RIGEL

This is my life, good to the last drop. It doesn't get any better than this. This is my life, and it's ending one minute at a time. This isn't a seminar, this isn't a weekend retreat. Where I am now, I can't even imagine what the bottom will be like. Only after disaster can I be resurrected. It's only after I've lost everything, that I'm free to do anything. Nothing is static; everything is falling. Everything is falling apart. This is my life. It doesn't get any better than this. This is my life, and it's ending one minute at a time. I am not a beautiful and unique snowflake! I am the same decaying organic matter as everything else! We are all part of the same compost heap. We are the all singing, all dancing crap of the world. I am not my bank account, I am not the clothes I wear, and I am not the contents of my wallet. I am not your bowel cancer, I am not my Iced Carmel Macchiato, and I am not the car I drive. I am not my fucking khakis. I have to give up. I have to give up. I have to realize, that some day I will die. Until I know that, I am useless. I say, let me never be complete. I say, may I never be content. I say, deliver me from Swedish furniture! I say, deliver me from clever art! I say, deliver me from clear skin and perfect teeth! I say, I have to give up. I say, evolve; and let the chips fall where they may. This is my life, doesn't get any better than this. This is my life, and it's ending one minute at a time. ************************************************************ *********************************************