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About Me

1.My Von
2.Von'sAlbumI spent most of my life hiding behind a mask that pretends to smile even when inside i'm not, pretends to be brave even though i'm not, pretends to be whole even when i'm shattered. there was a lot to overcome. how easy it is to give up on life, to hide away and stay at the edge of life. but one beautiful man taught me to believe, taught me that I can find the courage to be whole. it's a long road. sometimes i fall back. but he just grabs my arms and pulls me back on my feet, laughing, telling me not to be a scaredy boo. he inspires, he amazes me, he believes in me even when nobody else does. i love him. completely. with all that my scarred self can give. I love you, Sashaboo. I love you with the best in me and the worst of me, hoping that you would never give up believing that one day I'll be better than good. I love you my Sasha.

My Interests

loving. living. believing. making maps with sashaboo.

I'd like to meet:

my other selves.

Music:

music that grips me in the gut... idlewild, better than ezra, low millions, u2, era, HIM, and Sasha's voice...

Movies:

night watch, day watch, superstar, before sunset, purple rose of cairo, original sin, chocolat, sinverguenza, suddenly naked, vincent malloy, starship troopers, fifth element, planet terror, ever after, confessions of an ugly stepsister, kama sutra, lost in translation, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, out of africa, the libertine, resident evil, sin city, hellboy, constantine, spinal tap, a midsummer night's dream, woman on top, painted veil

Television:

futurama, billy and mandy, heroes

Books:

streets of blood, till we have faces, goodbye johnny thunders, smokes and mirrors, a thousand country roads, the sandman series, law of love, the lost diary of don juan, knight in shining armor

Heroes:

people who have the courage to be loved.
also David Karnes

My Blog

Kosovo the Bone

Should Kosovo be separated from Serbia, this bears thinking: who will defend a lone and weak Kosovo from those that say they "fight for Kosovo's freedom." For example, Martin Luther King had said, "It...
Posted by von on Sat, 02 Feb 2008 08:12:00 PST

OCTOBER, my birthday, beers, whatares..

"when we find someone who is brave, fun, intelligent, and loving, we HAVE TO thank the universe" .. and so, Universe, thank you for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
Posted by von on Mon, 15 Oct 2007 05:31:00 PST

bloom where you are planted

i am ever so grateful for and humbled by all the good things in my life. from the deepest core of my heart, thank you. for everything. thank you.
Posted by von on Sat, 28 Jul 2007 04:21:00 PST

a year ago today..

i had a dream come true.. and it's been soooo good being awake every moment since then... it's been so beautiful being alive... and i am grateful..... ever so grateful ... for each moment i am alive.....
Posted by von on Sat, 21 Jul 2007 05:32:00 PST

not worthy

seems like i always fall short of bein worthy...i aint no superstar, the spotlight isn't shinin on me ...I aint good enough.... but he still loves me. I'm not perfect....I do wrong.... i'm t...
Posted by von on Sat, 21 Jul 2007 05:26:00 PST

flying. free.

'I do not have to stay in one place forever.' the universe looks out for me. i will be free.i trust in the universe to take me away from places, people, situations, things that aren't real to me, that...
Posted by von on Thu, 28 Jun 2007 04:22:00 PST

i am here. i am now. i am forever. through the here. through the now.

the heart may freeze or it can burn...the pain will ease if I can learnthere is no future...there is no past... I live this moment as my lastthere's only us... there's only this...forget regret...or l...
Posted by von on Thu, 28 Jun 2007 04:38:00 PST

tv

one moment I was at my desk banging my head on all the hard surfaces i could find because my system refused to work as it should... the next thing i know... i'll do a show for the Living Asia Cha...
Posted by von on Thu, 21 Jun 2007 09:28:00 PST

a condom broke, therefore i am.

you'll never overcome your failings by hating your shortcomings, nor by hating yourself for indulging yourself. In true kindness to yourself, you should try to strengthen yourself in virtue. See...
Posted by von on Sat, 16 Jun 2007 02:05:00 PST

hari kiri days

are stupid f*ckin days where things seem bent on going wrong. the smallest things collide like little planets gone off orbits and tangents, kabooming into tiny floating fireworks. people should have h...
Posted by von on Fri, 08 Jun 2007 03:25:00 PST