
Age you wish you were:: i dont care
Your height:: i refuse to measure how short i am
Eye color:: hazel/green
Happy with it?: fuck yeah i am
Hair color:: black with purple streaks!!!
Happy with it?: yeah
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: righty
Your living arrangement:: in a house...
Your family:: messed upp
Have any pets?: lots
Whats your job?: i have no occupation
Piercings?: ears
Tattoos?: not yet
Obsessions?: a couple
Addictions?: nope...well maybe one...;P
Do you speak another language?: yo tengo una problema con gente!!! y/und Gott findt du hasslich!
Have a favorite quote?: though lovers be lost love shall not
Do you have a webpage?: myspace/vf
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: umm...kinda have to...seeing as i dont have a time machine..
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: i ♥ everybody!..well, unless they're mean to me
Do you have any secrets?: who doesnt?
Do you hate yourself?: sometimes
Do you like your handwriting?: sure
Do you have any bad habits?: maybe...idk
What is the compliment you get from most people?: you're so pretty
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Star: You Know You're Jealous
What's your biggest fear?: lots
Can you sing?: sure...just not well
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: fuck no i dont
Are you a loner?: *sniff* nobody loves me
What are your #1 priorities in life?: live...eat...sleep...love
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: fuck yeah i would...im that awesomely cool
Are you a daredevil?: not really
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: yeah, my copacity to think...its dangerous at times
Are you passive or agressive?: passive until you piss me off. then i tend to be agressive
Do you have a journal?: sure
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: idk
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: life
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: i had better be
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: yeah
Do you think life has been good so far?: not really, but its looking up currently
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: HUGS NOT DRUGS!!
What do you like the most about your body?: everything!!
And least?: meh, some things..
Do you think you are good looking?: yeah, at times
Are you confident?: im good at pretending i am
What is the fictional character you are most like?: psh...idk
Are you perceived wrongly?: at times
Do You...
Smoke?: nope
Do drugs?: nope
Read the newspaper?: sometimes
Pray?: nope
Go to church?: yeah
Talk to strangers who IM you?: they are creepy
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no
Take walks in the rain?: its wonderful
Talk to people even though you hate them?: i have no choice...i cant just ignore them
Drive?: not legally, no
Like to drive fast?: thats the only way i do drive
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: sure
Hurt yourself?: yeah
Been out of the country?: yeah
Eaten something that made other people sick?: sure....?
Been in love?: am currently
Done drugs?: no
Gone skinny dipping?: hehe...it was a bit nippy
Had a medical emergency?: yeah
Had surgery?: sorta kinda
Ran away from home?: tried
Played strip poker?: nope
Gotten beaten up?: sorta
Beaten someone up?: no...violence is not the answer
Been picked on?: *sniff* yeah....
Been on stage?: sorta
Slept outdoors?: yeah...it was chilly
Thought about suicide?: often
Pulled an all nighter?: yeah
If yes, what is your record?: like 6AM
Gone one day without food?: sadly yes
Talked on the phone all night?: not really. i hate talking on the phone
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yeah
Slept all day?: yeah
Killed someone?: maybe
Made out with a stranger?: he was a stranger at the time, yeah
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: all the time
Kissed the same sex?: no
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Been betrayed?: yeah
Had a dream that came true?: all the time
Broken the law?: ...who wants to know?
Met a famous person?: sorta
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: no
On purpose?: *sniff* no i havent....thats cruel
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: who hasnt?
Stolen anything?: probably
Been on radio/tv?: yeah
Been in a mosh-pit?: fuck yeah i have
Had a nervous breakdown?: several
Bungee jumped?: not yet
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yeah several ones
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: sure
Miracles?: no
Astrology?: sorta
Magic?: not really
God?: no
Satan?: no
Santa?: no
Ghosts?: sorta
Luck?: sure
Love at first sight?: sorta
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yeah
Witches?: no
Easter bunny?: no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yes i do
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: sure
Do you wish on stars?: all the time =]
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: no
Do you think God has a gender?: no
Do you believe in organized religion?: if it works for you, go at it
Where do you think we go when we die?: i dont know. ill find out when i die
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yeah
Who is your best friend?: Criss, Sydney, Shay
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Criss/Shay/Sydney/Jake
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: keep on living. it will get better. not immediatly, but it will
Your favourite inside joke?: SESIME SEEDS!!!
Thing you're picked on most about?: what i look like
Who's your longest known friend?: Criss
Newest?: Sydney
Shyest?: Ashley
Funniest?: Shay
Sweetest?: idk
Closest?: Criss
Weirdest?: Shay
Smartest?: lol
Ditziest?: Caitlen
Friends you miss being close to the most?: idk
Last person you talked to online?: Paul
Who do you talk to most online?: lol....Paul
Who are you on the phone with most?: Jake
Who do you trust most?: Jake
Who listens to your problems?: Jake, Criss, Shay, Sydney
Who do you fight most with?: Criss
Who's the nicest?: psh, they all are nice
Who's the most outgoing?: Shay
Who's the best singer?: Criss
Who's on your shit-list?: Jeremiah Jensen, Edly Moon, dustin, yeah
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: not a friend no
Who's your second family?: i have lots of second families...but Criss'
Do you always feel understood?: not in the least
Who's the loudest friend?: Shay
Do you trust others easily?: no
Who's house were you last at?: Jake's dad's house
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: Jake
Do your friends know you?: yeah they do
Friend that lives farthest away:: Criss: new mexico
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: nope
What do you find romantic?: being with him
Turn-on?: roses, biting=], when he rubs my tummy
Turn-off?: nothing with him
First kiss?: a BIG mistake
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: back the fuck away from me now
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: well its better to know their personality so i guess so
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: umm not really. cuz im too chicken shit to ask them out.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv: not really
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: i would hope so
What is best about the opposite sex?: personality
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: ego
What's the last present someone gave you?: umm....a teddy bear from my aunt and uncle
Are you in love?: deeply so
Do you consider your significant other hot?: yes yes i do
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: Rob
You wanted to kill?: Jeremiah, Dustin, Rob, Shawna
That you laughed at?: Paul
That laughed at you?: Jake...
That turned you on?: Jake
You went shopping with?: Mike and Speedo
That broke your heart?: Rob
To disappoint you?: umm....
To ask you out?: Mike
To make you cry?: i cant remember
To brighten up your day?: Jake
That you thought about?: Jake
You saw a movie with?: that was a while ago.....
You talked to on the phone?: Kat
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: ???
You saw?: Jake
You lost?: myself
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: ummm...no
Will it be with your significant other?: seeing as im not going out, nope
Or some random person?: nope
What are you wearing right now?: pjs!!
Body part you're touching right now:: my leg....
What are you worried about right now?: lots of stuff
What book are you reading?: Dracula and Lord of the Flies
What's on your mousepad?: nothing
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: Confused, pain, happy, sad, sleepy
Are you bored?: yeah
Are you tired?: extremely
Are you talking to anyone online?: yeah
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: i was...
Are you lonely or content?: content
Are you listening to music?: Glycerine by Bush
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.. You scored as Biting. When it comes to being kinky, your biggest turn on is biting. You love the ectasy of teeth sinking into your flesh, and are probably willing to return the favor. Sex just isn't sex without using your teeth.

Biting


92%

Blood


83%

Bondage


58%

Whips


50%

Blind Folds


50%

Chains/Handcuffs


42%
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My Interests

anything that catches my eye at the moment. my future interests would be becoming a teacher, whether of Highschool English or college Philosiphy or Psychology, i dont know yet.
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I'd like to meet:

nobody in particular. everybody i would ever want to know i already know. really i could care less about the famous people out there. they dont effect me

Music:

as many of you know, my favorite band by far is KoRn, for their awesome songs. close up in the running would be system of a down, disturbed, tool, godsmack, evanescence, metallica. good bands like those ones. Thoughtless Add a video to your site FREE Music Video Codes
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You scored as KoRn. You are a KoRnaholic!You have a deep hate for 1 or both of your parents/step parents. You feel you are never listened to and don..'t fit in anywhere.

KoRn


94%

Mudvayne


94%

Metallica


88%

Static-X


81%

System of a Down


75%

Slipknot


69%

Marilyn Manson


69%

Rammstein


38%
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Movies:

Lord of the Rings,Phantom of the Operah,King Kong,Corpse Bride,Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Edward Scissorhands, V for Vendetta, Underworld, Finding Neverland, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Secret window, The shawshank redemption, Pirates of the Carribean 1&2, hmmm...., Underworld Evolution, Nightmare Before Christmas, Chicago,Farenheit 911, the Producers, Pride and Prejudice, The Princess Bride, Rent, The Crow, dodgeball: a true underdog story,anchorman, ice age and ice age 2

Television:

i dont really watch television religiously. in fact i havent since august, so......

Books:

Lord of the Flies, The Dark Tower series, LOTR, Lost Souls, Drawing Blood, The Stand, Bag of Bones, Tommynockers, Exquisist Corpse, the Complete Stories and Poems of Edgar Allen Poe, Flowers for Algernon, Eragon, Eldest, Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse. anything by Terry Brooks. a lot of fantasy, fiction, and i really like fiction that makes you see the truth, example being Lord of the Flies. great book. along with Fahrenheit 451. the book makes you see the future, and not in a creepy, drug-induced sort of way.

Heroes:

TEAR DOWN YOUR IDOLS! bow to no one

My Blog

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Waves are crashing beside me, A distant and unimportant sound, The stars spangled above me, So far from the ground, I hear you whisper you love me, And take me by the hand I can feel you here beside m...
Posted by [[Astrèa]] on Sat, 08 Sep 2007 04:34:00 PST

Music

And so I'm enraptured, With no other ties, No way to claim What within me doesnt lie. So I'll remain here, Play it through once again, With a fleeting sadness That this beauty cannot be mine....
Posted by [[Astrèa]] on Sun, 26 Aug 2007 01:47:00 PST

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A tear slides downA broken child's cheek, The wind stirs again, Making old bones creek, The truth in hidingIs for only one to seek, Shining moon sinks;The death of another week, The dark shadow that r...
Posted by [[Astrèa]] on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 10:00:00 PST

untitled

Its love. Its life. An act. A play. A mask. Pretend. Be real. It hurts. To feel. Risk it. Keep it. End it. Do you? Need to? Move through. Its over. Its gone. This act. This mask. What use? The noose? ...
Posted by [[Astrèa]] on Tue, 12 Jun 2007 11:49:00 PST

Truth?

Lets grab our masks And play illusions With things like love. Its great, you knew, But is it true, True to you? You know its a masqurade, For all its horrid truth: Its all pretend- These pretty faces,...
Posted by [[Astrèa]] on Tue, 12 Jun 2007 12:02:00 PST

why?

i dont understand it. its not as if im the one giving her any trouble.i sit there. i do mostly what she wants. i take all the shit she throws at me, all the stuff she says. i just want out. im sick of...
Posted by [[Astrèa]] on Fri, 01 Jun 2007 10:19:00 PST

Silver Blade

Distorted and varied, Shiney and faded, A ghost of me: My silvered reflection.   The edge of the metal me Sharpened and pointed, Cutting off part of me: Only partially there.   Eyes less bri...
Posted by [[Astrèa]] on Wed, 30 May 2007 08:54:00 PST

Inherently Depraved?

I brought you here So near to the end To tell you something That you may not want to hear:   These are the lands called Good, Great trees once grew, Tropical birds chirped and flew, And here i w...
Posted by [[Astrèa]] on Wed, 30 May 2007 08:37:00 PST

Birthday Poem

The sixteenth year On the twenty first day Of the fifth month two thousand and seven years after Christ Not much has changed From the day called yesterday.   He still loves me, As evidenced by t...
Posted by [[Astrèa]] on Tue, 22 May 2007 04:29:00 PST

Hidden Advice

My past is catching up faster and faster, Slam the door Shatter the glass Now pick up the peices that will never last Ignore the blood the past has drawn Try to piece together The thing you thought yo...
Posted by [[Astrèa]] on Sat, 05 May 2007 07:06:00 PST